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Hadrian Veska Apr 2016
I had a dream that I was no more
I was free from my body
Free from the world
And all sense of physicality

I wandered the moon
Took in the ocean of storms
I peered into the void
And perhaps it peered back

For a moment I was still
Taking in the vast unknown
I watched the stars themselves
Fade in and out of existence

As I observed these things
I came upon a curious thought
That perhaps the universe
Was not inherently cruel

Things were born and died
Then were born again
Thus was the cycle
And ever would it be

When I awoke I was at peace
I now finally understood
What that feeling was
That had followed me all my life

That strange shiver
That comes upon us all
As if being watched
By an unknown observer

This was no ill omen
Just the simple presence
Of one of those far off souls
Exploring the universe as I had

A simple wanderer
Watching the eons pass by
From the ancient place
That we call sleep
Hadrian Veska Mar 2020
The waters were deep and still
As far above as they are below
Waste and void were  all that was
Darkness was over the Earth
A lone spirit stood above the waters
Silent for but a moment
An eternal moment before time began
Then the spirit spoke
And darkness undid itself
The waters split apart
To reveal dry land
The sun, moon and stars
Blinked into being
The Earth and the planets
Their orbits began
Trees and plants sprung
Up from the dry ground
The fish and the birds
Filled the seas and the sky
Animals roamed
The newly formed land
All was complete
But this was not enough
That spirit then planted a garden
To the east of the river
And in that garden by hand
Formed a new creature
In the same way of that spirit
Was the new creature made
Unlike any other beast of the field
That creature was man
The lord of the earth
That creature called man
The companion of God
Two that are one
In the way of their maker
Who Himself is called Us
When He spoke before time
Upon His creation
God looked and was glad
For all was good

Oh that we will return
From here East of Eden
Back to the mountain
Of the Lord our God
Hadrian Veska Jul 2017
Show me O Lord
Where you yet abide
For no longer can I see
Without you by my side

Dark sprits and men
Have led me astray
A thousand times
Throughout my days

Your word is true
The only key
Twisted by men
More cleaver than me

I am too simple
And easily swayed
To keep up with the demons
That dance in my brain

Come to me Lord
And show me the Way
That I might rest assured
At the close of the day
Hadrian Veska Apr 2016
I stumbled into the old Gothic style cathedral
I was desperate, they told me she had been taken here
I'd heard many stories about this place
And the one who resided here

The pale moonlight shined through the stained glass windows
Where I expected to see an alter
I saw only a shrouded figure
Sitting on upon a strange throne

As I drew closer I observed the figure and the throne
In greater detail and upon doing this
I grew sick at the sight before me
The throne was made of people that seemed to be alive

"Do you like them?" came a voice that surrounded me
With these words the figure rose up
And removed the cloak they were wearing
Dropping it to the floor

To my surprise it was a tall beautiful woman
Nothing like what the rumors and legends had said
"These are my play things" she spoke with a wry smile
As she walked down a few of the stone steps

Behind her I saw the people move
They almost slithered about her
I saw that they were not normal humans at all
They seemed too perfect and almost unreal

Their joints were connected like those of a doll
I kept looking around to see if i could find my sister
And to my ultimate dismay
I eventually did

She looked just like all the others
i shouted out to her, but she did not respond
She just looked at me
With those unblinking glass eyes

"I doubt she remembers anything
After I removed her brain and all her organs."
The witch spoke as if about to laugh
"She is merely a stuffed puppet now."

I could not believe this
All my trials had led me here
And I was too late
The moonlight began to dim

The witch disappeared, yet I still heard her voice
"You know, you can join her if you like
It doesn't hurt one bit
And it would be over soon"

As she spoke I realized she was now behind me
She gently grabbed my shoulders and breathed down my neck
"Look at her, she's smiling, do you want to take her away from happiness?"
I did look and she was smiling, a hollow empty smile

I tried to reach out, but I was paralyzed
Whether this was the witches doing or simply out of fear I did not know
But soon I closed my eyes and drifted off
Into a deep and strange sleep

I heard a voice guiding me in my dream
I knew that I wanted my sister to be happy no matter what
She desired a peaceful life after all we had been through
There was just one thing I had to do to keep her safe

Just one thing I had to do...
It would make my sister happy...
And it would bring me peace too...
Just one thing...

