He came when the veil was thinnest —
when my mother’s voice had faded into stars,
and I stood barefoot in mourning,
holding the weight of the sky alone.

He wore a smile like silk,
with serpent eyes disguised as tenderness.
He whispered warmth into my hollow bones,
touched the edges of my grief,
and said, “You are safe here.”

But it was a lie stitched in shadow.

He slithered in,
through cracks carved by death,
through silence I hadn’t yet learned to guard.
He drank from my sorrow
and called it love.

And when my heart unfolded —
fragile, divine,
offering him the golden flame of all I still had left —
he vanished.
Like smoke.
Like poison that never intended to stay.

He thought I’d shatter.

But I was forged in older fire.

From the ashes, I rose —
not a woman anymore,
but something holy.

I wear my grief like armor now.
My mother walks with me in wind and wildflower.
And the serpent?

He’ll remember me in dreams —
the one who slipped through his grasp,
burning brighter
than he ever deserved to touch.


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O GLAD SHE LEFT THE SEWING BOX
I see it over there
I see it in the sitting room while I'm sat on the stair
A place I often found myself
Sitting in the window shelf
Early hours hearing you screaming crashing tone
Angry sounds and banging doors
Little one I hide
Hope a little deer doesn't lose her little smile
Hoping that the hare is out and gently bounces here
Hoping that the moon still shone and owls still listen hear
Staring up into the moon
Wish you to return
WHAT If SHEs gone
A promise often said
Made a child tremble fear
On being left for others fun
When she is gone the shadows come
WHAT WAS THAT
SHE LEFT THE SEWING BOX BEHIND FOR THE GIRLS
AS THEY MAY NEED IT
WHAT
To slowly stitch up slices  flesh or simply tie a knot
So to LETS STITCH UP our empty hearts
Say no more its done
RIPPED  THROUGH anf torn another night we are through
apart from
HEART THAT SHE MADE
Then broke
WHEN A NEW LIFE she has sort
SHE WANTED another MORE THAN HER CHILDREN and we are older don't need a mother
LETS STITCH UP THE EMPTY of MY HEART THAT CAN NEVER HEAL
THERE WILL ALWAYS BE AN EMPTY SPACE
THAT CAN NOT BE FILLED nor be replaced by any other
CAN NOT BE BRIDGE OR cover
AND WILL NEVER HEAL
SHE IS GONE,
MY LOVELY MOTHER
WHO I COULDN'T BEAR TO BE PARTED FROM
SHE IS GONE
WHY NOT LEAVE MY MOTHER BEHIND
AS WE MAY NEED HER
No I chose you made me choose you asked me and I said
yes go I'm fine
But I meant don't go
I'm dying here.
don't leave please god please don't leave the sewing box lying in the hall
I'll have to take the scissors out and leave a scar for sure
Stitches do not heal scars you are afraid to show
Stitches only make you see all soon I'll have to go
Now leave or im to go
But I may leave no box
Nor in a box shall leave
Alone

The Shadows Are Now Mine
—A Voice from the Flame

Once more it comes, that creeping shade,
That plays the fair, and feigns the made.
It smiles with grace, yet hides a snare—
But think me blind? I’m well aware.

I speak with kindness, soft and true,
I offer peace—what do you do?
You seek control, your cold design—
But I have claimed the dark as mine.

Think not thy grasp shall hold me fast,
For I am not the trembling past.
The dragon wakes when lies draw near,
And scorches all that feeds on fear.

To those who love me—come, be near.
Your light shall guide, your touch shall clear.
But they who seek to bind, betray—
Shall find no soul, I’ve slipped away.

If you would drag me down once more,
To caves of ice and shadowed floor—
Know this: I lived that cold domain,
And rose again from ash and pain.

So come as friend—I’ll give thee all.
But dare to chain—I shall not fall.
For now I hold the blade of life,
And I will cut through cage and strife.

"The Shape of Lonely"
for when the world feels too quiet

I sit with silence like an old friend now,
in the corners where the laughter used to be.
Some days, I forget how full I was—
how loud love once echoed inside of me.

The rooms remember. The air still knows.
Even the mirror holds space for ghosts.
But I wake each day, wrap my ache in grace,
and carry it where the sunlight goes.

Lonely doesn’t mean I’m empty—
it means my soul is deep enough
to miss what mattered,
to hold what left,
to still believe in a kind of love
that never quite forgets.

And maybe, in this hush of now,
I'm learning I was never truly alone—
just waiting for someone
to sit in the silence
and understand.


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The Tower

I thought you had rescued me
from my tower —
the one I’d waited in, silently,
believing someone like you
would climb the walls
and carry me home.

So I dared the edge,
jumped heart-first into fire,
believing your hands would catch
what your eyes promised.

I risked everything,
tore down walls built in blood and silence,
and still, I came to you —
bare, honest, burning.

You blinked,
called it friendship,
as if my love could be shelved
like a book you weren’t brave enough to read.

Then jealousy clawed at your pride
when you saw me choose a flame
that didn’t flicker
at the first sign of truth.

And so —
you ghosted.
Not a word. Not a goodbye.
Just silence,
where once there was heat.

But hear this,
if only in the echoes:

I was the storm you prayed for
and the calm you couldn’t handle.
You didn’t lose me to another man —
you lost me
to your own fear.

And I?
I rise again.

Now I look from my tower —
not the one that locked me from you,
but the one that built my strength
to contain me,
and keep me high
above your shadows,
your thorns,
your claws.

