the first time
that I felt
your gravity
our worlds
collided and I
was devastated
but I stood
in the ashes
and I had
faith in...
you, me
this, us

I begged you
please please
don't go
down that
desolate road

now I don't
know who
you are
and I don't
recognize
myself
don't know
what this is
I can't even
remember
what we
were like

I begged you
please please
don't go
down that
desolate road
if you do
you'll be
going alone

I know why
you stand so far
away from me
cause there's
someone in
between us

she can't be a ghost
cause you never let her die
all of this time
you kept hope alive
and it's killing everything
between you and I

you can't  kiss me
goodbye with her name
on the tip of your tongue
you can't see me 'cause
she's caught your eye

she can't be a ghost
cause you never let her die
all of this time
you kept hope alive
and it's killing everything
between you and I

I won't watch you
look for her in me
I don't want your heartless
body lying next  to me
I'm not sorry that I
won't be that girl

she can't be a ghost
cause you never let her die
all of this time
you kept hope alive
and it's killing everything
between you and I

so tired of your excuses
and the truth is,
you're a liar and a coward
and you're never gonna learn

sing it like the gospel baby
I don't have a prayer
you come to me when you're broken
expecting some kind of repair

truth is, I'm not your savior
but I don't wanna come
down from this cloud
I called you a devil
said you never loved me
just didn't wanna be dethroned

so tired of playing someone else
and the truth is,
I'm too good of an actor
no one sees my real character

play the victim with conviction
get away with the perfect crime
you come to me when you're on the run
expecting me to be your safe haven

truth is, I'm not a fortress
but I don't want to be abandoned
by you rats on a sinking ship
I called you weak
said that you've been taken over
but all along, it was me

play me like an instrument
we'll make the most brutal music
cause we've got the same song
stuck in our heads
and we pretend we don't
know it by heart.

we're waging wars
with each other
by way of space
and silence

we took an oath
under our breaths
swore we'd forget
there's an undertow
and it keeps on
pulling us in

I see how you are now
and I'm so sorry
I gave you my heart
what's done is done now
we've got to play
the lesser cards

we're starting fires
in each others forts
thoughts like arrows
pierce through the armor

we took an oath
to defend our kingdom
but we broke our crowns
it wasn't supposed
to happen like this
love always wins...

I see how you are now
and I'm so sorry
I gave you my heart
what's done is done now
we've got to play
the lesser cards

**turning this into a hopefully very pretty song soon for "Ghosts of Punk Rock"

I thought I had a fortune
I wrapped my arms around it
but it crumbled like the dust
it always was
if I keep digging
if I keep digging
will I find something?
I keep digging
I keep on digging
my own grave
I thought I had an empire
I stood before countless faces
but they all were blind like the mice
that they were
if I fall asleep
if I fall asleep
will I wake in a dream?
if I keep telling myself
if I keep telling myself
will it become true?

have you ever woken up
screaming?
have you ever wanted to
tear everything you love
into pieces?

nothing satisfies me like
it did
there's a mouth watering
craving that has
borne its way right
through me

you take
it all
you fake
a fall
you wait
for
an encore
but I
don't
play
anymore.

have you ever stopped
dreaming?
when you find out
nothing is what it seems
and it never stops
bleeding

nothing touches me like
it did
left a wound so wide
and so deep it never
closed again

you take
it all
you fake
a fall
you wait
for
an encore
but I
don't
play
anymore.

(THIS IS REALLY A VERY PRETTY SONG<3)

there's something about
the way I move
that makes a liar
out of you
I know you mean those
words when they're
falling out of your mouth
but it won't mean a thing
by the time you get it all out

it's like a sickness
that you expel

I don't mind
watching you glow
when you say
that you don't care
it's the silence
that takes the toll

there's something about
the way you move
that makes a fool
out of me
I know you're running
around on me
I'll admit that I can't
resist the chase
but I don't want to
finish this race

it's like a sickness
that you expel

I don't mind
watching you glow
when you say
that you don't care
it's the silence
that takes the toll

yeah, it's the silence
that swallows
me
whole.