i hate you for not liking me
for the way that you ignore me
subconsciously, i know i'm beat
you gaslight me so subtly
just know that i have had enough
you hit my limit, and i changed
i'm much too tough, like jerky in
the hands of teething babies
whatever is whatever
do you sense the carelessness?
honestly,
i feel powerless
like a meteorologist
who mispredicts
and makes a wish
to change the weather
to fix his predicament
he can't deal with it,
but i am different
i don't run away
from how i feel
acceptance of rejection's
my best option
i think you
think i'm rotten
i understand, and
i think that's valid
my mind deteriorates
like week-old salad
but give it some time
even if, right now,
you see no reason
to trust me
you'll come to find
that i'm an alright guy
just know that i
can feel the vibes
whatever is whatever
that, i won't deny
but, still, i want to
feel some pleasure
it's ironic how cathartic
being honest is
it's kind of nice
to say whatever's
on my mind
i guess the pleasure's mine,
but whatever is whatever,
so either way is fine
you treat me like a
red-headed stepchild
we never connected
with an umbilical cord
but, still, you managed
to cut ties
you're toxicity
is bad for me
goodbye
goodbye
goodbye
it's sad that you'll see me later
probably in no time
i have no follow through
i'm not resolute
but whatever is whatever
that, i won't deny