The True Light of Morning Star


You are the quiet fire beneath a velvet sky,
A whispered spell no earthly hand can tie.
Born from shadows where the wild things dream,
A secret current in a silver stream.

Your soul is carved from moonlight’s ancient glass,
Where time dissolves and moments softly pass.
You wear the night like woven starlit thread,
A dance of light where angels fear to tread.

Loss has touched you like a fading mist,
Yet from that silence, power twists.
Unseen but felt—a haunting grace,
A ghostly touch no one can chase.

The world may shroud your flame in doubt,
But you burn bright when stars go out.
Unbreakable, ethereal, untamed—
A wild enigma, never named.

Within your name, the cosmos sighs,
A spell cast deep beneath the skies.
Morning Star, a myth reborn—
A beacon glowing through the storm.

No chains can bind your mystic light,
You are the riddle, dark and bright.
And though the night may call your name,
You are the fire that will not wane.

The Whispers in the Wind
Jan 13

I am the wave of time held still,
A whisper riding on the chill.
The child once lost, the one you missed—
Now grown enough to break the twist.

I broke from grief’s relentless hold,
Cast love like spells, fierce and bold.
I am the hush before the thaw,
The burn of summer’s golden draw.

I’ll cut you deep if caged too tight,
Yet drown you soft in dream and night.
If voice is stolen, kept from light,
I'll claim it back beneath the moon’s bite.

Cautious, yes—but never weak,
Misread me, and the flood will speak.
For what I want, I’ll rise, I’ll run—
I’ll drain the silence till it’s done.

So they thought they were the rightful ones
Painting it all
Red
Sending out their dragons to claw away the flesh

Why did I allow you time
I knew you were not true
Still in let you in
Even from the start
I knew how it would end
Stop my beating heart
Why did I even let you alone upon my hill to gently care to love me and the severe me straight through
You stole my heart completely
Broke my very soul
And left me all alone inside
After I gave my heart to you 💔

So afraid to be alone to scared to leap the new unknown
Scared to stand to stand alone
Its always here when I'm alone
I'm so afraid I cannot tell
I'm living in this secret hell
I try to turn to fight the fear
But I'm afraid they're always near
I need a hand but Im alone
so cold in here so far from home
I wish for you to pull me out
make it go just get them out
Then I can walk in sun and rain
Never hide from shadows again
I cannot do it on my own
I tried so hard but I'm losing time
I'm so afraid I cannot swim
Its just no use he won't give in
He just wont leave he will not go
I'm not  allowed  to be free let go
I tried so hard this time I know
But it just gets stronger its twists
It claws at every inch of me
Until i stop reaching for me
I wish you could just set me free
Just take away the pain
Just take away the pain
Just cover me with sin or rain
So they no longer see me
So i can run away get away hide away
So they cant hurt me again

🎵 “Together, Alone”

Genre: Indie Acoustic / Lo-fi Reflection
Tempo: Slow (60–65 bpm)
Tone: Gentle, introspective, warm melancholy
Written by: Morning Star


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🎶 Verse 1
Alone again, but that’s okay
Seems we all feel this way
Didn’t you know? Didn’t you see?
You’re not alone in feeling lonely


---

🎶 Chorus
So if we’re all alone
At least we’re not unknown
If you feel the ache
You’re not the only one awake
We’re all together
Being alone


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🎶 Verse 2
The silence echoes back to me
But I hear it in your poetry
We sit in rooms a world apart
But still we share a beating heart


---

🎶 Chorus (repeat softly)
So if we’re all alone
At least we’re not unknown
If you feel the ache
You’re not the only one awake
We’re all together
Being alone


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🎶 Outro (spoken with ambient guitar or soft piano)
Alone…
But good to know—
We’re all the same.
So maybe…
We’re not alone at all.

“Tonight, You Rest”

Lay down your heart, it's tired, I know,
The weight you carry doesn’t always show.
But here, with me, you can let it fall—
You don’t have to carry it all.

No need for strength, no need to fight,
Just drift into the arms of night.
Let every ache, each silent cry,
Be kissed away by moonlit sky.

You are enough — you’ve always been.
Not for what you lost, but what’s within.
The world was never built to see
A soul as tender, brave, as free.

So close your eyes, release the day,
Let all the hurt just fade away.
You're safe, you’re loved, you’re not alone—
Tonight, the stars will guide you home.

Why does my heart hurt
Why do i long for the love
The pain just burns inside
I want so much to be held to be loved
To feel deep passion to be loved
To be wanted
Im so alone so lost
I have to stop my heart before i fall once more
Before its too late to save myself again
My wings are not strong i cannot fly to my loves arms
I can only weep inside and long for something ill never have because im just too lost my wings too hurt to try

I fly to close each time i try
So warm its glow i dont know why
No hand to hold or guide me in
Yet drawn to heat im going in
Try to sleep but there is no rest
Just open doors and chaos quest
In to shadows sometimes see
Like darkness comes and takes over me
Then the light so bright it burns
Just want to fly want to return
Get out break free complete the best
Just leave be free sleep at last
Into woods i venture free
Lose my mind find my soul
Im free

“To you Who Survived”

You—
the one who kept going
when your heart had every reason to stop.
You who loved in silence,
who wept behind strength,
who carried too much and still reached for light.

You were never reckless.
You were never cruel.
You were simply a soul
trying to breathe beneath a life that forgot how to hold you.

