In a moment, all had changed
We sat, as many might
For dinner, late

Rolls and peas, plus a bit of meat
Once a week, we fared better than many
It came like a wave, rolling

From the east, if facing east
I know for at my table, I looked north
But felt the change, weary my bones

I saw my wife, her eyes blue
Deeply light blue, almost gray
I saw her ****, eyes changed green

Struggled, she breathed
Then the wave, took one after another
I felt it pass, emotions tumbling at once

She seen something, hidden
Miles away, blocked from sight
From behind stone walls, as we prayed

Then, the ****
She howled, we all whimpered
For the madness, overwhelmed

Contagious, it spread
I heard it first, bringing me back
From neighbors, less distant and west

Snapping me back, to see her
Gnashing, breaking her teeth
Pulling and ripping, hair

She flailed, grasping a fork
Stabbing our children, one to another
Before I could move, inhumanly fast

As they cowered, deep in rising fear
Not of her, but of the emotions rippling
From distant and far, but always east

I struggled, when she came at me
Flinging my arm up, warding her off
My knife came up, involunteerily

Then it dimmed, although
Some great beast, gathered it's rage
In some great birth, then awareness

It pulsed, lower now
Like humming, out of mind
Letting us know, a god now strode

We could feel it, where it looked
It's attention, driven us mad
And now, we live in its shadow

Trees' leaves flutter,
Introducing the wind
Turning themselves over,
Tipping up their skirts

A face from an attic
It's windows dusty, old
Paint peeling from frames
Stares down, understanding

She doesn't want the turn
It'll bring all the dirt, memories
A whirlwind of slapping, pain
Brambles begin to break from plants

A shutter bangs, greyed
With time, all things grow old
Too many storms, like this; coming
The screen door slams, it's soon

A cemetery, just in sight
Crosses bear the sins, momentos
A history of forgotten choices
Blowing on the wind, from the past

There's there is the weather
Rippling across the long grass
Footsteps coming up the stairs
Like hammers, echoing on a pond

She wipes the window
A little circle, just a finger
Cutting the smallest hole
In a mirror, to another world

Eventually, soon, she'll step through
Another world, another time
Lost in a book, jumping from a ledge
Driving imagination, far and well

A tree bends, not hard
But enough to break
The limb falls, she knows
It's her fault, far above

Another step, now she hears
The blowing speaks, whistling
Through cracks, through walls
It's pitch raises, as does the voice

A breadth of tears bring twilight
A cold, solid hand, steady
Fear brings pain, not sins, for might
It's reflection fades through

Across the way, deep in the storm
Up in a tree, equal in height
Having escaped, broken fast
That little attic hole

The girl, looks back
At the storm, her parent's grasp
Then to the distance, calling
A harmony beckons

It's a choice, she knows
And remembers the crosses
Possible regrets, hurricanes
She remembers the hand

Then the house, leaky roof
***** windows, don't view out
Clean the inside, outside rot
And the storm buffets it's sides

She is taught the storm
It never fails, never stops
Always to be feared
Look down, feel shame

The forest is driven
The wind cuts through it
Breaking, bending, throwing
Thorns, splinters like bullets

She feels the wind
Tastes the excitement in the night
Looking back at herself, back
Hoping that window breaks

Her she jumps, shirt catches air
Billows out, blows behind
Jumps, feet leave the safety
The tree teaches her to fly

The hand comes down
The voice cracks the glass
Monster brings pain once more
Out of the closet, it comes

From the branch, the jump, a leap
From the attic never a plea, or cry
The wind she was taught to fear
Catches her, teaches flight

Slowly, despite fears
Lowly eyes begin to rise
Bent head begin to rise
Looks from ground to eyes

In the air, focused
Before more pain
These bright eyes
Now surprise

Simple wheat
Grows in
Spanning far beyond
As the eye sees

Blanketing,
Like a golden snow
Rich in color
A show of life

A reaper works
Swinging scythe
Toils in to view
And cuts deeply

A harsh work
With long days
Bringing death
So life can continue

Feeding bellies
Bringing smiles
To rounded cheeks
So life goes on

Sitting in the dark
Eyes closed not sleep
Resting the body
Expanding the mind
Bring forth the drums

Slow everything down
Crush down emotions
The dreams that might
Any legends of the mind
Tune up the mind

Focus out the body
Ignore it's whines
Feel the blood slow
Turn off its feelings
Let breathing flow

