Take me to your leader
I need it now
I want to feed her.
Take me to your mother
the source of hate
The ones only lover
Take me to her grave
the place she rests
just like his slave
and watch the ground spring up


She moves! she moves!
The mother has awakened
and in the ******
the entire earth is shaken.

I've brought the myrrh
the Frankincense
the wisdom

Ive brought my consciousness
and the mother has sure risen!

Thought provocing thought
And endless desire.
Something fell from the sky line
And into my lap
But I wasn't sure what to do with it.
And when it slipped through my fingers and into the dirt
I knew it was burrowing to the core
Of what we all fear.
And we refuse the love we crave
And we secretly hope for pain
But I want to accept you.

Maybe we should.
Maybe where we are
Just isn't
where we are meant to be.
That would be beautiful,
to hand down
Oh devastation would **** me
But I'm leaning on hope.

I'm hoping you see us
See beyond the failures
We share.
Wouldn't you just love it
if I could have you
whole.
And we could be eachother
For just a little bit.
You can think your me
I'll tend you needs.

Its all blurred lines till you stand back
funny how perspective grasps at those
shadows
irrespective of reality
and its laws.

Seven seconds of the ray
seven colors all long day.
Seven spaces in between
Seven characters all one scene.

Spiraling clouds of wow
expound my hearts true sound.
With light that's jetting through
Oh the feeling soon ensues
With the glancing of the eyes
To the surface of surprise
With the moisture whipped air
And the suns caressing care.
Oceans of grey mist
Curling in the wind
I feel like I've been kissed
At every dip and bend.

Cool water rushes from beneath the rocks and rotten logs.
I sit with my pants rolled up feet stiff from the spring.
Heavy breathing, taking a break.
The rock feels cool through my pants
and the moss feels rough and green.
Looking up through the trees to the sky
I'll never understand how all this got here.
How perfect things truly are.
I'm moving rocks in the woods like its my job.
Accomplishing nothing but a change of tempo
in the flow of the stream.
But i feel like God.

Oh, you have such a pretty brain
So shine and grey so shine and grey
Such pink spindles of sweet knowing flesh
such beautiful swirls of mother knows best.

You make me insane
So shy to day so shy today
How you move me across all borders
how you cut life into perfect quarters.

Vacuum pull
Invite me In
Sucker for your
Needful sin.  
I'm quaking thoughts
Of you untied
Released from
All your painful pride.
Unhinge your insecure
I need you
Vulnerable.
Give me all those things you think
That aren't the pretty showing kind.
And I will take it all from you
And I will prove to change your mind.

My mind had long gone out
despite the composure
I was fading
into the black
with out any light.

My box was kept well
but it still had a stinch
which lingered.
Day after day

It smelled like you and i wondered
what it would be like
to hold you one last time
instead of live with your ghost.

But i new your disease
to which its contagious
and I didn't want to catch
your failures.

They weren't my issues.
They were yours.

You gotta give me props for this...
I was only young but never so dumb
You gotta at least accept one thing
I never had any but i found some....

You dont get to
control this life
and I dont want to
Know your strife

Pages and pages and pages ago.
I turn pages and pages and pages to go.

Somber eyes glaze
Your defenses
Your grated heart pulp
Not so new to petrification.  
Anxiety turns the nerves to stone
And they crumble with age.  
Not to be confused with metal
Which would only rust any way.
Thoughts are offerings
And they are takings.
And you eat yourself alive.
Devour every moment of suffering.
Though you'll be no martyr.

I gaze at stars, dancing under spot lights
Giving their existence
To some foggy innerference
It's getting in the way of the soul.
I don't mean to surrender
And I dont mean isolation
Or religion
That's just getting in the way of the soul.

I see stars dancing under spot lights trying to prove their worth..
Beyond greasy hair
And a bad addiction.
Could they be more than their failings were
Or are only the most pure
Fit for purpose.

I know my own thoughts
So I can say purity
Is far from natural to this mind
But I dont mind
I like to refine
I like to try

And I will a thousand times
I don't believe in purity In physick form
Just refinement
An over all crystalization
Strip away those things you think
That offer nothing to you

Bipolar opposites attract
You fill in where  I lack
I take your hand to have and hold
Eternity no growing old.

You give me everything I hate
I had all of what you ate
You dried up and I am soaked
We were serious when we joked.

Break my lungs no ex in hale
You for the win me for the fail

Love you for what I am not
I do not want what I have got.

Salty tears and *****
blood thats iron thick
even in the *****

the ocean runs amock.

You sweet faced
You big eyes.
standing on your tippy toes
Face against my face.
Shivering hard
Loving the embrace.
My little pup
my addi bone

I keep my time in my pocket
I never like to watch it
I never wanna to  see it
i just want to leave it

I have revised this personality
twice.
today.
I have moved conjunctions
attempting a new feel.

Reinvention seems so clean
so pure...
But alas,
the movement does not
change the object.

