Your words are like drugs and I am addicted.
It scares me how quickly you can lure me in and how blind I become.
I know you are all wrong for me yet I keep wanting you.
I crave your presence and your words you speak, those words that make me feel like I'm high.
I have never understood how an addict can stay an addict, how any human could purposely do something that you know is harmful to themselves and not just walk away.
But boy, you make it easy to relate.
I am so afraid of hurting my heart. And I cannot believe myself that I still let you. I guard my heart, with concrete walls that are indestructible to some, but yet when I see you they just shatter and my walls have broken again.
I need to escape this or else I'll die of an overdose of you.

describe how you think the sky looks lately
how the leaves seem to fall in a certain pattern
what the silence says to you compared to what it says to me

sometimes the rain leaves love notes on my window
meet me by the river
the one you see in your dreams

i dream of the river kissing my eyelids
the cool water a warm blanket
tucking me in to sleep

i never sleep long enough
something tears me awake every time
the love note blown away

i find i’d been holding my breath
a gasp of air through aching lungs
almost as if i had been drowning

whenever i hear your voice
or that name of yours
my insides cramp,
and i find myself lighting another menthol cigarette,
once again realizing that it’s much sweeter than you ever were

he doesn't know it
but when i lay in his bed
my mind is stringing together
adjectives and airy phrases,
trying unsuccessfully to
pin down the emotions
he breathes into me.

he doesn't know it
but when i kiss his skin,
i imagine my lips
peppering his chest
neck and arms with
ink stains that morph
into words like "lover"
and "darling".

he doesn't know it
but the smile he shares
with me under the covers
is pressed firmly
into the corners
of my heart,
begging to be immortalized
in words.

"Have a great day"
Or "Have a nice day"

It's just a day
It's neither great
Nor small

Stupid people
Repeat the same things
Over and over

Do you know anyone
That leads a meaningless
And unexamined life?

I do
Simply content
To do nothing
Until the day they die
A miserable waste
Their entire life
Amounts to nothing

If you still care
Don't ever let me know.
If you forgive me
For breaking your heart
And for leaving you behind
In that ****** town
Of addicts and death
Don't ever let me know.
I'm coming to visit
During the bitterest month
And if you see me
Don't say hello.
I'll never forgive myself.
I'll never let you know.
I'll always love you.
I'll never let you know.
I'll never let you know.
I'll never let you know.