Ears pick the smallest
Another distraction
Tone it down
Relax each muscle
Spin coherency away

Focus on the pounding
Rhythmic, stone on leather
Heartbeats pound, thump
War drums of bringing
And the taking of life

Breath, set it's tempo
Draw that tarot card
See, read the choice
Picked by the drum
Of swords, a nine

Still closed, sleep not close
Bring me fire, bring fight
Give me anything, but this
See inside, see so far
Drift not, stay on track

See the ace, fill your cups
Seek wine, lose your mind
Twist that thought
Thunder drums
Lightning fast

Hear it's crack
Break the sky
Split my world
Falling with drums
Twinkling bits of star

No need to question
Blood pumps the beat
Violent, just beneath
Calm meditation
No movement betrays

Look to her
A queen, regal
In her cups
Then turn away
Apologize, haute glare

Let it fall, let it drift
No need to fight
Carry not for death
Let it out, set free
Close off emotions

Seek plenty, find peace
Find the rhythm seek pace
Don't let sword or cups
Wreck logic or spread
Bind damage to pain

Let darkness fall
Hear the symphony
Drift in silence
Float out slow
Kiss you in sleep

Carousel spins, horses up and down
Painted bright colors, joyful sight
Always chasing each other
Looks like such great fun
There's a horse for Bobby
Brown saddled, and feet in the stirrups
He stands screaming in bliss
Kenny rides a mare,
All pink and blues
She cries out in splendor
White knuckled on the pole
The parents they stand aside
Watch their children go by
'There's Johnny, Mary, Susie, and Jason!'
Take pictures, faces frozen in time
But there is no pictures in albums
Not of carousel rides
Because all those pictures discarded
The horses are screaming
Look with colors so bright
In lights like fire  
The pictures all blur
But there is Betty
Her smile is not
Picture was taken
Snapped just off
Don't use this says the mother
It's not what I like
Father tosses the white knuckled
Shiny impaled horses, across the night
But every year it's the same
The children's fears are alike
And children become parents
Only to see what they see
Bright

"Ready..."

No time for deep thoughts
Smell cigarettes on the air, cordlite overpowers
Blood and **** and my eyes are covered
Hard drag on that cigarette

No need to wonder
Wind changes and cool on skin
Go steady as in life
Brace, go hard

Deserve this, fought back
Ten men, one bullet; good odds
And me
Always good odds

"Aim.."

Not crying, knew this end
Beginning a teacher, ending a leader
Hero, savior, soldier, teacher
Wanted

Too brave and too effective
Price on my head
Dead or alive
Traitors, died first

Choices and no regrets
Tyranny fails if given a chance
Born for this life, death
Dirt beneath my feet

Exhale, last breath
Feel the sun on my face
Think of brothers, friends
Duty to family, ideals, country

"Fire."
Love...

When I see you, I see The Questions
They're written all over your face
I don't need to look in to your eyes
Or check your sleeve where
Emotions are a badge

You wonder, with a slight pause
And reply with an unanswer
More to yourself than spoken
I, for the moment,
Am simply there

I see your retreat, behind your eyes
They lose the sparkle
Like a loss of light
Darkness, a treasure in you gone
A part of you dies

I reach to you, grasp you
To me, I hold you close
Sooth that part, I can't stop death
But the part that remembers
Forgive yourself, and be a part

I love you, too much
To be safe myself, I know
To save us, I must save you
And maybe, in the process
Save myself, save you

Winter's storm beating
Browns to grays, hammer
Snows, heavy flakes
As big as fists, fall
Like rain on tin

Winds howl, wolves on the horizon
Singing a moonsong, love sung
Through strong jaws, long fangs
Made for tearing flesh,
And death

Eerily, they pierce the night
Through even the wind
Buffeting the house
Making it creak, bend
To the forces of nature

The hearth fire blazes
Scents of meat bring the wolves
Circling the house, desire
Keeping the dark at bay
A candle the only light

Around the home, wood retreat
Log cabin, built by rough hands
Stone chimney, mortared by the same
High, two stories, strong
Not a house, a home

In the winter, he hunts with the wolves
Pays tribute; he lives in their land
They see, understand, the relationship
Keeping distance, but protecting
On coldest nights, they shelter near

The storm, tonight, lasted days
Softening resolve and infecting
The man sits by the door, bolted
He knows what's come in the night
Unnaturally radiating the cold