You didn’t want forbidden hands.
You wanted to be seen.
To feel alive in a world
that had drained the color from your skin.

He didn’t save you—
he distracted you from drowning.
But the truth is,
you were already treading water in a house
that no longer called you home.

Still—
you blame yourself.
Still—
you hold shame like a stone under your ribs.

But listen…

You are not your mistake.
You are the moment you cried,
the moment you resisted,
the thousand days you were faithful
when no one returned the weight.

You are the woman
who will walk herself out of this
with tear-streaked dignity,
with a heart stitched together by grace.

You are not ruined.
You are rewritten.

And I love you.
Even now.
Especially now.


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I am forever trapped inside the hollow dwell
Underneath the stair and under villa dwell
I am forever trapped within your secret void
Never to discover never to be free
Scratched in the rancin ink from your dark souls they smother me
The words i dread  pour through me though faded through the years occasionally consume me
fill my heart with tears
Your evil words tear through me somewhere deep within
I forgot to lock the gate again and allowed you to wonder in
My bones still ache at night
The twisted knots
Still tight
I toss and turn you wake me
Shadows claw me through the night

The Vision of a Mother

When I needed a hand,
a place to go,
she was always there
with a soft hello.

Welcoming me warmly,
like Mother Mary’s calm,
a gentle wave of comfort,
a healing balm.

Sent from heaven’s light,
a star in the night,
a shining presence
so tender and bright.

I couldn’t believe it—
why would she care?
I was just a child,
too scared to dare.

Afraid to love,
afraid to be known,
but she stood beside me,
so I wasn’t alone.

A glimmer of hope
slowly grew inside,
replacing the shame
I had tried to hide.

Thank you, dear Mary,
for helping me see,
the love in my heart
is boundless and free.


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I try so hard to understand the pictures in my mind
I try so very hard to see what I once left behind
I walk the line in narrow streets
Heavy walls close in on me
I try so hard to do things right
To live a day to sleep a night
My bodies tired my mind is fast
Full of scared an angry past
Full of pain and dread and fear
Wanting to get out of here
I don't know how to make it stop
The feelings of fear the churning knots
the deepest cut inside my soul the angry words
the masks at windows starring in
The sound of footprints closing in
The fear of being dragged within
The fear this time of giving in
Of standing there letting it in
No longer able to fight the din
Clawing at the bridge of rope another door another room
Another evil to consume
Another evil to endure
Same sounds of shadows pass
Same feel of cold and draft
Then the smell like tar pitch black like cariasote you paint a fence
Then darkness and silence your only friend
You wake your body bones an skin crawling flesh that burns within
You shake like snow has fallen hard
So cold so tired and leg bones pull and twist so sharp
My jaw it aches my ears too ringing silence rips you through
Storms over but no escape
Nightmares gone but you never wake
Instead beneath the ice you swim
Always silent closed within
afraid to speak to let it in
Just swim and swim don't scream  don't ever ever let it in

> I walk the line through narrow streets—
Heavy walls close in on me.
I try so hard to do things right,
To live a day. To sleep a night.

My body’s tired. My mind is fast—
A storm of fear and angry past.
Full of pain and dread and sin,
Wanting just to leave this skin


I'm still inside the walls I built—
they shake with blame, they drip with guilt.
Each brick, a name I learned by heart,
each shadow knows the broken part.

I try to breathe but air won't stay,
it slips like ghosts and runs away.
The floorboards creak with things unsaid,
the night crawls in and fills my bed.

The mirrors lie or stare too long,
they hum the tune of someone’s wrong.
And I can’t scream—it’s much too late,
the silence knows, it guards the gate.

I press my palms against the frame,
but all I feel is glass and flame.
It burns but doesn't leave a mark,
it hides like wolves that haunt the dark.

So if I sleep, don’t pull me back,
don’t light the match, don’t break the black.
Just let me float in this old skin—
still inside, but not giving in.

Waves

(Verse 1)
Like waves crashing in the sea,
I’m done letting this be.
No more hurting those I love,
I swear by stars above.

(Pre-Chorus)
You broke their trust, you broke their hearts,
But this is where the healing starts.
I see the pain behind your eyes,
But I’m the shield, I’m the rise.

(Chorus)
I’m standing tall, I’m standing strong,
Fighting hard where you went wrong.
For my angels, I’ll ignite,
A storm of love, a blazing fight.

(Verse 2)
You drink your life, day by day,
But I’m here to light the way.
No more fear, no more shame,
I’m taking back their name.

(Pre-Chorus)
Scared and mad, hurt inside,
But I won’t let this pain divide.
I’m the voice they need to hear,
I’m the courage, I’m the clear.

(Chorus)
I’m standing tall, I’m standing strong,
Fighting hard where you went wrong.
For my angels, I’ll ignite,
A storm of love, a blazing fight.

(Bridge)
Waves may crash, but I won’t fall,
I’ll fight, I’ll rise, I’ll give my all.
For every tear, for every scar,
I’m their warrior, their shining star.

(Final Chorus)
I’m standing tall, I’m standing strong,
Fighting hard where you went wrong.
For my angels, I’ll ignite,
A storm of love, a blazing fight.

The Waves

Like waves crashing in the sea,
I’ll no longer let this be.
I won’t let you hurt them more—
I made that promise, I swore.

You’ve done enough to break their trust,
Now they look at you with disgust.
You’ve drank through every single day,
I see how they see you when you sway.

