An encounter so surreal.
A contact I can feel.
My kissing is not perfect.
Hope my intentions don't conflict.
Nothing communication can't fix.
I wonder when if I will see him next.
He said "keep in touch" so I guess we'll text.
Finally it's lifted my spirit & the hex.
I've been ****** in this curse for so long.
I met someone strong.
Maybe he can join me where we belong

I don't know what people think of me but I am not the ***** i portray myself to be.
I know thee image of me.
Just because I want to be beautiful & have attention from a man which i never even get doesn't mean I am a *****.
For 10 years she blocked the front door.
How can I be a ***** if I threw away 100 condoms that expired after 3 years that were never even used.
As children we were abused.
If I was such a ***** they would have been used in twenty minutes.
All old ***** hunchback does is on her fat *** sit.
I don't really give a **** what the mom & her fat son I disowned 8 years ago thinks of me.
I know what I see.

Ask and you shall not receive.
A con job you conceive.
Your country you want to leave.
Join the club.
Earn a pay stub.
I need money in my bank account to.
It's like holding up a cardboard sign to the whole world at the same time.
A scam from the beginning I knew.
Begging to raise funds for their bank account for nickels & dimes.
Well first I need to get a bank account.  
But I have been needy my whole life but I don't ask people for money. 
If I need money I apply for jobs.
I just stay broke until I get a job.
Instead with a sad story people they rob.
One time I couldn't get a job for 7 years I had no phone number.
Work instead of going to the pub in a drunken slumber.
Alot of people think that just because I am white I have money.
But I don't.
I come from a white trash family in the ghetto with a minimum wage background.

I always respected my cat as a person.
Getting another cat made the situation worsen.
I love him but I can't trust him anymore.
I would keep him if the space where we reside had more.
It's sad but I guess violence ends most relationships.
He bites too hard not playful nips.
Cats are like people when they become rejected or replaced they become stalkers lurking in the hall waiting outside your door waiting to cat fight who stole away your attention.
Sorry we can no longer share affection.
I guess he is not the cuddle kiss on the lips & give a little smoochie to anymore.
He is the feed me & leave me alone kind of pet.
Who don't play well with others at all.
I was just trying to give him a friend & then he became the enemy.

My daughter was 3 states away.
With the court appointed I did not want to stay.

Holding on for you.
I did not tell nobody knew.

Devastate how you forsake.
A connection won't take.
My heart will break.
This body convulses and shakes.
To stay alive my breath can not make.
My spirit hovers above this realms gate.
My ex I truly hate.
He almost took me from this life.
I deserve to be a sane man's wife.

Hate *** with all of your ex.
All my relationships I regret.
To be violated I allowed & let.

Thinking that is how you get married.
But it's just false hope I carried.
I wish them all to be dead & buried.

I consider *** with a ******.
To be an evil, sick, & cruel sin.

I can not sleep.
Remembering how I was ***** by a
creep.

For 3 or 4 years.
Healing is not here.

I was only 12 & my sister was nine.
We will never again be okay or fine.

Too bad women can't get paid for self respect.
Humiliation & assault they let.
To age be forgotten & a respect they  neglect.
Their actions reflect.
The path they set.

Sick fantasies, twisted desires, demented acts for cruel gratification.
Hateful *** without love or compassion has no passion.
To be used in that fashion.
Damaged & broken impotent black hearted, heartless, soul less entities of the destruction of pure innocence.
Lust, greed, envy, anger,sloath, pride, & gluttony.
The 7 deadly sins all traits of the **** industry.
Shame on everyone.
It is not entertaining or fun.
Over rated to be degraded.
Defiled & hated.
Focus on a self less love.
With morals to rise above.
Treat the weak & fragile with love.
The reason so many relationships are ****** up is because how the **** industry uses exploits,degrades, assaults, & defiles women for money.
If there wasn't an audience for it there.
Wouldn't be a market for the ****.
I am a loving, compassionate, fun, loyal woman.
Seeking friendship, conversation, and hopefully more.
Can you be responsible for my heart?