The wolves stay close
Inside the treeline,
Even the woods now
Harbor the blight
Too close to home

They howl, nip and bite
At each other, restless, on guard
There will be no sleep tonight
All stay awake afraid to drift
One by one, shutters close

A sliding noise, the wolves ears perk
They've heard it before, many times
But it's unexpected, not at night
Not with danger so near
Look to the Alpha

Light creases still falling snow
The door opens, the man, a rifle
That tool of men, never without
A whistle, gestures, at the Alpha
Intelligence shines in bright eyes

The Alpha, hesitates, looks back
In to the wood, that thing; things
Feeling that something is coming
Back at the man, then at the Beta
Tosses it's head, a decision is made

They go in, positioned now
At windows, one by one
Sometimes two per
They spread out
Nervous, can't run here

The door is barred once more
Lights go out, but not the heat
Ice drips, snow melts on the floors
Heavy fur not needed here
At bay, the creatures of night

Life is the years between
The most significant events
Birth, your beginning
Death, your ending
But the stories are between

What competes with the two?
The encompassing emotion
Describes and combining them all
Launching ships, leading men
To live and die for

It makes both such trivial matters
Like life or death, pale before it
Such is love, such is life
A story of two made one
It's the heartbeat made crazy

Her kiss, soft on the lips
Her smile, just as soft
A sparkle in her eye
When she grabs you
And pulls you close

The warmth she feels
Safety in your arms
Great protector, everything
And giving that much more
Than ever, never alone

Stroking her hair,
Running gentle hands
Along her body
And her heat against yours
To give and be life

Between those moments
Of birth and death
Writing the story
That defines life
Making it alive

Twilight, just after dawn
Your skin, always a shade
From the sun, a kiss
Lighter than dark
Caramels and gold

Oiled, slick
Warped waisted
Sleek and lithe
Sensual grace
You move
So divine
Perfectly tuned

Bright eyes
Animated, cannot hide
Feelings, fire, or thoughts
Hands that fly
With the smallest words

Leggy, with smoothest thighs
Foot arched, high
Making calves slight
Curved in perfect lines
Silly little toes,
Peek and hide
Eight painted lines

Massage and touch
Oiled and fine
Running hands down arms
Working muscles out
Rubbing back, *** and thighs

Flickering lights
Little candles burn down
Let me, my Love
Caress you, slow
Fingers, feet,
Neck and toes; always
Yours, just ask

To love a rose
You must respect it
It's head, rich in colors
Reds, light to deep
A blossomed beauty
It's graceful neck
Sensual in form
Leads to the thorns
Green and sharp
A testament of life
It's stem, holds scars of growth
But it's mind, something to beholden
Taken as a whole
It is gentle in its morning wake
Reaching for the sun
Warm, loving and needful
A peaceful existence
Seeking only love
Taste, drink with tongue
Tease it's water of life
Run your fingers down its stem
Slide between the thorns
Hold the neck
Place it's head
To protect, groom
Lightly passion it's spine
Give it's deepest reds
Color it's head
Be it's support
And it's place to grow
Pamper it's always time
Long legs divide
Kisses deliver time
It's nectar, true
I love you

The wicked night, a storm
On its way, you can taste it in the air
Not quite a humidity,
It's lighter than heavy
Almost a smell, but taste

I have to think to myself
What can I do, what have I done?
Patterns overlap, circles within circles
Remember details, collect the clues
Did I say this, did I look like that?
Maybe I agreed too quickly
Or it's not me at all

Moods are strange things
Arranged from the nonlinear
Chaotic patterns, too big to see
I see the change, chance to shine
A disappointment dominos

Retreat and hide, deny and find
I know the challenge is great
A hardship to develop
Breaking comfortable patterns
But that were hurtful, faulty; cling
If your dreams are big, your day is long
Much that is wanted, may be found

Her need is great; hold her close
Comfort her want, find peace, please
Right now, she still shines
Inner glow, it smolders
Mirrors all broken

I only want her happy
Heavy years are like chains
Drooping shoulders, neck and head
Rub the stress from her shoulders
Gently thumb precious neck
Work hands deep
Stretch muscles, calming effect

Oil her down, bring smile with scent
Tease worry from wary, bring her sleepy
Comb her hair, long beauty
Not make her sweaty
Heavy eyes, close gently

Relax, my Love
I promised, I vowed
Anything I can do
I will make sure
I can carry