Measure me flour
And forty feet tall
Wealthy and power
Willing to fall
To a further failure
Crawl and then walk.
To a time beyond
A thought that could talk.

Sea side eyes
How many blades of grass
Do you see?
Sea shore sides
How long can you last with me.

I'm ever growing hunger
Moving away from center
Your ever growing longer
Moving deep with in her

I want to see  combustion
Where the horizon meets the sky
create this magnetic seduction
And dance me to the end, where we die.

And we move out ward
In a thousand second glances
Second guesses
Everything we could have been
We could have lost
We could have thought
One single better thought

And that be the bane of our existence.

I die daily
Killing those smaller parts of me
In intentions for a greater
Prospect
Intentions for a greater
Potential.

Hoping for those sea side eyes to find me.
Find me where we both stand tall
Far beyond the Graves of men
And that which shall pass.

I find no pleasure
some days
I find no pain
I find our moments
Are for ever the same.

Save your breath for another day
Some other world
Some other play
Some other time
In a different place
Give up now
Though you can't replace
The time you spent
The time you lost
The opportunities miseed
Who knows the cost
You'll never have
A yesterday
You can't rewind
you can't replay.

Titillate and demonstrate
that you alone will conquer.
Things will never stay the same
but my love
oh my love is constant.
And I will always let you win
and let you  bite
and let you win.
I'm staking thin
and you're shaking more and more
With sin.
So please just let me be
for a little while
for a little while
and you will see the paint within me
and I will show you home

Queen of the ember
so deep with in her
fighting off winter
yet none of us remember
what the winter really is

Just like west like
death like dying
cool disease.

You could hear her crying
it rolls up off the seas

Mothers hair grows in many shades of green
Natures course is an ever changing sheen

Prismic
how the father loves the mother
Prismic
How the light changes the weather...

There are cities among my mind
And nations wide
Of gathering thought
Of hate and pride
And they roll against tides
And perhaps their not mine
A kingdom awaits
Not pure nor divine.
And I am the center
And I am the pole
I am the one
Who pretend's that they know.
I am the entity
You are aware
You are the follicle
I am the hair.

Seems like the sun
You move through the streets
Through the shadows
Of our house
You lift dust
In your wake
Shuffling  back and forth.
Seems like the sun
You follow sweet season
Sweet reason
You follow routine.
Your nice and your mean
Your gold  and your green.
Seems like the sun
You fashion my days warm with smiles.
With love and light.
Seems like the sun.

Your ***** failure came to visit
My schizophrenia recited it's coils
Thoughts of anxiety
And writhing in my own skin.
I wanted two different things.
For this to work, my love flow to you
And yours back to me
Uninhibited
That free flowing connection I seem to have with so many people.  
Because I am strong and loving and patient.
But your ***** failure came to visit
And it brought revelation
In such a narrow minded translation
And you both preached of death
And evil
And releasing all suffering
Once the body stops beating.

I tried to show my rhythmic patterns
I wound up all my music boxes.
I said I thought we should appreciate
Each moment we are breathing.  

You both seemed offended.

I waited for you by the window
Wanting hard for you to stay
But when you both walked in the door
It was clear we were not the same.

We never were.
My mother, and then the grand
The lineage of my ancestory.
But how am I so different
From anything you'll ever be.

Wrapped to tightly in bible paper
And the law of the land.
Fantasizing about the day you die
So you can be with God

And you tried to tell me bad news
And I told you i already knew
I was not effected by the chaos
But you had more speech to ensue
And you spewed
Oh you spewed
Of every terribly saddening thing.
And I laughed out loud at your struggle
At your death mind writhing.  
And you looked to me as if I were trouble
Laughing at tragedy.
But I responded to you gently
With every body dies
And you went back to your speech
Of how only the good rise.

Aren't we all just holding so tightly
to these bodies
that we pray for an after life
I'm learning to appreciate
the life that I was given
And to trust that I've already risen
From the compounds of pleasure
And the lust from your wombs
And In the end
We will all have our tombs.

Conception never screamed so loud
as when I came unto you

It screamed mistake
dont take
this fear you've been eating
will disolve all love
and its yourself youll be eating.

Hard candy breaks my teeth
As I try to eat
No matter how sweet
Shattered lively hood
Crumbles before me
Falling past my lips onto the counter
Rolling towards the edge
Where free falling
It hits the floor
And bounces once or twice
Maybe one time more
And lies flat on its existence
Never to heal
Only to rot for another sun rise
While things around it twitch
At the light it lies flat on its existence.
Never to move
This is what we call death.

Sparkling eyes,
I tried a thousand times
Your defenses wearing,
You lose that gleam.
I lose strength.
But never lose my will
And have you ever seen
A being so devoted
To just a glimpse
In hopes of more.
And years put in to
Getting under your skin
So confused from those before me
But your eyes sparkle more lately
And I don't have to try