I should be able to tap out.
That’d be nice.
If I could just place my hand over my heart. Give it three quick taps.

Do not praise your children.
For I ask you what have they done?
Have they accomplished some great task?
What battles have they won?

They’re weak and insufferable creatures.
Riddled with stupidity.
I’d just assume have a yak.
Then a child here next to me.

I saw one once out on a farm.
Crying and wailing away.
If I hadn’t had found that well.
It would have gone on all day.

My friend had one, a girl I think.
It did nothing but ***** and ****.
Then it would laugh like a demon I say.
Until it latched onto a ***.

Horrendous monsters these children are.
They only want and whine.
Consuming all that was good on earth.
And breaking what is mine.

All those words overhead
Are simply just untrue
Not a day goes by that I don’t stop
And smile when I think of you

I wake up with a cigarette clinging to my lips like a wee man hanging from a cliff.
I relieve him momentarily by swilling a beer.
I peel myself off my leg and hope my aim is true.
If my leg starts getting wet.
I know something’s off.
General Tso stops in for breakfast whilst I judge the breast of the weather *****.
Fill up the worlds tiniest salad bowl before setting fire to it.
My eyes redden like morning suns before an afternoon storm.
There was something I was suppose to do today.
Or was it yesterday?
I’m hoping tomorrow never gets here so that I don’t have to stress about whatever it was I forgot.
Imagine that?
Wishing for death as opposed to having a memory return.
**** yeah.
Cast some thoughts into the ether, burn a bridge, and stare into the sun for a while.
One more cigarette before bed.
One more night alone.

I’m not good
Or
Evil
Nor am I drunk
Or
Sober
I just am

So check this out.
I go to this bar one night.
Usual place I’d avoid because I just couldn’t imagine there’d be anything for me there.
I’m scanning the place like I’m secret service
And I see her
It was like my heart had seen a ghost.
I’m talking straight ****** and Shaggy a “gh gh gh gh ghost!”
Everything in me just came to a screeching halt.
And none of it was wearing a seat belt.
So it came rushing forward hitting me in the back of my head.
It wasn’t so much how she looked.
Her smile, her ***, none of that non-sense.
It was just her.
Save for every molecule in my body simultaneously exploding at the speed of light; nothing was going to stop me from meeting her.
As cringe as it reads in text as it does to hear it in person, it was magnetic.
I made no presumptions about her.
I didn’t need to.
Because from somewhere, from some point in time. I knew her.
Whether we died in a tragic gondola accident somewhere in the Alps back in the 60’s.
Or perhaps we were banging in a clay pit in Pompeii when Vesuvius erupted.
I don’t know.
The draw to know her, was, is, and will probably be the strongest force I’ve ever felt.
Every second I spent around her was what I imagine walking in space is like.
Just surrounded by starlight, breathlessly in awe.
My will didn’t survive that adventure,
and that’s ok.
I’ll be alright.
Would I go back?
Would I do it all again?
Does ****** want a ****** Snack?

I was never there with you
Where you were
I couldn’t go
Far away I roamed
Through ancient forest
Haunted by stories
Of things that are gone forever
Over rivers of sunlight
And blue deserts
I’d wander tirelessly
Until I found someplace
Echoless and boundless
Where I could be alone
To think about you