Some days when I wake up
All I wanna do is bust this rut
Not with any ***, girl with flow
With *******, luscious lips,
And a round ****
A girl with brains is what I want
The kind of girl with a mind to flaunt
Her eyes so round, so pretty
Getting to the point when I'm lippy
Maybe a birdy, one who's a little too
Nerdy, still keeps me on my toes tippy tippy
Till my tip starts slipping
In the bedroom getting freaky

"I love you dearly..."
You spoke those four words to me countless times,
like a mother should
but a mother also should notice
the harsh words that follow
that feel like a bullet her daughter's chest.
"You're tearing this family apart."
"Maybe you should have killed yourself."
"You're going to ruin Christmas."
"Nothing is wrong with you."
And how do you not notice the added bracelets?
Or see how a light's always on in my room in
the crazy hours of the night when you're  
creeping around for another swallow of pills?
Or how I lock my door when I go to a
friend's house so you don't go in there?
You told me you wanted to jump in front of a car.
A train.
Overdose.
You say we don't care.
Is that why you treat me this way?
I'm numb now, Mom.
I feel nothing.
You've done it again.
I thought it was over,
when I just started to trust you.
But now?
Now I don't trust you.
Or anybody.

Crazy is as Crazy do
I'm not crazy like you
But I'm crazy enough to pursue
You and tread fast through
All the fire that we threw
It was His wind that blew
Our hearts foundations, cue
The hurricane of emotions true
I can't leave lest my face turn blue
From the lack of love from you
"Love is like oxygen,
If you get too much
You get too high,
Not enough
And you're gonna
Die;
Love gets you high"
You are my new addiction
My hearts new affliction
A source of inner friction
Sparks an impassioned diction
Creates the necessary condition
For an amorous combustion

Tongue twisting musings
Are all too confusing
With a mouth filled
Through anxiety willed
The stumbling fumbling
Of a poet bumbling

Where did you traverse to love
Back to lands above
I am left in Gehenna