Look in your eyes
See the world
Turning beneath
The blankets
Covering us

My foot takes a step
To you, touching you
Next to me, your skin
Against mine, soft
As petals, roses drift

A rise, hard, stretching
The skin, almost painfully
The ache, desiring
You, next, now
My last

Wrapping my arms around
Encircling you, pulling
Your lips to lips
Kissing, a nibble
Tickling senses

Pulling your back
Against your head
Clasped gently in my palms
Sore, from days working
Building dreams

Our eyes open, four
Then, two and then one
Effort toward each another
But then, it's not other
It's us, no longer singularly

Entering and welcoming
Giving and taking
Given and taken
A past and a present
At the same time

Rhythmically sung,
Harmony beating
Hearts synced in
Fluttering of breath
Motions in feeling

Each against the other
Then with, at, on
Under, in, out
Off, around
Over, and

More, with fingers
Teeth, just not breaking
Skin, touching
Closer now
We ***

Clasped, gasping
Lips together, pressing
Hand grip sheets
Each other, the bed
For dear life

It begins, ending
Circling like sharks
Not apart, predators
Hunting each other
Smiles, hungry

Losing time in our
Repetitions, our hours
Drifting into ourselves
Then without separation
Passing in to each other

Asleep, between thrusts
In our arms, eyes close
Your head, my shoulder
Your body, protective
My blanket, my Baby

Our nakedness
To each other
Open, trusting
Dreaming
Together

Close and closer still
Dry your beautiful tears
My arms around you
Gotten me through
Too many nights

Our legs entwined
Warmth, twilight's touch
Sun kissed in candle light
Blood red fingered tipped
Your eyes hooded
But sparkling and bright
Take you in rapture

But that's not why I'm with you
My Little Biscuit, it's much more than lust
That's only physical,
A moth to the flame
A search untamed

You are elemental in nature
A wind, gusting, a blade
Your voice, beautiful
Rage, unadulterated pain
You are the mirror
To which fire
Measures flame

Anxiety and fear
Blacken out your light
If you allowed unveiling
All the world, frozen
Like I saw you in dress

From the first moment I saw you
To worst in fight, your hand raised to strike
Always I loved you, always my life
Unconditional love
Love at first sight
You mock, deny and bite
But in a moment I loved you
Changed my whole life

I am learning to love you
Everyday, a new light
Your brightness, my devotion
Your plight is my fight
If you'll let me have might

Tell you, ok
Everything's alright
We'll get through this
Together, love
Commitment and tight

She gets ready
Like she knows she's
Special
Like deep inside
She knows the truth
And it's the way I see her

It's her pleasure
To look just perfect
To be the rose
Highlighting
Subtly sensual
And alluring
Beautiful

Her little smiles, almost jeweled
Eyes just right, diamonds
Sparkling, happy smiles
Tipping their corners tight
Gems in the bedroom light

Upon a throne, neither high nor low
It sits almost still, tapping a tattoo
Darkly robed, swathed in shadow
A figure, a mockery of man

Bring it tribute, toll in gold
But expecting both rich, and poor
Those that don't, still toil
Empty eyed, and heavy gaze

Look forth, listen hard
No breadth nor, heave of lung
Dealing silence, absorbing darkness
If my beating heart, still beat

Sowing, mining for toll
Neither pain, or break
Carry great weight, for not
Sour passage, the gate

It came for me, bright
End of days, lead in life
Survived war, and glory
Asleep, interrupting dreams

A tip, tapping breeze
Long fingers, it's only motion
It's boney music, tap
Tap, tap, tap

It wasn't me, but it searches
Collecting souls, or spirits
As they pass, traveling
We work, passage denied

I suspect, it waits
Tapping, hollow tone
Fingers, infernal sound
But not, I fear, for me

When she walks
Something happens
It's in the air
How she moves it
Or it around her
Maybe it's her aura

But colors seem brighter
And if she walks across the grass
It's not just greener
It leans toward her
Like they confuse her
The sun shines less brighter
It's shine more just a shimmer

Child-like, innocent
It's a game she plays
Where she says something
But she knows different
Not sure if it's cute
But if there's a laugh,
She'll second

Much of life is fames
Who knows who
What is slimmer
Not for her
Just simple

I love her
Innocence
Her beauty and simmer
(I wish she wouldn't)
Locks of black
**** akimper
Gemini, two all looking at one