In a daze I woke up from my dream
My eyes would not yet adjust and I smelled hot metal
As I came to I saw that it was not metal but blood
Giving off the metallic aroma

It was my own, pouring out from my neck and chest
Yet I did not feel any pain or discomfort
It was truly a strange feeling
As I watched my own organs being removed from my body

I looked up and saw the witch gracefully moving about
With a smile of her face and blood on her claws
The other dolls circled about as well and I saw my sister
With that same hollow smile stretched across her face
Hadrian Veska Jun 2016
At last I was free
From under her spell
I said to myself
Climbing out of the well

But a strange feeling
Came into my head
As I mulled over the words
That I had just said

I wanted to go back
With or without the curse
Whether it was stockholm syndrome
Or something far worse

So I climbed back down
To the young witch's lair
Who despite her occupation
Was beautiful and fair

I explained my position
As she listened with surprise
Or so I thought
As I looked in her eyes

After hearing my request
To stay by her side
She seemed to break down
And nearly cried

She said she was no witch
Just a practicer of magic
But her skills were lacking
And her results quite tragic

I felt for her I did
But she was young and sly
And I could not tell
If it was the truth or a lie

In the end however
I did not really care
She was my beautiful witch
And I'd follow her anywhere
Hadrian Veska Mar 2020
In the beginning
It was

And even now

It is near you

By it all things
That are were made

For it was with and is

The Creator Himself

By it we are saved
Or by it condemned

When spoken it shall grant

What knowledge cannot

When spoken it brings life
To those dying of thirst

Come then to flesh
Never to depart

Though once to leave

In dwelling not parted

Revealed in action
The perfection of faith
Hadrian Veska Aug 2017
A beautiful love poem
Written by a lonely soul

A fantasy adventure
Written from a crippled body

A philosophical question
Posed by a highschool dropout

The world is full of people
People who accomplish great things

Despite their shortcomings

So who are we to judge someone
On anything other

Than the work of their hands
Hadrian Veska Apr 2016
The sky is filled
With red and orange
Elegant shadows are cast
Over tall hills and mountains

The world prepares
For its long sleep
A hibernation,
That will span an eon

In the still night
The Earth will wait
Silent and calm
Among the void

The time will come
When the world will awake
And be bathed in the light
Of a brave new dawn

And it must awake after all
To care for it's new children
Those young creatures
That arrive

From beyond the long dark
Hadrian Veska Jun 2017
Where is the world that might yet be
Beautiful, tranquil, calm and free

It is here still and may yet be found
Careless buried below shallow ground

Should we ever stand to then pursue
The world it is that once we knew

We shall find it was waiting before us

Patiently all along
Hadrian Veska Jan 2018
Forgotten have we or just ignored
What futures for us the past has stored
What mysteries wait to be discovered
What treasures hidden to be recovered
The world is wide and the skies are vast
Looking inward for truth won't last
The world is not within, but without
So raise up your head and choose your route
Down the path of life, short though it be
It's worth it in the end if you ask me
Hadrian Veska Nov 2017
It haunts those streets
In the hidden hours
When neither sun nor moon
Grace the stillborn sky

That city lost long ago
To the steady march of the waves
In the ages since though
Have the great waters receeded

Leaving but strange memoires
Of coral and salt
Sitting upon the shores
Of a dried up sea

There, among thirsting relics
Of a bygone seabed
Does a creature lurk
In exalted solitude

Neither spirit nor man
But somewhere inbetween
shrouded in tattered cloth
And adorned by grievous horns

In and out through the ruins
Of that once alluring locus
Where in long ages past
The spirits and sprites yet lingered

But no longer
Now only the solitary Wydyatt
Haunts those ancient roads
Beneath the twilight skies
Hadrian Veska Jan 2018
Her smile was sweet
Innocent and kind
It caught his eye
More than once

But regardless
Of all his rationalizing
He knew he loved her
And it could be no one else

His heart suffered
Every day he didn't talk to her
Just hearing her sweet voice
Was enough to make his day

And she knew it

Every day that he watched
Longingly pining for her
She put on her best show
In front of someone else

She smiled
Not sweetly or innocently
But treacherously
Because she cared for no one

