"You are at the end of my fingertips"*
the cherished itch between my flesh and nail
that I giggly scratch and the blood of loneliness drips
sealing all the hugs and kisses to send them by mail

you are the lashes to my eye, minced to my pie
and days without you lost their right of count
for no matter how busy I keep and hard I try
the sizzling thoughts of you never fade, they don't

If you were the bible I would read all the verses
if you were the ocean I would explore every corner
if you were soccer I would make complete passes
and if you were near I know I wouldn't be a loner

those are the echoes consequent to my silent heart's screams
for you are a choice I would make even in my dreams

I've wasted enough 'nows' thinking about tomorrows
Just as I've wasted bandages nursing my sorrows
I've thrown away every opportunity that knocked
I built a fortress and in it my poor heart is locked
I've wasted Handkerchiefs wiping tears, It's time to laugh
Sacrificed a million faith , and enough is enough

What was a doubtful crack
Is a hungry rupturing canyon
Comfortably seated 'tween you and I
What was a sweet melodic track
Is a sad relic of a lost companion
Of mine, oh my ...!
Something of a dream turned to nightmare
Spraying mists of melancholy in the air
The path we walked is some public road
And my heart hither light is now a heavy load
Maybe you didn't know that It's been twilight
Since you left,variance is slight twixt you and sunlight
I'm haunted by your being wrapped in my thoughts
Consumed in hot flames of the future I sought
I didn't realize it,I should have used my eyes
That without you there wouldn't be a sunrise
Should have waited a little longer for me
I still believe you and I were meant to be
I am the author to the end of our story
Don't have to take it but I'm sorry

Let them say alarmed by my soul's quiescent invisible riot
you heard my despondent deafening silent shout
and rather than cast aspersions upon my scraggy idiosyncrasy
without doubt you lent me wings of optimism to float
for yours were arms that took me in when the world kicked me out
Let them say you walked with me till the end of the road
perspiring, dusty, fatigued yet still endured the load
let them say you tottered with me past my dusk to dawn
they didn't have to ask whether you were truly my own
for you searched piece by piece until you found all my heart
stitched them together to hold my world from drifting apart
that you saw me through to ocean from spring and river
and I moved on from my rough past because you were my lever
Let them say you saw me to Tuxedo from tattered pants
and even when waves of coercing constrains hit you still gave us a chance
that you weaved an intricate basket of forever out of every now
and as such we crossed even the most shaky of bridges we never knew how
Ultimately, let them say you were my best story, one never ceased writing...

I wish I knew where the River of my life ends
I'd have chance to say goodbye to all my friends
If only I knew how long our shared road extends
The steep hills and slopes ,*** holes and bends
If I knew when the petals will fall,for life's a flower
I'd recite you a magical poem prior my final hour
If only I knew the minutes the gates open
I'd try to leave all like you who care about me unbroken
I wish I knew where the leaf of my destiny will fall
From the tree of life ,we'd meet there every nightfall
I wouldn't have sleepless nights in fear
Because I'd be certain you'll always be near
If only those who have gone sent us mails
From after life to fill us in on the mystic tales
If only we were destined to go together
For it's the only blockade twixt our now and forever

We were foolish to judge the sky by the stars
to believe each other without a doubt
to forget the wounds and play blind to the scars
to take on emotion with a silent shout

we were crazy to ignore caution
and foolishly get overtaken
by flooding electric emotions
compromise the mind and have reason forsaken

We were mad to believe we'd not end
that we would just flow like springs
that the rivers of our affection wouldn't dry or the roads bend
that we'd always have the warmth passion brings

We were insane to trust each other so deep
with treasures like Hearts and promises we couldn't keep

In whatever you do, always put family first...
People come and go, like waves along the shore,
even the closest of friends and the deepest of loves...
Money comes and continues with the same road that brought her...
The glamorous jobs you find, someday you lose or leave behind.
But your family's always the first thing you set eyes on when you open
them at your dawn, the constant in the million variations through your life
the soothing words, the inspiration, the perspiration, the aspiration
the best intentions, the crutches when you're fractured, the
reinforcement when you're almost suffering defeat,
the light in your darkness, the smile in your frown, the high of your low
and probably the only presence beside you at your old age
let alone the last tear to bless your journey to the great beyond
at your grave... treasure every moment you
spend with your family and if you ever have to choose,
always choose family and while at it keep in mind that
great family are friends and great friends are family...

A lie we told each other
just so we could push on
a little further

I'll make peace with my heart
Someday I'll get over the hurt
I'll see to my scars and every bruise
beautiful stars in the sky will be my muse
someday I'll pick myself up & stop talking
that day it will be about walking
for I'll be moving on past the shades of regret
past the bitterness of being dabbed an ingrate
someday I'll cross this River without fear
use her waters to wash away every tear
leave  this place printless like I was never here
I'll forget this past for it holds nothing dear
I'll collect all the scattered shards
and leave like the gorgeous journey birds
only there's no chance I'll ever lay foot here again
for this place has but caused me so much pain
I hate to go but I have to leave and to believe
for how long must one soul shatter and one heart grieve?