Tell me how you live each day,
Drinking your life and soul away.
Always scared, hurt, sad, and mad—
How can you call yourself a dad?

My angels deserve so much more,
Than this sad life they can’t ignore.
Now I’m strong enough to fight—
To stand, protect, and make it right.

🌹 “We Begin Again”



There was a time I cried in rooms
you didn’t notice.
When I carried us both
while you watched from the sidelines,
calling it love.

I asked for your hands —
you gave me silence.
I asked for effort —
you gave me excuses.
And slowly,
a wall grew between us
that neither of us named.

Then I broke.
Not in one loud shatter —
but in a thousand soft ways
until someone else
offered me what I should’ve had with you.

I’m not proud of that chapter.
But I won’t lie about it either.
Because the truth is,
I was starving
and you were asleep.

But something strange happened
when I stopped begging —
when I stood in my power,
when I said “no more”
to the version of love
that drained me.

I told you the truth:
if it didn’t change,
we were done.
And for the first time,
you heard me.

You changed.
You worked.
You tried.
You showed up.

Not with flowers or grand words —
but with your hands in the dirt,
doing the work
we both had left undone.

And here’s what I never said aloud —
I never stopped loving you.
Even when I was breaking.
Even when I was gone.

And now,
as one door closes behind me,
I look at you —
not as the man you were,
but the one you're becoming.

And I wonder…

> Maybe love isn’t always a fairytale.
Maybe it’s what survives
after the storm.

Maybe we begin again —
not because we forget,
but because we finally
see each other clearly.


You see me now—
not as background, not as duty,
but as the woman who almost left
because she had to.
Because loving you
was breaking her.

I am not the girl who waited
for you to care.
I am the woman who looked you in the eye
and said,

> “Either meet me in this love—
or let me go.”



And you chose to stay.
Not in word,
but in action.
In the quiet mornings where your hands helped.
In the evenings when your eyes finally saw
the weight I carried for years.

I am not asking for a perfect ending.
I am asking for honesty.
For presence.
For two souls who’ve hurt,
and still choose to heal with each other.

Because the truth is—
I still love you.
I never stopped.
Not even when I was furthest from you.
Not even when I broke.

But now, I love you differently.

Not with desperation,
but with boundaries.
Not with silence,
but with truth.

If we begin again,
we begin as equals—
both of us awake.
Both of us willing.
Both of us here.


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What Is Inside

I am a little fig tree,
small and unimportant,
planted in a quiet corner
where no one stops to see.

But with a touch of tender care,
a gentle hand and watchful eye,
I will grow beyond my size,
reach upward toward the sky.

At first, I’m just a fragile sprout,
easily overlooked,
but hidden deep within my roots,
a quiet strength is cooked.

Seasons pass and sun will warm,
and rain will softly fall—
each drop a whispered promise
that I can bear it all.

In time, the fruit I bear
will be sweeter than the rest,
a treasure borne of patience,
the work of love expressed.

If you look beyond the surface,
beyond what you first see,
you’ll find there’s more inside
this little fig tree.

More than size or stature,
more than bark or leaves,
there’s a world of hope and meaning,
far greater than it seems.

So don’t dismiss the quiet ones,
the small who seem unsure—
with care, they bloom and flourish,
their gifts both true and pure.

I am a little fig tree,
but give me time and space—
and watch how I will blossom,
full of beauty, full of grace.

When Crossing the Heart


He came once more, his eyes did seek
The smile he knew, the soft and meek.
She welcomed him with tender grace,
Yet shadows linger’d on her face.

He spake no vow, nor sought her hand—
But took, as if love were his command.
He kissed her light, then turn’d away,
And left her soul in disarray.

She wept not loud, but stars did know
The ache that bloomed in silent woe.
No dragon rose, nor fire did fall—
But sorrow built a quiet wall.

So he who enters hearts untrue,
And plucks the rose ‘fore morning dew,
May find not wrath—but something worse:
A love once pure, now turn’d to curse.

Beware the stillness in her breath,
For loss can wound as deep as death.
And hearts once broken do not sleep—
They learn to guard what they would keep.

When storms began : Swirling round its whirling sound  it shadows dancing  
The still garden iced hard the winters ****
The sun shines yet melted lake you never see  
Shadows still claw inside of me
The grass so green flowers softest blue  
Yet colours range and angry shade all true.
The wind it works and catches strong
Leap unknown the wall
Taken every finest part they find and now after months of closed behind  
Taken once again the wind its comes ripping though and taking once again
No chance to even say the word good bye they cry
it leaves you there in silence
Water washes crimson waves to blue  
And once again your voice stolen from you
Years pass the wind now gone
But waves of memories flood each part it’s true
How could winds be broken and cut through like a knife
when walls of silence
Close on you
Dont speak don't shed a tear
As if you do the walls again appear  
And in the broken storm torn they call your name Alone to stay you carry all the shame.
Inside the walls the wind still knows your name
If you speak your life wont be the same

When you were mine

He stands so tall, yet leaves me small,
Hears nothing—but he captures all.
So brave and strong, yet fears to stay,
So sweet—then swiftly slips away.

He offers little, takes a lot,
He loves me gently—leaves a knot.
He seems so kind, then cuts me short,
Builds me up, then breaks support.

He gives the world in whispered spell,
Then pulls the ground—as if I fell.
It’s not the journey, nor the end,
But thrill and chase that he defends.

While I seek depth, a soul so true,
He keeps his grip and keeps askew.
He holds me close, then turns to flee—
And still, I fall so hopelessly.

