Mercury Chap

Jan 2015

Amitav Radiance

Soft rays of the morning light
Are in a playful mood
Playing hide n seek
Between the leaves
Seeing my window ajar
They plan to invade my world
Radiance permeates the air
My heart leaps with joy
Mind wanders across the sky
Unleashed from any prejudices
Makes the day worthwhile
As they swathe my soul with gratitude
Morning light, harbinger of hope
Sun, the talisman
Bringing all the happiness together
A new day and new beginning
Beauty, that’s eternal

#love #sun #hope #new #gratitude #morning #beginning #rays

Jan 2015

Parsavagely Kompenere

Quaternity

Divided opinion,
Conflicting beliefs,
Destroying solidarity,
Heart against head,
Trust against paranoia,
Love against rational thought,
The two factions grow apart,
No longer able to function as one,
In bitter hatred,
They turn against sense,
Then within their own ranks,
Both sides host rebellions,
A second divide,
And now four sub-cultures,
Live within one body,
The heart,
Split between love and fear,
The head,
Split between order and chaos,
But in the end,
Their ideals are the same,
Having all experienced the horror of war,
And the glory of peace,
It would only take the briefest moment,
Of simple reason,
To unite this quaternity,
Into one.

#war #peace #split #reason #four #divide

Jan 2015

Parsavagely Kompenere

A Limerick of Me

A teenager, consumed by hate,
Stayed up incredibly late,
Struggling to sleep,
Though the darkness grew deep,
He convinced himself of his own fate.

His hands reached to open the pills,
As he sought to make himself ill,
But he remembered a friend,
Who prevented his end,
And in a moment he ran out of will.

Alone he decided to write,
Of how he was feeling that night,
The response he received,
Filled him with glee,
And drowned his heart in delight.

So he started to write more and more,
For longer than ever before,
He finished a book,
Immediately hooked,
Though he wasn't sure exactly what for.

#me #limerick

Jan 2015

Parsavagely Kompenere

Perfect Cadence

If music is love expressed, then how will my song play?
Will each phrase be smooth with content or broken by loss?
Will the notes be frantic and panicked, like my searching heart once was?
Or steady and certain, as my head is now?
Will the hands on the keys be shaking and cold?
Or free from fear and dancing in confidence?
How many voices will join the ensemble?
And for fleeting moments or prolonged duets?
Will I keep moving forward with driving rhythms?
Or pull everything back and take a more leisurely pace?
Maybe there will be a turning point, when dark becomes light, or when shadows grow stronger still.
Or perhaps a gentle fade, as each perfect harmony wears away at my soul.
Whether the music rises or falls does not concern me, however.
For the beauty of music is not in the highest note or the hardest bar.
It is in the reason behind every dot on the page.
And In the end there is no point in music for the sake of music, just as there is little point in love for the sake of romance.
I know there will be moments of unsure dissonance and outright clashes that were never meant to be.
But I'm hopeful, that in the same way as in music, eventually all will be resolved.
So I hope not for drama, but an unforced and natural conclusion:

**A perfect cadence.

#love #music #perfect #hand #cadence

Jan 2015

Parsavagely Kompenere

In light of the fact [original]

In light of the fact you ******* hate me,
Please refrain from your ******* game,
You've made it clear through years of torture,
That disgust runs through your every vein.

In light of the fact you know I'm lonely,
Please stop reminding me every day,
I don't need you to show me a new path,
If it's alright with you I'll just stay.

In light of the fact I've heard your crying,
Don't think I believe your act,
I'm fully aware that you feel emotion,
I was there the day you cracked.

In light of the fact you wish I'd die,
I might decide to do just that,
Would it make you feel so much better?
If my heart's line was finally flat?

In light of the fact I'm sick of your ****,
Could you please shut the **** up?
If only you understood quite how hard it is,
To drink trust from a broken cup.

In light of the fact I've had enough,
Maybe you could leave me alone?
If you let me get on with my crumbling life,
I'll let you get on with your own.

#suicide #depression #lonely #hate #crying #game

Mercury Chap Jan 2015

The taste of my past

The sour taste of misery
Mingles in my tongue
The thoughts of my history
Which were forever unsung
And became a mystery
Have been regurgitated.

My tongue a while ago
Was ***** and span
But now I abhor
The taste that plans
To sit on the buds
Making my taste bitter.

I try to spit
But it won't go
The taste that fits
Would forever be sore.

I try to speak
But my tongue is numb
When I try to refuse
That my life is glum.

The winds won't listen
To my tongue
They just whistle
What had just rung.

The bitter taste
Is now forever ensconced
And I won't wash it off
Even if they see
The bitterness I have
That inhabits me in glee
Because that's my past
And my past is me.

"My past can't change; you and I will have to live with it" - Anonymous

#life #memories #past #me #history #bitterness