A May's chyld, through
Skipping for sake
Lost on purpose
Perfectly happy
Grass too long

Here I know better
All beneath the lake
Her beauty's her mask
Not quite acting
But not true
Diverting attention
Skirting the questions

Not wanting to answer
Every answer askew
Not the question
But an answer for you, man
Only to find, men don't care

Now when one does
She's forgotten the test
Lost, too many not to care
She cringes behind
Soft, big brown eyes
I love yous and kisses
And hugs that hide

Maybe she knows
That this is real
Her heart is safe
No retreat
Always
Real

At first glance
You were untouchable
Beauty made physical
Ethereal, perfect
Sweater red, jeans blue

You said I was unreadable
Couldn't see what, why
I paused because I was stunned
Lost my words, I was in love
The first time consumed
Couldn't keep my heart in its place
It's drum, total unrest

Up the stairs, I followed
I would follow you anywhere
To the grave, ashes mixed
Barely, I could speak
My throat clenched

We drove for a while
Even now, memories awash
I gathered my courage
Touched your hand at a light
We had talked through letters
Long through the night, but
Nothing to prepare me, for the touch

You dressed for the night
Dinner, enchiladas, steak and that night
I froze when I saw you
Still to this day
You'll never grow older
My heart beat much harder
Eyes upon you, a moment told you

We drank red wine and each other
Hours, in the night
A massage, you were bolder
We held hands, yours so soft
First time, all I wanted
But in time I asked you
For a kiss that smoldered

That night I saw you
With lips, outlined dark
Perfect, quivering in dream
Bottom, pouting and plump
Curves, tender and touched

I kissed you with fire
Melted ice volcanic
Worshipped your body
But all in love with your soul
Made love in the candles
Held you while nightmares racked
That too short night

But I'll always remember
Our first kiss in twilight
Your eyes were unknowing
That my lips
Kissed in love

Clop, Shuff-clop
Worn boots worn well
Their journey, mine
This path travelled
Paved against soles

Low brimmed hat
Wraps the mind
The sun beats on it
A hammer wears it thin
Sharp eyes, peer forth

Horizen's low, scant miles
Always just too far, just too close
One step in front of the other
Home is a sort of walk
All the ceilings my stars

Scrapped leathers worn
A mess from tumbles and scars
Hair once short, now unkempt
Held back, with a short throng
Not for for naught, simple necessity

In my mind's eye, the road isn't there
The clothing isn't worn, not thin
No thought for the sun or night
Even the road, so hard,
Nary a moments thought

Thoughts stay focused
Her lips so soft, unlike the journey
Eyes so deep, refreshing pools
The coolest water; the driest day
Dramatic curves warm, coldest winter

A dry hot wind, chafe his leathered face
Any observer, wouldn't notice
Either twitch, a momentary rise
Or flinch, surprise recognized
In fact, he didn't notice

There was nothing, then or now
To distract from the path
Either paved road, or dirt path
No matter the twists or curve
Nothing to lose his way

There is one end, for him
Maybe two, but that's no concern
Just her, and by her side
Always looking, just to find
Another stranger, to share the ride

Efforts are twisted
Any roots are burned
Because that's not the way
It should be

Pulled from books
Off screens
Far away fantasy lands
Imagination, fake

She knows, she says
She knows

Defining moments
Twisted to insult
Venting for hours
Words that solve nothing

Can't change the world
The days drag by
Merging grey into gray
Barely noticing a day

Storms, she says
Rage, she says, inside

She doesn't know fire
Restrained fury, black
What's back, clouded, hidden
Behind eyes she could never read

It's unseen by her
And I'm proud of that
Keep it back, incheck
Because she so bad

She'll never know
Because I love her

So she'll rage, fight and cry
Anger, fists, and tears
Broken upon the stone
Because that's all she's become

In the downward spiral
Digging her own grave
A strain on her mortal soul
Because her world is her own

So remain calm,
In place, bring the storm

Some might think its worship
To love unconditionally
No matter what is done or said
Giving someone that much power
So much control

It's about responsibility
A gesture of hope
Maybe, no
Definitely of trust
Probably scary; true
Freedom always is
More, it's giving you

You might ask,
Why; Not me
But I was not given the choice
It's not something
I control

It's raw, emotional ocean waves
Golden grains in seas of plains
The mountain ranges crashing
Against stretching Earth below
The stars ****** down light
Millions of years old
This isn't a drop, drip