So now, I let the dance unfold,
Release the need to grip or hold.
I won’t predict, I won’t demand,
Just taste the warmth inside his hand.

I’ll take him as he truly is—
Unfolded, flawed, yet full of bliss.
Enjoy the moments that we share,
And let him go without despair.

For though he may not stay as mine,
The time we have will still align.
And in those sparks, however brief—
I’ll find enough to soothe my grief.

Where Love Begins

Now you see a brand-new sky above,
Sunshine yellow, full of love.
A smile drifts through soft clouds seen,
Soar high—don’t spiral in between.

Know you are loved, you will not drown,
Even when the world pulls down.
In every pause between your speech,
Tears like rivers rise, then reach.

But love within you still holds strong—
Hold on tight, you do belong.
The air grows warm, the night more kind,
And fear no longer chains your mind.

Just push the shadows gently wide,
Inside, a laughing child will rise.
She dances through wide-open gates,
Where healing hands and hope await.

The world unfolds beneath your wings—
No more tied by sorrow’s strings.
Fly, where only angels dare,
You’ve found love’s light—already there.

X

So now you see new sky above  
Sunshine yellow full of love
A smile between small clouds you've seen  
Soar above don't spiral down
Know you are loved you cannot drown
In between the words you speak
Tears like rivers flow some deep
Believe the love inside your strong
Just hold on tight you do belong
Beneath is now warm air its light
And dreams are much less of fear at night
Only push the shadows aside
Inside a child smiling waits
Dances for the open gates
Opens up the world outside
No more tied your sadness strings
Inside you found where love begins
Learn to fly your angels wings

🎵 "Where Love Belongs"
(Haunting Alt-Pop Ballad)
Tempo: 68 bpm – slow, brooding
Key: Em (E minor)
Mood: Raw, magnetic, bittersweet
Instrumentation suggestion: Sparse piano, ambient synths, cello, heartbeat kick


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🎶 Verse 1
You said you’re fine—but silence screamed
Louder than the words you mean
You kissed like someone half-awake
And touched me just enough to break

I traced the edges of your lies
Behind your calm, I saw the cries
You pull away, then beg to stay
You leave—but never walk away


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🎶 Pre-Chorus
You wear your hurt like holy skin
But keep me out, you lock me in
You swear that you were never gone—
But I’ve been sleeping with a ghost too long


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🎶 Chorus
Where love belongs is not in pain
Not in your whispers laced with shame
But still I feel you in the dark
A fading flame, a buried spark
You never said it—but I knew
You loved me more than you let through
So if you ever turn around…
I’ll be where love belongs


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🎶 Verse 2
You talk in riddles, fold the truth
Like paper cuts too close to proof
You say you’re lost, but I can tell
You just don’t trust yourself to dwell

Your silence builds a higher wall
Each word you speak—another fall
But even still, I wait, I bleed
For something deeper than your need


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🎶 Pre-Chorus
You call it space, but it's a war
Between your fear and wanting more
And though your mouth denies the song—
Your eyes confess where love belongs


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🎶 Chorus (repeat)
Where love belongs is not in pain
Not in your whispers laced with shame
But still I feel you in the dark
A fading flame, a buried spark
You never said it—but I knew
You loved me more than you let through
So if you ever turn around…
I’ll be where love belongs


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🎶 Bridge
Maybe one day you'll lay it bare
The truth that trembled in your stare
You'll come undone, you’ll speak my name—
And I won't need to ask again


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🎶 Final Chorus (soft then build)
Where love belongs, it's never gone
It lingers when the night is long
And if your silence ever breaks—
I'll catch the words your heart still aches
You never said it—but it's true…
You loved me more than you could do
So if you ever turn around…
I’ll still be
Where love belongs.

💔 Where’s the Heart in Heartbreak?

(by you — because it feels like your story)

[Verse 1]
You said goodbye like it was easy,
Like love was just a phase to leave.
I stood there bleeding quietly,
While you walked off so easily.

I gave you all, you gave me doubt,
Now silence fills what we talked about.
You tore the pages from our book,
But I still know how your shadow looks.

[Pre-Chorus]
Now I’m the ghost in every song,
The one who stayed when you moved on.

[Chorus]
Where’s the heart in heartbreak?
Where’s the soul you used to crave?
Did it die when you let go,
Or did you leave it just to save
Yourself from feeling something real?
Did you ever feel at all?
You took the love and left the ache…
Tell me,
Where’s the heart in heartbreak?

[Verse 2]
I still dream in your old tone,
Still wear pain like cologne.
You vanished like a whispered lie,
But I never learned to say goodbye.

[Pre-Chorus]
Now I’m the echo in your past,
The truth you buried far too fast.

[Chorus]
Where’s the heart in heartbreak?
Where’s the fire we used to burn?
Did you silence every promise,
Or did you leave to never learn?
Was I too much, or just too true?
Or did I scare the lie in you?
You took the light and left the ache…
Tell me,
Where’s the heart in heartbreak?

[Bridge]
And maybe one day you’ll return,
When her kiss forgets to burn.
But I’ll be gone—
Not out of spite,
But 'cause I finally found my light.

[Final Chorus – stripped down]
Where’s the heart in heartbreak…
The love you swore you’d never fake?
I gave you all, you walked away…
Now I’m the one you couldn’t break.


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Where the Fairies Still Live
by Morning Star

As a child, I dreamed of belonging.
In the garden’s secret space,
I’d sit beneath the fairy tree—
I know now it was a silver birch.