At least not anymore
The attention of others
Is the only thing
That brings her solace
Hadrian Veska Apr 2016
The universe is but a vessel
True existence lays outside
And soon enough we will find the opening
And let ourselves out upon creation

Yet before that we must realize
That the universe is but a vessel
Not meant to keep us in,
But meant to keep Them out
Hadrian Veska Sep 2018
It's a lonsome world
Decayed, full of rot
And you the prince of it all
I will not be here for long
So in the time I yet remain
You must decide
Who it is you will be
For your enemies are naught
But destruction and darkness
And they will come for you
Once I am gone
Spreading like a sickness
As they did long ago
The heroes of old are gone
Their statues lie in rubble
No one remains to save you
Save for yourself young prince
And in time
You will know your own strength
Hadrian Veska Dec 2017
I've died twice
With a third death coming
Just on the horizon

I eagerly await it

For this death
Will bring more life
Than I have ever lived
Hadrian Veska Apr 2019
How easily we forget
Build it up, but don't let it set
Better to give and then to get
Than it is to simply give

The tears we cry mean nothing now
Our promises and broken vows
We cross the stage and take our bow
Before any even know

We live our lives with so little love
Our peace in power not a dove
Our home is here and not above
Yet we treat each other wrong

It's a struggle we all know
To live, to learn, to laugh, to grow
On this place here down below
In the times that we all live

Yet there is hope there's always been
In a book that's long since penned
This fate we have won't be our end
No there's something more

I know all this to be true
God placed us beneath a sky so blue
In perfection just me and you
We were here on Earth

So in perfection made again
We won't float and fly with them
No, we'll walk on Earth as men
The crown upon the Earth

My friend this is your worth
Hadrian Veska May 2016
The sea has turned to glass
The sky so paper thin
I feel like I must walk forever
To keep from caving in
Hadrian Veska Oct 2017
Do they know yet
Of what might come
When the seas receed
And the earth succumbs

When the sun sets last
And the stars fade away
When the night has come
And the moon turned grey

That those things which sleep
Below the murky waves
Might rise again
From their sunken graves

To walk the still earth
As they once had done
In a long distant age
Before the birth of the sun
Hadrian Veska Jun 2017
Little do they know
Of the things that yet grow
Beneath the thick metal
Many leauges below

The earth thought dead
In smoldering red
Lives on unknown
To her children that fled
Hadrian Veska Jan 2017
I smile and wave
Day by day
As the seasons come
And pass away

I couldn't take care of you
Though I tried my best
So they took you away
At my own request

I wanted to give you
Your own path to choose
But if you stayed with me
You could only lose

It was the hardest thing
I've ever had to do
But I know it was right
To give it to you

That chance I never had
To be happy and grow
Safe and secure
Though you'll never know

Who I am
Or what I've done for you
But that's ok
All you need to do

Is smile and wave back
As the seasons roll by
That's all it'll take
To make this old man cry
Hadrian Veska Nov 2017
Three silver of the sky
In the river float by
Unaware of their collective worth
Undisturbed by wind or earth
Hadrian Veska Apr 2019
Three to come
And one to go
One to return
At end of snow
One to watch
To be a guide
One last to judge
All men in time
Hadrian Veska May 2016
I've seen you from across time
A penny a year a decade a dime
I've waited for the right time
Waiting for our worlds to rhyme


But I was too slow
I lost track of your time
My memory ran low
Your faded from my mind


So I look out through this broken glass
Trying to catch a glimpse of the past
Because now no matter what I do
That's the only way I can see you
Hadrian Veska Aug 2024
Dreamed about for centuries,
humanity finally now knew they were not alone in the universe.

They had arrived in such a manner that our instruments detected them only three days before their arrival.

Some believed it was an attack, or a mere scouting party for a larger force, others believing the ship was actually derelict, operating on autopilot long after its occupants perished.

Soon, both those theories were put to rest as the ship landed and indeed life forms emerged from it.

But there was no diplomacy with them, no greeting of peace or aggression.

They exited their craft, the hulking oblong thing that it was and merely wandered.

For weeks and months, a half dozen of them crossed fields, climbed hills, sat in the woods, splashed in streams and just generally meandered.

They had no weapons, no advanced tools to aid in their travels, they had what appeared simple fibrous blankets, a large metallic ***, dulled by age and a single instrument with which to light fires.