There was a time I'd die for you...
A time I'd take bullets for you...
But now, now I can even rot
for you... it's always and
always
will be you...

It's obvious, isn't it?
It's obvious you pleasure in my pain
It's obvious you know I still love you
You keep coming here just to let me realize I miss you
To bring those amorous lips and make me ache to kiss you
It's obvious, isn't it?
That you're after something and I'm your pawn
And thus have a reason to stick till dusk from dawn
That you're contemplating breaking up with Tom
And this is a quest of finding out if my heart's still a home
That you trace my chest line with your finger
Just to find out where my poor eyes linger
That no matter how many people I come across
In my life, my feelings for you will always be my cross
It's obvious, isn't it?
That somehow you regret and want us to make up
But you're afraid you might drop my heart and shatter it again
That you and I are two immature first lovers who'll never grow up
It's obvious, isn't it?
That you are the only and only person I adore
Even when you keep walking out and in as you wish through my door
That no matter how hard I try or what I do
I will always love you
It's that obvious, isn't it?

I am the lad who'll take on the world for you,
With unwavering courage and love so true.
Through mountains and valleys, I'll fearlessly roam,
Facing the unknown, making your heart my home.

In battles of life, I'll fight by your side,
Defending your dreams, with love as my guide.
No challenge too daunting, no distance too far,
I'll conquer it all, just to be where you are.

For you are my light, my reason to strive,
Together we'll conquer, as love comes alive.
In this vast world, our love will endure,
A bond so strong, forever secure.

You are far away across the ridges of life
And I'm here all alone facing the cold
I wish you knew, I wish you're told
That living without you is a stub of a knife
I don't even know who you really are
Yet you've never felt any far
If distance were food, I'd eat this 'tween us
For I can't forget to let these thoughts pass
I wander lost in the mire of the moment
Enduring every battering torment
I guess that's the flame affection
Which blazes even amidst rejection

I wanted to pluck a flower for her but fear told me when it wilts
I'd be burdened by untold guilt
I wanted to deal her maximum pleasure
doubted she'd deal with the sweet pain of plunging to the hilt
to construct her a high and strong Trojan sanctuary
to protect her fragile heart through every hour
when I realised walls would mean solitude built
I wanted to build her bridges for a global adventure
but I feared it might turn to be the white bull to Europa
I wanted to forever write her poems with rhyme
but my vocabulary was fading so fast with time
I wanted to walk with her till the end of the road
albeit every extra mile was a tiring load
I wanted to pluck feathers and build her wings
so that I could see what view her presence in the sky brings
but I feared she would fly too close to the charming sun
lured by it's fatal beauty and burn like Icarus,Daedalus' son
I longed to see her smile like there was no sadness
and I embraced the feeling even if it was utter madness
I wanted to hear her talk even when I cherished her silence
to shut my eyes and store her scenic ambiance
I wanted to free her in the heavy chains of my chocking passion
and always watch how she gracefully soars the skies of my cage
I wanted her name in my love story on each and every page
starting with once upon a time until the last on the edge
as two olduns breathing the air and drinking sweet wine of  old age
I longed to sit with her in space and go
wherever it settles when she shyly spins the globe
desired to decorate her presence like the dangling ring on her ear lobe
I wanted us to swim in the shoreless deep Oceans
among the sharks to shield her from their gnawing rage
I wanted to employ her, her duty being mothering
our children with care and her undivided attention
and wages would be gold standard breath taking affection
I wanted to be her breath when she can't respire
to incinerate her heart with romance and fires of desire
I wanted the world to be a serene paradise
for the calm and innocence of her soul,evident from her eyes
and though it's hard to concede that I'll never express what lies within
I can't move the vast Oceans and Seas that sadly lie inbetween

There's only sad songs in the Souls
No peaceful nights even to the birds & owls
There's no more trusting (life) ,this road
Counting on those close to help lift their load
There's no more stars in the clear sky
Without ears to listen to their lonely cry
There's almost no more reason to fight
Without an armour what's a knight?
There is no destination for their journey
No, not without any strength or money
There's no history to be reported
No fighters, children are unprotected
There's no more hiking the Everest
No room for the mountaneers
No place to call home midst the unrest
There's little if any hope 'neath the rubble
No trust that the quake won't cause more trouble
There's no way help can reach,no channel
And no light at the end of the long tunnel
But there's brotherhood and volunteers
A thudding fall from the tree of hope an Apple
And a percentage worldwide sharing in the plight of Napel

some things were dreams until we met
and were stars far away in outta space
I was a heart drowning in self hate
one that only went by life's own pace
some things were stones before you informed me they were precious
I was a labyrinth, too complex a puzzle for I to decipher
I wasn't anything beyond Hosiana Ignatius
stuck at the red sea of my existence till you became my divider
I was a million shades of total confusion and despair
some things were fantasy like finding a healer
for I was mirrors crushed into grainy pieces,shattered beyond repair
yet you stole my trance with alcoholic efficiency like tequila
*some things were not for me, I was a rose flower growing in the wild
till you held my soul with tenderness,more of a mother holding her child