My mother would call me in for tea,
but I would climb and hide inside,
wrapped in the hush of leaves,
where sunlight crowned the roof
and warmed my little temple of light.

I sat there, too, beneath the moon,
held by silver stillness,
safe in her glow.

One day, my mother went away—
and with her, the tether to home.
But in that silence bloomed adventure:
from tree limbs to open fields,
to horses grazing in a meadow.

I spoke to them,
and somehow—they understood.
Their eyes held gentler worlds.

Tiny fairies I once glimpsed
danced in moss and morning dew.
And just the other day,
the river whispered back a truth—
as I sailed along the Teme,
I saw one again.

A shimmer on a leaf.
A flicker of wing.
Proof that I had never imagined
what the heart remembers.

Absolutely. Here's my  poem reshaped into a moody, empowering alt-pop song — something that would suit an artist like Halsey, Aurora, or Billie Eilish. It’s emotional, melodic, and slightly dark, but ultimately about reclaiming self and power.

🎵 "The Whisper in the Wind"
Dark Alt-Pop / Ethereal Ballad – Slow tempo (70 bpm)

🎶 Verse 1
I am the wave that time forgot
A frozen sea, a melting thought
The whisper caught in branches bare
The child you lost—still standing there

I grew from cracks you left behind
A flower clawing toward the light
I cast a spell with every breath
And turned my sorrow into strength

🎶 Pre-Chorus
You don’t see the flame beneath
The quiet girl can burn the seas

🎶 Chorus
I’m the whisper in the wind
The frost, the fire, the secret sin
Cut too deep when held too tight
But drown you softly in the night
If I’m not heard, then I will scream
I’ll steal the silence from your dream
Don’t mistake my gentle flood
For anything but rising blood

🎶 Verse 2
I am the hush before the storm
A cautious step that breaks the norm
Don’t read my stillness as defeat
I’ll rise from where you laid my grief

🎶 Pre-Chorus
For what I want, I will not beg
I’ll shake the ground with silent steps

🎶 Chorus
I’m the whisper in the wind
The frost, the fire, the secret sin
Cut too deep when held too tight
But drown you softly in the night
If I’m not heard, then I will scream
I’ll steal the silence from your dream
Don’t mistake my gentle flood
For anything but rising blood

🎶 Bridge (Breakdown)
I'll dry the flood, I’ll twist the tide
Take back the words you pushed aside
Don’t look for mercy in my eyes—
I’ve learned to bloom beneath goodbyes

🎶 Final Chorus (softer start, then power)
I’m the whisper in the wind
The frost, the fire, the secret sin
Cut too deep when held too tight
But drown you softly in the night
If I’m not given—I will take
And leave a storm within my wake
Don’t mistake my gentle flood
For anything but rising blood

Whispers Beneath the Birch
by Star Smith

As a child, I dreamed not just of belonging—
but of returning.
To somewhere I’d once known
beneath the veil of this world.

In the garden’s quiet hush,
I found my place beneath the fairy tree.
They call it silver birch—but I knew better.
It was a doorway,
its limbs a spell,
its roots an old song
that hummed beneath the earth.

My mother’s voice would call me in—
soft and distant,
like a bell through mist.
But I would climb,
disappear into the hollow arms of the tree,
where no hand could find me.

Sunlight crowned the leafy roof,
spilling golden prayers
upon my tangled hair.
Moonlight came with silver secrets,
and I would listen—
heart still, eyes wide—
to the hush of other worlds.

Then one day,
my mother faded from this story.
And silence
became my compass.

Alone, I wandered farther—
into greenbound realms,
to fields where horses grazed
like ancient guardians in disguise.
I spoke,
and they heard.
They always heard.

And the fae—
oh, the fae.
They danced in glimmers,
barely seen but never gone.

Many believed I outgrew them.
But the other day,
as I drifted down the Teme,
the wind shifted,
the veil thinned,
and there she was—
a flicker, a wing,
a knowing gaze
from the edge of a leaf.

Not imagined.
Not forgotten.
Only waiting.

Magic, you see,
never leaves the ones who listen.


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Why would u
Pretend betray be nice
Just to rip it from. Under ice
Why would you pretend then stake me in the heart
Drive your knife straight through my heart
Like I'm just your prey inthe night
I'm frozen on your silence
You treated me like a fool and broke me like I'm just a peice of broken life
Something divided between dark and light
I showed you my truth the complete light
Opened my soul and stopped the flight
But then u broke me like I'm nothing
A ghost in your light
Some you could damage leave in the dark and abuse my heart
Leave me to cry
Now leave me the alone so I can mend my heart
Please 🙏  leave me alone

I danced the tale the song of love within your heart
But in the silence you drowned me and tore my love  apart 💔

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Why
by Morning Star

I danced—
a fragile dance—
the song of love
inside your heart.
But you went quiet.
And in that silence,
you drowned me.
Tore my love apart.

Why did I let you in?
Why did I hand you the keys—
to my car,
to my body,
to the soft, beating place
I kept so hidden?

Why did I trust you
on my quiet hill,
let you rest there,
touch there,
pretend to care there—
just to cut me open
when I started to believe?

You didn’t just leave.
You hollowed me out.
Took what was warm
and left it cold.
You shattered the girl
who finally said yes.
Who let her guard down
to feel something
real.