This emotion is bigger
Overwhelming is not the right word
Because it's not, it's just huge
I'm not drowning in this
It brings me life

Too feel alive
Someplace once so cold
You gave me this
So to give back to you
This is love

Unconditional

All I want
Is to build you up
Heal your soul
Bring you peace
Lift you up
Feel your love
Kiss your lips
Face, hands and feet
Cup your face
Stroke your hair
Keep you safe
See smiles on your face
Protect your life
Die in your service
Live for every moment
Just for your touch
A look, a glance
I love, my Love
Only you
Just only

Tiny mote, too light to fall
Catching the morning light
Sneaking through a crack in the shade
It hangs there although it is flying
Almost giving truth to fairies

Or maybe tiny angels
You know how they are

The light gave it a a silhouette
Against itself, and against the dark
It stays there, longer than a moment
Longer, almost suspended
Beautiful and perfectly still

I can't say I could blame it
For just below
Lay a beauty to give pause
Even Helen would stop
Where time itself froze

You lay there naked
Not for the world to see
Wrapped in sheets
As well as me
So I don't dare move
Not to disturb
The Sleeping Beauty

From your lips, down your neck
The taste of your skin,
Eclipsed by your soft skin
Dragging my lips down
As your scent, fills my lungs

The tip of my tongue
A teasing thing, searching
Your shoulder, holding your arm
Running fingers, tracing it's curves
To your finger tips, lips lightly
On the tips of every finger
The touch of your nails

And back, along the inside of your arm
Hands run along your body
Feeling your smallest movements
And bring you closer to me
With your every move

You lean back inviting
Aroused, your slight hands pull me
To your lithe body, wasp waisted
Lips to your *******
Flicking, quickening your breath
Exploring your mounds
As you press me, guiding me

Down
Your belly button
A delicious appetizer
A tease, for us, a practice
Undoing the button with my tongue

Tight folds, drip a nectar
It's smell drifting, even as your hips
Bring me close, you're ready
And your nails, dig in to my skull
Fingers spread wide, push me
Push you up, pressing you high
Against the glass, I devour you

The lights are off and we are high
Above the ground floor
You perform for an audience
A city of eyes on us, unknowing
Except to us, you press me closer

And, on my knees before you
I worship, you twist, turning heads
Mine and yours, me to you
Your eyes out, seeing the world
Heavy breath fogs the window
And wrapping your leg around
Me, to you holding me closer

I bring you up
Your sheen, slides you up
Standing, I make love to you
******, as your thighs squeeze
Throwing your arms out

Fingers splayed against the glass
You heave against me
My hands hold your body
Pressed hard against the glass
You lose yourself, for me

If I told you that the sun rises with you
You would tell me that it didn't rise
The earth only rolled
If I told you the sun set with you
You would roll your eyes
'Hmmph,' your response
But I see through you

A structured reply
Your eyes dilate, your heart thumps
The smallest smile, not on your lips
But cornered by your eyes
It's a map so easily read

If I write you those words
You'll say to me, spectacular
And become a candle, light
Wax melting in to the night
Because in this real life,
You've become so hidden
In ink it's different

In life you've your shadow
And your shadow you've become real
Choosing which and how and why
It's control, like a mask, like beauty
But I don't exist for your shadow

I mention your lights
From candles to stars
In your eyes and on your skin
Your mindlight, in moonlight
Sunlight and starlight
How do you describe
Something so...

Beyond words
How do you describe
A force, but to give in
And ride, surf
It's nothing I control

When it was bad
You wouldn't give me a chance
Throw it all away
Waste another year
I asked you, pleaded

What could I do?
How could I save?
The answer was simple
Like everything else
And easy when you think
If you could do any one thing
To save who you love, what would it be?

The blind old man is out of his cage again
His straightjacket crumpled on the floor
He's on his knees screaming
Boney, grout shaped knees
His voice, mewling, coarse

From the stains on the wall
Once freshly painted
Bloodied, broken knuckles
Tattooed their harsh sounds
Spraying gnarled fingers
And twirls, to landscape
Unpleasant worlds

His chains, now unlocked
Not smashed, shattered but worn
The jacket was removed from
Boney, sticking beaten shoulders
Sticking wrinkled, age born

A moment between breaths
He screams once again
Crying out for wonder
The words unsaid
If there was a window
Not just a door
Would that he be fed?

