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Mercury Chap Feb 2015
Even the worst word like "**** everyone" won't make you feel better.
I don't really use profane words...
  Feb 2015 Mercury Chap
Sky
Fury spins

Swirls

Through my veins

Screaming for release

I don't know how

To release it



Fear builds

Climbs

Into my throat

Threatening to smother

I don't know how

To avoid drowning



Darkness grows

Expands

Across my soul

Trying to **** me

I don't know how

To stay alive
Mercury Chap Feb 2015
The lights suddenly glimmered,
And all the faces shone,
All the beauty appeared,
In all directions.

But there was one corner,
Where the darkness still remained,
And the shadows of people,
Hid the corner more,
And with it, a person,
Slouched against the wall,
Stood there behind the shadows,
Giving up to stay tall.

No one saw her,
But she saw everything,
The lady in the fur,
Was talking stuff about her,
She tried to reach out for the lady,
But her skin burnt,
The moment she stepped out,
Of her corner.

Wasn't ignorance enough for her?
Or does she still have to stay in the shade?

Everyone passed beside her,
But no one noticed the thin shape,
Struggling to get out,
Get out of the gloom,
She lives in.

The lights went out,
And everything reappeared,
Clearer than ever,
And they finally noticed,
The blood that smeared,
Out of her heart,
They finnaly noticed all the wounds,
But like always,
When the lights came up again,
They just turned away,
And walked back in their path.
Mercury Chap Feb 2015
When you look at me
You would see me smiling
You would ignore the pain I carry
You would ignore my scars.

I'm happy, don't you know?
I was never sad
For you, I guess...
Becasue you don't care
You just strike away the depair
That dwells in me
And then you say I don't understand
Because I am always happy.
But one should know
THAT I AM NOT!

The doctor wasn't happy
When I was born
The neighbour wasn't happy
Because I was a girl.

I wasn't happy when I was four
I wasn't happy when I was eight
I remember I cried on my 8th birthday
Because no one was happy I was born that day.

You say I smile
But that's the satan in me smiling
She got what she wanted
She wanted me to get crazy
And now I am.

What more do you want from me?
Are you happy now?
Oh, you're sad?
Then why don't you stop
Saying things about me!
Why don't you ever ******* stop!
You're making me sick!
I'm tired of this
I am tired of slashing my wrist
I am ******* tired of all your jokes
And if this doesn't make YOU happy,
Then I'll have no choice
But to slash my neck.
This is dedicated to all the people who have made me crazy so far.
THANK YOU FOR ALL YOUR HELP. NOW I AM LIVING A HAPPY LIFE. I HOPE YOU ARE HAPPY.
Innocent,
No,
Not since,
I realised.

Child,
No,
Never really,
I know now.

I,
Can never lose,
That part of me,
I understand.

Wish,
No,
Dream of waking from this,
Accepted truth.

I,
Am too late,
To stop myself from hating,
It makes sense.

Could,
Anything,
Be worse than this?
I guess it can.

Be,
Myself?
Never again,
Get it?

Again,
I look at myself,
And see a monster,
But I never knew.

Until it was too late.
Mercury Chap Feb 2015
Why can't life be an endless night?
When the dreamy eyes,
Never lose their sight,
The stars above us would always shine, 
And the silvery moon,
Would become our new sunshine.

Why can't life be an endless night?
When the silence drapes,
Over the noises,
And the night shapes,
On our own choices.

Why can't life be an endless night?
When our thoughts ponder,
On what we are unaware of during the day,
When our thoughts live in the endless horizon,
When our thoughts loiter around,
In a mysterious way.

Why can't life be an endless night?
When we can feel the pleasant breeze,
Under the starry night sky,
We sing a lullaby,
Forever to the trees.

Why can't life be an endless night?
When we forget to sleep,
And our thoughts scatter,
Mirroring the stars,
In the moonlit night,
Reaching a place beyond infinity,
Finding a place where we always hide,
Our true soul of insobriety.
  Feb 2015 Mercury Chap
a
it's strange. Stranger than stranger,
a feeling of the coldest of ice shrouding your
body and the most intense warmth enveloping
it and you don't really know how
to react
because

*this is it
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