I pray for knowledge,
understanding and wisdom
     to answer each question

And in case of doubt and uncertainty,
please clear my mind
     and bring back my self confidence

I also pray that you keep me in good shape,
give me strength not only in physical
     but also in mental, emotional and spiritual aspects

Guide me on my way to the exam place
watch over me all through out the exam days
     and sent your angels to calm me

May I overcome the fear of failure
and help me dwell on my strenghts
     instead of my weaknesses and lackness

I pray for everyone who will also take the exams,
may we not take this as a competition,
     bless us with perseverance and humility

Almighty Father,
please hold my hand
     and sit beside me

I know I did my best,
please do the rest
     and let your will be done

Take this confusion by the mind
a self-inflicted lack
nurtured knowledge compromised
for enduring physical necessity
slowed enough to understand
ignorance rules my life
in need of patient teaching
to break through false learning
and quench a thirst to know.

Take this hollow by the heart
peace and joy inspired beats
for me, for you
turning cold like stone
a will dying
halting thumping efforts
bleeding tears of shame
for apathy clotted caring  
and a life meant for giving.

Take this yearning by the womb
deluge anointing like summer rain
warm and cleansing
fiercely fueled passion
kept alive by imagination
held sacred since
sweetness dreamed of tingling kisses
grown to heaving breaths
exploring flesh and fantasy.

Take this conflict by the hand
hold tight as faith spirals into fear
past influenced disbelief,
determined
like my need for certainty
yet far stronger than I
guide me through doors
kept cautiously closed
peaked in by curiosities
slammed shut by pain.

I'm not an alcoholic,
I just like to drink alone.
Thanks for the concern though.

Why can't a girl get drunk alone
at her place with that ugly
word getting tossed around?

I'm too broke to sustain an alcohol addiction anyway.
Too prissy to pump myself full of cheap liquor.
I'm a high society mess and only indulge myself on top shelf drinks and failed dreams.
Thanks for the concern though.

I'm twenty one.
I'm young.
I'm fun.
And an introvert to the core of my being.

Why can't I drink alone and watch ****** reality television
without the threat of an intervention?

People exhaust me.
Wine delights me.
People are evil.
***** is tasty.
Society is corrupt.
And tequila tastes like vacation.

Good for you man,
you've got it together.
I don't. And I hate going out
and socializing despite what my
cheerful disposition might lead you to think.

So let me drink
And mind your own **** business.

Open the bottle
Tilt the flow
Down the poison
Easy it goes

Blurred out vision
No straight line
Tilt it back
Feeling fine

Fourth drink down
One more pill
Stomach turns
Crazy ill

Half the bottle
Can not stand
Force it more
Hear the band

Head is spinning
Up on top
Fingers numb
Have to stop

No more ***
I want it more
Body craving
I am a *****

Ink stains, and wire frames. Shadows dance in my brain. Cotten cashes in my teeth, the demon breath still stinks within.
A single drop for every sin. In the bile reflecting pool, made up of a broken mans drool. Is what is left of what I was before I took the demon buzz.

i am downing drinks
like there is no tomorrow
hoping i don't wake