Stop thinking about him he's not going to change

Grief is the price of love

Everything is fine
Until I see models on TV
So I turn off the TV and then
Everything is fine
Until I open up another magazine
And compare myself
To another celebrity
So I close the magazine and then
Everything is fine
Until I walk with my lover down the street
And his head turns to follow a girl and there eyes meet
I make an excuse and go back home and
Everything is fine
Until I close the door behind me and look in the mirror
Suddenly it's all so much clearer
I realize I can't turn off the mirror like a TV I can't close the mirror like a magazine and I can't walk away from it to disappear.
I cry for days
It's me it's me it's always been me
Everything is not fine.
Because I can't make me go away

I'm beginning to wonder if the problems I cannot solve are really just harsh realities that must be accepted

Alcohol hits different when your sad

anxiety
look at you your so pathetic when you can't control your breathing
go ahead and bite your nails
rip them off until there bleeding
don't question me cause your gonna fail
I've thought of every reason for the lies you should keep believing
Have your panics have your attacks
feel the whole world carried on your back
worry excessively
don't bother to mess with me  
I'm the silent killer

They said to write about my life

I took a pen

And wrote your name