How stupid I was to let myself think
That what we had was some special link
I allowed you to lie straight to my face
And you abandoned me in utter disgrace
You humiliated me in from of my friends
And now you want what? To make amends?

Tell me, was she worth it? Was she so good?
That you'd leave me so alone where I stood?
You chose her, not me, and years latter regret it
And now you think that you can correct it?
Forget it, it's over, you ***-driven monkey
I'm not a possession, not one of your junkies

You got what you wanted, what's left to take?
You were my biggest of many mistakes
You were all that I had in a world so **** dark
Now, feeding my hate, you've played your part
Don't let me catch you around here again
Or I promise I'll **** you with my own hands

As I enter the gates of hell that lead to my mind I see visions of angels and demons.
They both beckon me, begging me to join them.
I choose one, my mind chooses another.
I choose one route but am directed the other way.
The neverending war in my head.

I'm** sorry for the way I am,
Sorry for what I've become,
Sorry for the things I say,
Things I do,
The things I wish to happen,
I'm sorry that I'm sorry,
For I meant no harm,
At least I admit the things I do,
That says a lot about you,
Now I'll leave you alone my dear,
but honestly who won?

I am looking in the mirror
every passing day,
and the only thing I can see,
is your absence.

*** silences my emotionality
For thirty minutes,
Sanity

We don't have to like each other
For thirty minutes,
There is no love to discover

Animosity
For thirty minutes,
Nobody is asking for honesty

One day I will figure it out
But for these thirty minutes,
You're all I'm about.

Watch your words,
They'll affect afterwards.
*Just cover with some laughter
It will be gone soon after.