You stole my heart—
without mercy.
Broke my soul—
without warning.
Left me alone
in the echo
of everything
we almost were.

And still,
after all that,
I gave it to you.
All of it.
Every trembling piece
I never asked for
but you took
anyway.



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Wild Horses
From little streets of sun and play
To days with friends and skies so grey,
I come from love, a family nest
Where joy and laughter made me blessed.

To sunny hills and castle heights,
To mountain trails and starry nights—
Where wild horses ran so free,
And all the world poured into me.

Blue lagoons, and oceans wide,
The shimmer danced upon the tide.
And every night, beneath the moon,
I whispered dreams in nature’s tune.

The angels still, they speak so near,
Their voices soft, I always hear.
The woodland's breath, the blossom’s sigh,
The scent of spring just drifting by.

There’s love that lives in all I see—
No room for winter’s chill in me.
Let spring once more awake my soul,
And summer come to make me whole.

Wolf moon

She was the morning star
with stars in her eyes
and sorrow in her bones,
pressed against the cold glass
like it might open if she wished hard enough.

Each night,
the moon became her only friend—
silent, glowing,
watching her the way no one else did.

And she whispered to it,
softly,
“Send me a wolf…”
A protector.
A guide.
Not to carry her away,
but to walk beside her
to the mountain no one believed in.

She didn’t want escape—
she wanted truth.
She wanted to rise.
To stand beneath the silver sky
and feel like someone’s daughter again—
someone loved,
held,
understood.

So the moon listened.

And though it took years,
one night it answered.

A shadow came—
strong and quiet—
eyes like wild firelight,
voice like safety wrapped in night.

And he said,
“I heard you.”
“You were never invisible.”
“I’ve come to walk you home.”

And the girl who thought she was forgotten
finally saw her light reflected back.

She was not lost.
She was becoming.


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I’m so proud of her. And of you.

You are where Love Begins



It’s not your fault
they couldn’t see you—
the real you,
the stardust soul,
the ancient ache wrapped in grace.

Some hearts are veiled
by lifetimes of forgetting,
only recognizing light
when it scorches.

But you—
you were never meant
to become a flame
just to be found.

You arrived like moonlight—
quiet, whole,
carrying galaxies in your silence,
offering your palms
like spells of healing.

Their blindness
was not your burden.
Their shadows
never dimmed your glow.

You are not too much.
You are not too soft.
You are not lost.

You are the echo of stars,
the hush before the dawn,
the place the wild winds turn to—

you are where love begins.


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🎵 you are where Love Begins
Genre: Mystical Ballad | Tempo: Slow, flowing (65 bpm)
Key: D minor (evokes longing with a touch of magic)

[Verse 1]
It’s not your fault they couldn't see
The stardust soul beneath your skin
The aching fire wrapped in peace
A gentle light they couldn't let in

[Pre-Chorus]
Some hearts are cloaked in shadowed time
They only see the stars when they burn
But you were born of softer skies
Of tides that pull and winds that turn

[Chorus]
You are not too much,
You are not too soft
You are not a wound
You are not what’s lost
You are where the silence sings
You are where love begins

[Verse 2]
You moved like moonlight on the sea
With open hands and ancient grace
A whispered spell, a melody
A light that time cannot erase

[Pre-Chorus]
Their blindness was not yours to bear
Their cold was never meant for you
You gave them gold spun from the air
And still, you stayed, and still, you knew

[Chorus]
You are not too much,
You are not too soft
You are not a wound
You are not what’s lost
You are where the wild wind clings
You are where love begins

[Bridge – softly rising]
You’re the echo in the hollow
You’re the hush before the rain
You’re the place the spirits follow
When they long to feel again

[Final Chorus – whispered then soaring]
You are not too much,
You are not too soft
You were never gone
You were never lost
You are where the stars have been
You are where love begins

🎵 “The Flame You Couldn’t Hold”

[Verse 1]
I gave you fire wrapped in grace,
You touched it once, then left no trace.
You wanted light but not the burn—
So I became what you still yearn.

I broke in silence, bled in gold,
A love too wild to fit your hold.
But every wound became a spark,
And now I blaze through all the dark.

[Chorus]
I am the flame—deep and divine,
The heat you feel in quiet time.
You’ll hear my breath in other names,
But none will set your soul to flame.
You tasted truth, then turned away—
But I’m the one who makes you stay.

[Verse 2]
You touched a soul that knew your ache,
But you mistook it for a break.
I saw the storm you tried to hide—
I held your shame, I stayed, I cried.

Now you replay what slipped through skin,
The echo of what could have been.
And maybe… if you’d faced it true—
You’d still be standing in this view.

[Final Chorus – soft and burning]
I am the flame, the breath you miss,
The haunting heat behind her kiss.
You’ll find me where your shadows roam—
The only fire that felt like home.
And if you ever dare return…
Know: I still burn.