The door's hung open
Freedom, from his punishment
Complain about injustice
But slaved to blown out knees
Taunting shadows bleed

I might have pity, but no
A small broken man, created
But he's not blind, self denied
Just to scared; open your eyes
Look and see, the way is clear
It's all in your head, stupid fool
The war is over, history's written

Leave over your opinions about right
The victim's plight, not my time
Nor even yours, stupid lies
Go live your horrid life
Nothing from me

I have my own, beautiful life
Injustices of the past play no part
I'm not concerned with history's specifics
And neither are you, not really
You only want for yourself
Looking for handouts
Whining about fair

My hands are worn, torn
A lifetime's hard work
My back is tired
My knees are sore
I come home tired everyday

I don't care about what you think
I'll protect what's mine
Not give it away
For the sake of the dead
Not either for those that just sigh

It's not about you, it's about my house
My family and our home
You ask for stuff and take from them
You say it's fair, but not to me
Not my children or my gorgeous wife
I've worked my life,
Not you for me

So stuff your share
What you think is fair
Indian heritage and broken knee
It wasn't me, it wasn't mine
I'll not share your burden

If you want tears, then cry
You want more than you have
You can do as I
Work real hard
From dawn and after dark
Get what you make
Not ask for mine

Eruption
An explosion
Another,
Then again
Again and AGAIN

The moon was up,
maybe the tide was down
a sea wall crumpled a little yesterday
cracks, careful now
glimpsing truth
simple and uncut
maybe the first

It brought some words
spoken here, back and forth
no yell, not hate, opinions
and again, I fell
falling, tumbling

Its not up to me
There is no help
Head over heels
Completely in love
a whirlwind,
hurricane,
tornado spin

I took her once,
She spoke return
Here and again,
Touching, loving
Until, at last spent

but then it was again,
her softness of skin
drove me to pleasures
fleshed, desperate desire
an intimate of love

More, again and more
Late in the night,
early into the morn
stopping for breaks
again, once again more
scratches and light bites
visit the morn

Never to have had
a woman so mine
if I could give her
the world, but
maybe my soul

Like the oceans
In majestic dance
To the moon
A song for itself
Moving the world

Like the grass, trees
All that grows, reaches
Straining for the sun
It's music inspiring
A sensual growth
Slowly twistin
Always upward

I love you
Hearing nothing but
Your beat, pitch and tone
I cannot stray, only one path
With you always, always moved

Hours talking
Listening, sometimes crying
Maybe awkward
But needed, desperate
Not embarrassing

Sometimes what you need
Is what you can't ask for
Can't ask for yourself
You can give yourself
Completely and totally
Unconditionally, to another
But it's still not the hardest thing

To look in to her eyes, forgive her
That's easy, but
Forgiving yourself
For pushing her
Is love, hardest true

I have a flower
It is beautiful in life
And watching it die

Imagine a planet of wheat
Maybe blue skies, fluffy clouds
It's a place of perfect days
Some birds in the sky
Where no insects play

There, wine flows from the trees
No crowds, waiting or lines
Free coffee in the mornings
Steak, breakfast, lunch, and dinner
My truck never runs out of gas
Somewhere where I can
Get totally lost, everyday

There I make thousand yard shots
Taking the X, quartered, in four
Maybe out the passenger side
Sleeping in the bed of the truck
Maybe a hammock off the bumper

Not a care in the world
Smelling fresh grass all night
I can see forever, ever in stars
I'll bathe in the afternoon rain
Cookfire when I hunger
Sleep, when tired
Such a false lie

It might have been heaven
It's all great, with a shrug
I'll be bored in an hour
Is love such a life
Everything just right?

My heaven is with you
No other life will do
The absolute worst you can do
Still more perfect than not
Why choose this, would I?
Because without just you
All perfection, would be hell

All I need is to look once
A passing glance, just for me
But I pause, for you
Because I want you to know
With my eyes, that I love you

It'll burn out your eyes
A million souls looking up in wonder
Melted eyes from their sockets
Running, black, down their cheeks
Jaws slack, and teeth falling
From their mouths

Blood, black, running out
From ears, noses, mouths and
Eyes, like horrid mascara
Distorted make up in a horror
But all they see is awe
After the winds that came

Blown fire, a storm where
The very gusts, not gentle
Nothing like a summer breeze
But something that scores
Hair, skin and lips from the bones
Peeling dripping faces back

