Suppose to be fun but it's not the veteran musicians expect your results they don't care how you feel or what you think. Still a beginner taking on years of experience. Not backing down playing frustrated trying to keep up learning on the fly. Trying to play at professional level that's become second nature.
Working on tempo struggling with the tempo lost with the tempo deaf  tone with the change up it all has a consistent flow need to study and analyze the song to make sense of it all.
Trying to let all those feelings and emotions come out vibrate fluxate with the creative process.

Tell your story live it to the fullest
Believe in yourself when others do not
Keep going strong see opportunity
Most settled the have the nerve to complain
Another road block with haters
Detoured with doubters in the way
Taking on the journey full of growth
Learned from those encounters
Gained from every experience
Need more inspired role models
Observed who not to be like do better
Loved the wrong people left with regret
Hated by people that got called out
Excluded not alone wiggle room to be free
Life goes on with or without any say
Made it through the day time to reflect
Another moment in time spent floating
Taken away from the numbing pain
Able to heal feel whole again

Getting a haircut well groom
In the barber chair my turn had come
Venting to the barber
Very impatient about life
Being told "everything will come together"
Doing the hard work people notice
The truth planted deep in the heart
Not one to lie open eyes standing tall

An older mind full of growth
An older body wear and tear
Doing what you love times have changed
Trying to bend limited flexibility
Holding back with strength
Going through the motions
Focused on technique slowing down
Taking on a younger athlete
Heavy handed being responsible
Learning to hold back get better
Be smarter and wiser on defense
Hoping for a mistake to get the move
Escape the submission find wiggle room

Tired from pushing through
Not one to quit or surrender
No pressure no diamond
Trying to survive burnt out
Working harder to feel alive
Back up from being down
Set the tone grinding through
Breaking the rules making your own
Loyal to the wrong people
A moral code still doing whats right
Against the odds still surpassing
Thriving through to the end
Not one to complain just do the work
Make the most of the situation
Don't pretending like it's fine
Being denied set aside by doubters
Taking credit for what is mine
Did the work over being criticized

Got knocked down bounced back up
Like a weeble back up not staying down
Knocked over by alcohol struggle within
Back up with sobriety clarity of mind
Broken hearted popped up with faith
Rejected made out to be weak denied
Standing tall stronger than before
Health derailed with cirrhosis
Back on track staying active
Doing what's right to win the fight
Writing unexpressed emotions to escape
Sharing feelings able to cope
Freed from internal burdens

Crossing paths with the people
Who betray your trust
Doing your own thing
Called them out in the past
Now playing the victim
Gave them my back
Avoiding eye contact
So the knife can be removed
Heart is else where going hard
Mind focused on opportunities
Soul free from toxic and lazy haters