I am still a child!
only eighteen
But, can I not still feel love?
Can I not recognize it in my heart,
My soul,
My everything...

How hard can it be
I mean really honestly
To hit the Shift key

When you're beautiful you have to guard yourself.
Everyone wants to use you,
To them you're just a prize.
When you're ugly you have to guard yourself.
Everyone wants to leave you,
To them you're nothing.

**There is no difference.

Have you ever felt a needle pierce your skin?
The feeling pure, lusting, powerful.
The stinging rake as ink is placed deep beneath the surface.
The numbing burn as a metal sliver finds its new home.
The vein melting hell as you slip slowly into overdose.

Please, don't close your eyes.
Don't slip away for the night.
Hold me just a while longer.
Something is clearly wrong here
Can't you see it in my eyes?
Take a moment to realize.
I only pretend to be strong.
I can't seem to hold on.
Baby don't go to sleep.
All around us darkness creeps.
It quietly calls my name.
Breaks me, rapes me with not to gain.
But I can't say a word...
I feel caged like a bird.
No one puts me through this hell.
No one, but myself.