its out of the blue
completely unrelated times like these when
****, do i miss you

when i would see the flaws in your face
and you, the bad habits of my hands

when our breaths would mix
and create a concoction never meant to exist

when you made me feel like absolute ****
and i loved and craved it

when our body heat burned
and our chemicals reacted

when i watched you fall asleep
and i would lie awake and dream
of what could be

when your arm would be around me
and i looked up and saw a (potential) future

but these days are in the past, gone
an idiotic, stupid, immature
(if only there were more words)
mistake, my mistake

now, life moves on
but I'm stuck, trapped
in a vicious cycle
that always takes me back
to you

I am a pearl
In the warm embrace of a mollusk
Something beautiful, glorious
But with its own secrets

I am guarded, walls up high
The mollusk moulds me
Thinks it knows every part of me
But alas, that is not the case

I was placed in the mollusk, a grain of sand
But the ones that know me better
Are my fellow sand grains
Hard, but smooth as one

They know everything about me
They know my past
They know my present
They will know my future

As I emerge from the mollusk
So do they, from theirs
We come together, to form something
Gloriously beautiful

While we journey with
Pearls who know our true face
We must never forget the mollusks
Who shaped us from sand