My o.c.d disorder is scientific term standard of obsessive compulsive disorder. But i like to call my disorder
old children disorder.
From all the grown boys who look like normal men
when i run across them.

i remember when the people i know
became the people i knew. it started in high school,
kids i’d grown up with dropping off the face of the planet before anything could hold them here; like they were hoping to die
early enough that we could all pretend they’d never been here at all.
we all wanted to erase ourselves. sometimes
i get jealous of the people who succeeded.