Held safe i cry forbidden pain
My body guarded
My heart open
I cry unknowing with the child in me
Who could not be held
Who could not be free
Given up in darkness
I was all but letting go
And you held me
I was so scared id hardly drew my breath
And you held me
Now you see me
Looking into the windows of my soul
You hold me
Now im not alone yet still far from home
You still held me
But you too will soon let go and once again to darkness she will fall
And be lost to oceans call
Noone can save her because I let her go
I let her go
Am frozen in her fate
There's no escape noone can hold me the light always let go
You can't hold onto melting snow
Or to tears that do not flow
You can't hold onto the life inside
When in darkness they come
and slay your mind
And take from you your life your kind
There's no way out
I cannot find I cannot find

Held safe i cry forbidden pain
My body guarded
My heart open
I cry unknowing with the child in me
Who could not be held
Who could not be free
Given up in darkness
I was all but letting go
And you held me
I was so scared id hardly drew my breath
And you held me
Now you see me
Looking into the windows of my soul
You hold me
Now im not alone yet still far from home
You still held me
But you too will soon let go and once again to darkness she will fall
And be lost to oceans call
Noone can save her because I let her go
I let her go
Am frozen in her fate
There's no escape noone can hold me the light always let go
You can't hold onto melting snow
Or to tears that do not flow
You can't hold onto the life inside
When in darkness they come
and slay your mind
And take from you your life your kind
There's no way out
I cannot find I cannot find

Here is my poem “You Held Me” adapted into a song version with guitar chords—retaining your original emotion and meaning while shaping it into a gentle, haunting acoustic ballad. It’s written for fingerstyle or soft strumming, perfect for an intimate performance or recording.


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🎸 “You Held Me” – Guitar Song Version

Key: Em (E minor – haunting, vulnerable tone)
Capo: Optional on 2nd fret (to lift the emotion slightly to F#m)
Strumming (slow): Down – down-up – pause – down-up (or light fingerpicking)
Tempo: Slow (around 60–70 bpm)


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🎵 Intro
Em   C   G   D
Em   C   G   D


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🎵 Verse 1
Em             C
You held me—held me safe
G                  D
As I cried forbidden pain
Em                C
My body closed, my heart laid bare
G               D
Like a child lost in the rain

Em              C
You held me—though I shook
G                D
Too scared to even breathe
Em             C
And still you stayed, you didn’t look
G                     D
Away from all beneath


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🎵 Pre-Chorus
Am                   Em
Now you see me, raw and whole
C                   G
Looking through my silent soul
Am                Em
You hold me, still not gone
C                      D
But morning breaks—and you move on


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🎵 🌑 Chorus
Em               C
And once again, to dark I fall
G                D
Lost to the ocean’s call
Em                 C
No one can save the child I hide
G                   D
I let her go, she slipped inside

Em              C
Frozen now, no hand to hold
G                  D
Light too weak, the dark too bold
Am                   Em
You can’t hold onto melting snow
C               D                Em
Or to tears that never flow


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🎵 Verse 2
Em               C
You held me when I was all but gone
G                D
A ghost too tired to stand
Em                   C
You stayed until I found the strength
G                    D
To finally reach your hand


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🎵 Pre-Chorus (repeat)
Am                   Em
But now I drift beyond your sight
C                 G
Fading in the failing light
Am              Em
You can’t stop what you don’t see
C                    D
The silence now is swallowing me


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🎵 Final Chorus
Em              C
You held me once, but not again
G                  D
The night returns where love had been
Em                  C
No one can save me from the deep
G              D
Or catch the girl I couldn’t keep

Em             C
Frozen in a fate I know
G                  D
Where every hand will let me go
Am                   Em
You can’t hold on to melting snow
C               D                  Em
Or to tears that never flow


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🎵 Outro (whispered or instrumental)
C   G   D   Em
C   G   D   Em


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🎸 Chord Guide:

Em – 022000

C – x32010

G – 320003

D – xx0232

Am – x02210



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This would work beautifully with soft picking—especially alternating bass note + top strings

You Held Me

Written in 2011 – for he who held my hand until I was not afraid to try
By Morning Star

You held me—
Held safe
As I cried forbidden pain

My body guarded
My heart wide open
I wept unknowingly
With the child in me
The one who could not be held
Who was never free

Given up in darkness
I was all but letting go
And you held me

I was so scared
I barely drew a breath—
And you held me

Now you see me
Looking into the windows of my soul
You hold me

Now I’m not alone
Yet still far from home—
And you held me

But you too
Will soon let go
And once again
To darkness, she will fall
And be lost to the ocean’s call

No one can save her
Because I let her go
I let her go

Frozen in her fate
There is no escape
No one can hold me

The light—
It always lets go

You can’t hold onto melting snow
Or to tears that never flow
You can’t hold onto life inside
When darkness comes
To slay your mind
And take from you
Your life, your kind

There’s no way out
I cannot find
I cannot find
I cannot tell

You held me

Held safe i cry forbidden pain
My body guarded
My heart open
I cry unknowing with the child in me
Who could not be held
Who could not be free
Given up in darkness
I was all but letting go
And you held me
I was so scared id hardly drew my breath
And you held me
Now you see me
Looking into the windows of my soul
You hold me
Now im not alone yet still far from home
Abd you held me
But you too will soon let go and once again to darkness she will fall
And be lost to oceans call
Noone can save her because I let her go
I let her go
Am frozen in her fate
There's no escape noone can hold me the light always let go
You can't hold onto melting snow
Or to tears that do not flow
You can't hold onto the life inside
When in darkness they come
and slay your mind
And take from you your life your kind
There's no way out
I cannot find I cannot find
I cannot tell

Written in 2011 for he who held my hand untill I was not afraid to try
My friend

Written by

Morning Star

“Hey…
You don’t have to be strong right now.
You’ve done enough.
You’ve been enough.
It’s okay to rest.
I’ve got you.
Let go of the ache, just for tonight.
You are safe.
You are loved — more than you know.
Close your eyes now,
and let the world wait.
I’ll stay right here
until you fall asleep.”