Once I lived in Camelot and catered to my king
and all about lay fields and woods with lovely forest things
Deer grazed at dusk within our sights
Rabbits played leap frog on the grass
and woodchucks took enormous bites of pears and watched the seasons pass
Gardens bloomed beneath my touch
Knights and ladies graced my board
and I could never do enough to please my Lord
Then Lancelot came to the king and gave his sturdy arm
Did all the king required and more


He kept the king from harm
but there are kings and there are kings
and so the trouble start
The king abused me coldly cruel
and Lancelot could mend my heart
In tender sympathy and love he held my body and my mind
and while the king was churlish, well
Lancelot was kind
Yes I remember Camelot and how he broke it apart
and all those sylvan golden days that make the teardrops start
I have compassion for my king
now Lancelot is just a dream
If you were once in Camelot you know I was the queen


There is a punishment, I have read,
for queens who take their knights to bed
But kings who cause this pain and strife
Live to respect it all their life
The castle stands in Camelot
It's ghosts are their for sure
and none survive within its' walls except the pure

The beautiful lie
Between you and I
I pushed you away
If only you could stay
You'll see me as more
Than your daily eyesore
The disgusting truth
Between me and you
I was afraid of you
Afraid of what you could do
Now it's ugly sad and worthless
Just leave me alone
I wish I was someone else

I'm the back up
I am the back up I am the one people called when they have plans fall through I am the one that people call whenever they need to cry on though I am the one that people don't really want to hang out with I am the one the people text because there's nobody else to text on the one people don't really want to be with out in public I'm the one that nobody really  runs with I'm the one that is just here trying to breathe  i'm not looking for sympathy and I'm not looking for fake friends I just want a friend that's going to be there... and stay...

Does the Butterfly look to the past
know of a time it was something else
completely transformed I think not.

God looked at Adam and thought, 'I can do better than that'

Let me tell you what it feels like
to have the one person you would
have done anything for destroy you.
He told me i wasn't special and that i
never would be.
Yes, we were together when
he said this.
And he didn't care.
He didn't care that i would
cry for hours over this.
He didn't care that even when
I, like an idiot, forgive him
I will still remember what he said.
And he didn't care that
I knew he would do it again.
Even when he apologized
and swore he would never hurt me
again.
He would.
And i knew it.