Any attempt by political, military or media figures to approach them and engage with them in any communicative way failed as they showed no interest.

No one dared to try and corral them anywhere, for fear yet that it was some kind of strange survey party, one that would report back to a much large fleet or home world.

Yet after a time of a little less than a year they had returned to their ship. there was no message, no waving goodbye. They simply closed the door and after a few minutes of undoubtedly preparing their instruments they left.

The world then waited. Years, decades and centuries for another visit.

Searching, determining, where the ship had gone and from where it came.

But it's origin or destination were never located.


No subsequent visit came.
Hadrian Veska Jul 2018
The tide rises and turns
Receeds to the sea
Exposing bare rock
And the roots of the trees
And in distant days
Will it drain ever bear
Exposing lost things
Thought not to be there
Hadrian Veska Oct 2021
The clock struck a peculiar time
Reverberating on the window pains
When I looked up from the old wooden desk
To the stark white face of that piece  
My eyes were caught in a haze
The hands of the clock eluded me
The chair scratched against the floor
As I moved backwards and rubbed my eyes
My ears popped ever so slightly
Light headedness came on to me
I found it and remained conscious
Aware of what would occur should I fall,
Succumbing to that mechanism
I mustered myself to remove the clock
Lifting it from a single nail in the wall
I placed in in the top drawer of the desk
It's ticking was no longer audible
Yet I still felt the reverberation
It bounced and rattled within my bones
A pulsing echo within my mind
Never louder yet with each throb
It grew more and more distinct

Then it stopped altogether
And the shadows grew long in the room
I paned out the old attic space
For the breifest moment
Before the shadows evaporated
Blending and mixing with the darkness
Hadrian Veska Jul 2016
Tattered veil
And near transparent
Fluttering cloth
A lonely white dress
Inhabited by a frail figure

Perhaps once it cried
Though now all its tears
Have long been spent
Mourning something lost
That cannot be returned

And Ever shall it wander
The great forest wastes
Silent and somber
As it paces over ancient graves
Long covered by vegetation
Hadrian Veska May 2016
In boundless night
And ceaseless day
Through churning winds
Of endless grey

Shall I march on
Weak and alone
To one day stand
Before the throne

And when at last
I see that place
I'll close my eyes,
Cover my face

Saying the words
I've known since birth
That resonate
Within the earth

"What is what was
Again shall be
From time since past
Eternity"
Hadrian Veska Apr 2018
Timid waters
Fall to shore
Beneath the stars
And shattered oar
Where dim mists linger
Long after dawn
And the voices echo
Of those since gone
Ah, timid waters
Wash away
All the guilt
Of yesterday
Let our souls
Be at ease
Come the night
And ocean breeze
That we may walk
The shattered shore
Where the Moon lies
To shine no more
Hadrian Veska Aug 2016
Crescent moons were her eyes
Molten silver her flowing dress
The night sky receded in her presence
And the stars adorned her like jewels

A strange cosmic elegance emanated from her
An almost unreal grace and beauty
The likes of which is not know
In this world or any other

My eyes were blinded by her brilliance
But my heart was darkened as well
As if a great immemorial sorrow
Originated from somewhere within her

I wished to reach out and touch her
If only briefly
But the more i tried
The further she withdrew

Until she was but a faint light
Far off in the depths
And to this day looking at the night sky
I feel that eternal sorrow

That once she shared with me
Hadrian Veska Mar 2017
Determinism is self-defeating

If it is true,
No one is accountable for anything.
If no one is accountable,
There are no morals.
Without morals,
There is no concept of right or wrong.
Without this concept,
We would all follow our desires.
Which according to determinism,
Are not our own choices.
If they are not our own choices,
Someone or something else made them.
But if someone or something
Determines our choices,
Who or what determines
The choices the determiner makes?

