It's true, what they say
people are mirrors
I look into your eyes
everything is backwards

What you see,
eyes and lips
hips and thighs
dirt and twigs
curves and lines

If my proportions
are enough, but
not too much
then...
I have your attention
and maybe
If I press my clothes
burn my hair
paint my face
maybe you will
like what you see?

What would I see?
If you never told me
I was beautiful
When I cover up
brush my hair
across my face
then...
would I know?
could I see?
The girl that's dying
inside of me.

i'm not trapped in this body
of mine
what i'm trapped in
is society's idea
of the way
my body should be

I guess I'm a liar.
That I never walked through hell
For a devil with the face of an angel
I never took the blame for her sins
My pain didn't inspire my writings
It was all you.
Though we never spoke or met
I stole your pain, I guess
'Cause you're the only one
Who ever felt the backhand of love
Thank you for creating the feeling,
Of both drowning and falling
Of both burning and freezing
Only YOU know.
What it feels like to be wounded
And to bleed all over the world
I never had a relationship with
A megalomaniacal, evil *****
I guess I just stole it.
Memories of brutality without shame
How did we ever feel before you came?
Along and taught us this new word,
This uncharted concept for which
No one has previously heard.
Get over yourself.
It's just a word
And mine is better than yours.

Blame it on
Your absent father
Your addict mother
Your unexpected children
Blame it on
Anyone, and anything
So you never have to
Take responsibility
For your own actions

It's the whiskey
That hit me
It's my own shards
That tore me apart
It's a malevolent God
That lied about love
'Cause you don't do anything

Blame it on
My fragile psyche
My insecurities
My "impossible" needs
Blame it on
Anyone, and anything
So you never have to
Take responsibility
For what you've done to me

It's the cigarettes
That stole my breath
The weight of my expectations
That broke my trust
The spinning of my own wheels
That drove me into madness
'Cause you don't do anything

If only I could bore
Into your skull
Hotwire your thoughts

If only I could crack
Open your chest
Steal your heart back

If only I could tap
Into your spine
Turn that noodle to stone

If only I could slice
Open your belly
Show you what guts look like

If only I could tear
You another hole
Would you put my love there?