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  Dec 2015 Penthesilea
Nathan Horkstrom
Her Masterpiece Is Her Story

Her paintbrush is a razor,
Her canvas, her wrists,
"I deserve the pain."
She shrugs and insists.

One day the brush will push down,
And it will cut so deep,
That this girl will fall
into an eternal sleep.

She doesn't remember how she started
What brought her interest to this,
How do you discover,
that cutting is your form of bliss?

No one would have guessed that she does it.
No one would have considered this one.
This girl is forever fighting a battle,
that she thinks the demons have won.

Her artwork is all over her,
Her beauty is on her thighs,
and if you look in her old trash,
you'll find her letters of goodbye.

Her masterpiece is quite disturbing,
Her masterpiece is a little gory,
Her artwork is her escape.
Let me tell you her story.

She compares herself to every person,
She is compared to each girl.
She thinks she's hideous,
And there's this boy that is her world.

She was bullied and picked on,
She was teased from head to toe,
Hard to believe that her best friend,
was her one and only foe.

Then later she disliked every little thing,
Her body, face and even her mind,
Soon she saw she was a failure,
and it was just in due time...

That this girl couldn't take it anymore
She'd decided she was done living this,
So one day she went home
and decided to end it.

Everyday for multiple days,
This girl would try to drown,
Hard to believe this girl at school,
never ever wore a frown.

Sometimes she'd just fall asleep crying,
Praying that she'd be enough,
Because she didn't want to leave her family.
She knew about their sweet love.

This girl found hope in small things eventually,
She soon would see this beautiful light,
and find a REAL best friend,
that helped her put up a fight.

Her masterpiece soon was leaving,
Her artwork was almost faded,
and it gave her a sick feeling,
the feeling of being jaded.

She found a boy that actually loved her,
And showed her love exists,
And this boy too had a masterpiece,
placed close to his wrists.

He related to her and she related to him.
She kissed his artwork and said he's not alone,
When she cut herself it hurt him,
Her masterpiece now wasn't just her own.

Her masterpiece effected others,
Her artwork wasn't just for herself,
She now had people,
who saw her cries for help.

And then her family found out,
So then they saw the art too,
to them they were just scars,
To her they were the truth.

She's trying to be okay now,
She thinks she might survive,
Even though they didn't think
to take away the knives.
This poem gets to me deeply.
Penthesilea Nov 2015
Depression will stay inside of you, it will be a part of who you are, and it will be an extension of your soul.*
*So you have to learn to live with it.
An excerpt from my new spoken word poetry piece :)
Penthesilea Oct 2015
"I easily fell in love with you,"* He said looking straight into her eyes, petrifying her. *"And you don't know how much it scares me."
A random writing in my notebook :))
Penthesilea Oct 2015
It is a known fact that when a sentence is ended with a period,
that sentence has found its end.
The sentence that we both created found its period; we ended years ago.
But there's a part of me wishing that we found a comma instead.
Although, too many commas would make us grammatically incorrect
so I guess *the period was inevitable.
For you my love that I always regret ...
Penthesilea Oct 2015
Not every love story has to be happily ever after
others just needs an ending
So **** true!
Penthesilea Jun 2015
He tried not to lie but still made her cry
Still writer's block this is the best I got so far :D
Penthesilea Apr 2015
"You're making this hard for the both of us!" He shouted.
"Making it hard? I'm making it easy," She turns around. Tears streaming down her face. "Leave me." She whispered.
The rise and fall of their chest. The way the wind blew through window curtains and the way they stand distant from each other. It's a moment they share in pain and passion.
"I don't want to ruin you," She says in stifle sobs.
"Baby, you already did," He took one step forward. "The moment I touch you, I know I was done for."
An excerpt from the story I'm writing :D
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