Either they make their own choices,
Which refutes determinism
Or the universe, space and time
Are infinite and cyclical.
Which they are not,
Since the universe had a beginning,
(Big bang/ creation)
And the universe will have an end.
(Heat death/ judgement day)

Whether you are religious or not,
Determinism is a fools errand.
Hadrian Veska Apr 2016
Many seek knowledge all their lives
And certainly they attain it
Yet no seeker of knowledge
Has ever attained wisdom


This is for one singular reason
Knowledge does not lead to wisdom
No wisdom is only grasped
When one knows the truth


The wise man does not seek knowledge
For he knows this is vain
He begins his search at truth
Looking for its signs all about


And he finds them
In the bubbling brook
The swaying trees
And the quiet world around him


The sun of the day
Is his friend and companion
And the moon of night
Is his watchful guardian


His world is at peace
And ever shall it be
Even when all knowledge
Has passed out of memory
Hadrian Veska Oct 2016
Something strange sits
In the murkey mist of ages
Just far enough out of reach
To keep us from its truth

The closest ever we come to it
Is the soft ringing in our ears
That comes only in dead of night
When all but the mind sleeps

Every night does it play
In vain hope
Lulling us to sleep
And bidding us to dream

Desperately calling to us
With all its might
So that one day
We might wake up
Hadrian Veska Apr 2016
I sit against
The rising sun
It's been 5 days
Since I've seen anyone

I lie in dust
In the remnants of man
In his shattered cities
Never to rise again

I wander the black roads
Cracked and bare
Searching for life
If it could be found anywhere

I gaze out
On a field of graves
Pondering the world
How it took and gave

I sit against
The setting sun
It's been five years
Since I've seen anyone
Hadrian Veska Jun 26
We thought the machines, the extraterrestrials or even the gods themselves would come down and stop us.
We had it seemingly coded within us, thinking there was some hard boundary that we would not be allowed to cross.

But no one came.
There was no one to stop us.
No one to contain our endless ambition.
The universe had no natural mechanism to contain such an intelligent virus, and indeed that is what we are.

From world to world galaxy to galaxy we leapt,
ever quicker ever more hungry.
We became all the things that our ancient fantasies and fictions
told us we would fight.
We became the machines, we became the extraterrestrials
and even greater than the gods themselves,
whom we gave up trying to find eons ago.

We knew now that anyone in existence who dreamed of gods, dreamed ever so dimly of us. Or they would,
if there was anything left that could dream.
Here in the infinite cold dark,
a universe stripped clean like meat off of a bone.
There was an old saying that we came from dust,
and to dust we shall return.
We rest content now,
knowing we took all creation with us.
Hadrian Veska Nov 2017
The burden of self is heavy
Bearing down on those that wander
Back and forth throughout creation
Unsure of who they are
And what their purpose is

Unsure in their rebellion
Who it was they rebelled against
So many millennia ago
Thus they are to wander
As punishment for their sins

In the very ruins of paradise

A paradise once more to be
Hadrian Veska Mar 2017
Ever has that spirit wandered
Since forgotten days of yore
Searching for one lost to him
One lost and nevermore
Hadrian Veska Dec 2016
Keep out until you find yourself
Keep quiet until the task is done
Keep humble now and always
And keep your head held towards the sun
Hadrian Veska Jan 2022
Do I love?
Or do I do these things
Because I feel I must?

The bare minimum
Or at least not as much
As I know I'm capable of

Do I really try?
Or does real love
Even need to try at all?

I've learned myself
That it is a conscious effort
Not just a feeling or emotion

It is a mindset
To sacrifice for others
To put them above myself

Even if I have needs
Or wants of my own
There is no higher love

Than to lay down one's life for another
Hadrian Veska Apr 2018
I fall in love with everyone who looks my way
Only to realize too late
They were just looking past me
Hadrian Veska Apr 2019
Love
Oh love
Do I know your name aright?
Can you bring me to the light?
I've been lost for so long
Weak but never strong
Can you take my hand and share
All your faith and care
For me despite my sins
How could I ever win
Without you and the me
I hope to one day be
Hadrian Veska Apr 2022
To ash and stolen
Our home among the stars
No retaliation
Even escape but a distant dream
Though by sheer grace
Did some survive
Scattering themselves far and wide
Among the ever twilight cosmos
One day I know they will return
They must!
For in them lies the spark
The last remaining hope
Of a humanity without a home
Hadrian Veska Apr 2016
If I were to tell you
That things are about
To get much worse
You would not believe me

The fact that we are even made
To live in the first place is cruel
Everyone alive knows that
To a sickening degree

I have something
I want to show you some day
It alone remains
Always within my heart

