I keep a distance from the admiration that I see,
For my heart is still in pieces, healing from what was meant to be.
So I only watch you from afar, with a quiet, tender glee,
And keep the butterflies inside, just for me.

You promise
you'll never leave

You promise
you'll wait

You promise
you'll stay
and marry me
someday

I thought those
promises
was for me

Now, I saw you
grant it to someone

Your action shows
that you still care
about me
but your eyes says
that you don't.

Your mouth says that
you still love me
but your action shows
you don't.

For as long as I write,
I can hear the sadness
of unfinished sentences,
unexplained feelings deeply...

A world where pain isn’t an often occurrence.
Where loneliness is something humanity hasn’t heard of,
A world where Depression is a delusion.
Where self harm/suicide is ones worst nightmare instead of ones solution.

I know I can sulk,
as much as
I want to
as much as
I can.

So I do.

Nothing changes

It's the same pretty mistake I do,
Intentionally, foolishly.
I might wait a different outcome,
I might not think at all.
Over and over.

So I do.

Nothing changes

I know I can scream,
as helpless as
I want to
as helpless as
I can

as helpless as I am

So I don't.

Nothing changes.

It's always the same outcome
that life serves me with a grin.