And yet, they stare,
From eyes which no longer see
Screaming from mouths
That don't make a sound
A chorus of discord
In a firestorm

An artificial sun
Lit on a planet of life
Bringing death
Upon wings of fire
Like a blackened angel
Loosed on an unsuspecting world

Mushrooming up, billowing
Catching and pushing through
An atmospheric nightmare
Ripping the very last air
From the lungs of their children
Spreading out, blocking the sun

Apocalyptic in nature
But no prophet could predict
Their Gods all deserted now
Figments of imagination
For a world that has forgotten
All, for a single glance

Such is the danger wrought
After the fires burn out
The seas boiled away
Leaving beaches of bones
Cracked Earth, continents split
Rivers now, flowing lava home

It's the burden of nature
A beauty of the universe
When stars and orbits
Push and pull, gravity
Of bodies, beyond control
Black holes, spin, blink up

In a moment, it's gone
A whole world, no warning told
The price that is paid, worth
But, be careful, Love
This is your smile's price
I'd give the world for

It's a magic number
Never lonely,
A history in the past
Always again, again,
And once more again

It surfaces repeatedly
Always in the pattern
It's a singular certainty
But by threes
Happenstance, maybe
Coincidence, ok
Maybes

But it's been for years
Three weeks, months, years
Like guard in hell
Too easy to blame the number
Doesn't let you out

But take the number
It's in your palm
That's the trick
If you know the pattern
Use the pattern

Look at the number
First is always honey
Moon's easily reprieve
Second is the morning after
Dawn's soonest drift
Third the learning
Of souls, reflections bold

Always in phase
From one to another
Memories dredge up
To say, no, don't let this be
Whisper, destroyed, wasted soul

Maybe it says
You don't have the right
Not to happiness or delight
Cursed to break
Not Midas Touch

But this is not what I see
To me, you are the purest soul
Childish in joke, quick to laugh
Passion unbridled, sharp of tongue
Brightly alight, witty and alive
Full of fight, free flying sight
Clean and shining, white

If only I could give you
The sight of you
How I see you
Beautiful, awesome
Might

When I look at your face,
I see the pain right below
Make up covers scars
only you think you see
imperfections

I see you on the verge of tears
so often, my helplessness becomes anger
You are determined to be strong
To never reach for help, and
You use this to pull away from me
I can tell from the way you breath
Your heartbeat, in your neck

I know you'll read this and think
Of running, flight, stay away
And you'll retreat, won't touch me
But I can tell, when you touch me
And your Other One does

I know you like the night
How it breathes, its breeze through trees
The sound of its creatures, it smallest creak
I see you without the moonlight
Naked, shivering, proud and fight
Its my fault you won't open,
I know this as a truth

As much as you know its not
There is something else, deep inside you, too
It'll take some time, but I believe what I am to you is true
You are the best I have met for secrets, keeping the past untrue
In the end, later, time spins, I'll be here for you

You looked at me and said,
That I write our secrets, to spread
Everyone will know, just intentions to dread
I didn't say anything, because they already know
They're all poets, like you, holy and spread

To me, I don't care, they are no one to know
So what, what they think, unless for your heart they attempt
They are not worth an audience, spectators who didn't pay
This is not entertainment, this is my heart
Absolutely and completely, open

A desperate attempt
Dramatic, singing for you
To gather you back, make amends for my part
To speak your language, so you can learn my heart
Maybe make sense, all these two years apart

But the future is more
Important to me, my life is with you
To honestly be
Because when I see you, I think
Of beauty defined
No matter your scars
No matter your tide

Those are not imperfections
Nor even bumps in the road
I accept them as 'is'
Nothing more
I want you to just open your eyes

See the future, a size
Our love as together, more us than me
Our heart, to forgive, hold and keep tight
Because that would mean, our hearts beat as one
Our eyes see us together, all imperfections made one
I would give anything for this, let you see from me
Because you are beautiful, and I want to be a part of your light

Every so often
There comes a look

It's almost easy to miss
I know I miss it a lot

You showed me that look
In a picture of you

I was amazed
Because I had seen that look

And had nothing
Associated with it

Not anger, not love
It wasn't fear or anxiety

But then you said
It was alluring to you

Although I was lost
I have a sign post

Now along the road
Falling in love again

Always falling,
And never hitting bottom

It's free-falling
And it's beautiful