As I lose track
I see your eyes
Fixed on that far horizon
Beyond the clouds

We pick up our pace
If only for a while
So that yesterday
Is not just a regret

For now I will follow
I want to believe
That we can reach
That distant paradise in your eyes
Hadrian Veska May 2016
God loved us and made us
Yet left us alone
Giving us the choice
To make on our own

And that path before us
Is difficult at best
Where loved ones die
And are laid to rest

The world is cruel
And yet we all laugh and smile
If we can do that here
Imagine heaven for a while

No pain or heartache
For all are one
There's always light
For God is the sun

Everyone is family
And no one's left out
No schedules or deadlines
To worry about

Upon these thoughts
Can one not say
It was worth the wait
Of our earthly stay?

I think these things
On calm cool nights
When the west winds blow
From beyond the heights

When the world is quiet
And the stars my light
I close my eyes
And fade into the night
Hadrian Veska Apr 2016
After the revolt
They were all banished
Abandoned on those inhospitable rocks
In the far reaches of space

The machines of High Antiquity
Those creations of man
That brought new prosperity
Were left to rust and decay

It wasn't their fault
But the fault of men
Blinded by a future
That didn't have to be

Without them
Humanity continued to expand
To fulfill its manifest destiny
To rule all creation

Eventually, however,
Man met his match
And slowly, one by one
His systems and planets fell

The enemy was inconceivable
Perhaps from outside of time
In every system they conquered
They took the star with them

Until the night sky was filled
With distant nova
Heralding the coming
Of the end of man

Long after all hope was lost
They arrived at humanity's doorstep
The final bastion of security
A blue marble in the depths of space

All communications were lost
Just static

No one answered the call
From the depths of space
To defend their home
For there were none left to answer

Man's fate closed in
As did the final battle
Humanity prepared itself
For an honorable end

Then a message
Echoed across the cosmos
Igniting the static
And bringing it to life

The message was short
With no definite source
"Your long lost children,
Are coming home."

And as the faint message
Left the empty air
There appeared all around
The remnants of man's folly

The machines man bore
had returned
in Humanity's final hour
To stand at their creator's side

Against insurmountable odds
Both creator and creation
Rallied together once more
And charged off into the sunset

Of a thousand dying stars
Hadrian Veska Nov 2018
I watched it fall to the sea

The ground shook
And the waves rose
Where it came from
Nobody knows

It only took an instant for

Alarms to sound
But they were too late
The waters came
And sealed out fate

Our work has been dismantled

This was all forewarned
We hoped however
That it was just a myth
And we'd become more clever

We were scattered to the wind

Given away as unwanted daughters
To lesser beings
Hadrian Veska Feb 2017
You go now
Where none have before
Into the great depths
That yawn before us

The night is dark
But the seven stars will guide you
Along the path
That leads to our future

And though I will be gone
When you return to this place
Know that I thought of you
Each and every day

Though you are alone
I pray you smile
For you are the hope of man
In an uncertain world

All I can gurantee
Is that the world you come back to
Will not be the same
If indeed

It yet remains
Hadrian Veska Oct 2016
The shores above
Deep waters below
Midnight skies break
The stars to show

The world is known
Yet less so at night
Unknown wonders
Bid me take flight

Through the vast darkness
Stillborn and sweet
Taking my hand
And guiding my feet

To where I might go
I couldn't dare say
But I don't think I would
Have it another way
Hadrian Veska Feb 2024
Rolling hills beneath a low grey sky
The rippling water in the back of my eyes
Stillness hallowed, forlorn and sweet
The black sacred ground beneath my still feet

The earth is rich yet nothing here grows
The river has dried and no longer flows
The trees are bare of leaves but not fruit
An omen of something below the deep roots

Does anyone here but lost husks remain
If I stay will anything thus here be gained
Does the sun here rise or does it merely set
The twilight stretches on but cannot end yet
A journey from when to where
Hadrian Veska Apr 2016
All alone,
on a journey, I lost my way;
as I stood still, my heart wandered.
But now I can walk again,
as far as I need to;
yes, ever since I met you
on this road.


The song travelers sing,
though I don't know it,
sounds familiar to me
as long as I'm with you.


If the world we dreamed of
exists anywhere,
let's go look for it,
beyond the wind.
The freezing dawn,
the parched midday,
the trembling night;
let's go see what's at their end.
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