Could there be no love
For me to dive deep
Lost in pitch dark
Rest in nowhere
Could there be no pain
To Heal me bad
Write me melody
Remember nothing

I remember
What is not exist
I bathe in
What is not wet
Numb in roam
I continue my walk
I tread on the air
Read fading signs
I have nowhere to in
So lost and bewildered

What if I go back
And delete our first scene
So there would be no love
And pain
I would have clear sight
And wide lungs to breathe
Empty sheets
And goodness saying

I know I have to let you go,
For the reasons I don't know...
Does love always have to be logical?
If so, why do they say it's magical...
We are miles apart and,
time is like running sand.
I don't know if I'll see you again, And would it be a loss or gain?
Sometimes, it's like I'm giving up all...
The rising hopes for you suddenly fall!
My mind drifts away to somebody else...
But my heart screams out at the mess.
Late at night, when the moon is full and shiny,
And I'm alone, I wonder about my destiny!
What it would be really at the high time
It's like tossing to get head or tail of a dime!
Should I then really let go...?
Only thinking about it is, painful oh!
I simply don't know and it ain't fair...
Like an unheard voice, hung in mid-air.

Suffering was not part of the original plan,
Because when man was created,he was already connected to God-the closeness that we now have to seek existed naturally.
When man sinned,he had to start striving for a better life,a relationship with God,and also the search for wisdom and knowledge.
Suffering draws our hearts closer to God,when man sinned the original relationship was distorted therefore there has to be a way to draw us truly back to God.
When theres suffering,theres deep humility that makes us surrender all to Christ because we acknowledge that our strengths are just not enough.
God wants us to love and trust Him,therefore He is always with us through it all... Sometimes we suffer because God is trying to remind us of His power and glory,to return to Him and not miss heaven.
God loves you and He is very much ALIVE!!

There she lies
frozen in time
The warm, sweet sun
seeps inside
Caresses, falls down
the little girl
And wraps around

I will take you from this place
I can help,
you mustn't wait
Come with me and you will find
Joy and love that only binds

It cannot be
and never will
Of what you speak
has since been killed

She felt it once,
it swept her in
Little girl
fell into sin
It pulled her by the hand,
it found
She nods her head,
and it pulled down

Drowned in brokenness,
erased
She put on a different face
She sat there empty
thinking of
The melody
she heard in love

Now she sits alone and stares
When someone looks
she does not care
She can't, she fears another day
when it could never be that way

The scent of balsam
waltzes around the room
and lingers in my nose

It takes me back
to snowflake kisses
tight embraces
infectious smiles
and laughter

That day was real,
I remember

But before long,
selfishness infected us

Evil did not require an invitation
But like a thief happens upon an open door,
he came in
       stole
          and left us

Before we knew what happened,
we tried to mend the hurt we caused one another

Eventually we decided
we were no longer worth fighting for

But I will always remember
That snowy December
when our hearts were full with life and love
for each other

Hija morena
Con los ojos de lodo,
Y piel oscura de café con ron.
Los labios manchados rojos.
Pregunto,
-?Es sangre o vino?-
Me mira con los ojos podridos
Y dice,
-Lo que tu quieras-

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Darker daughter
Eyes like mud,
Skin like black coffee and ***.
Her lips stained red.
I ask,
"Is it blood or just wine"?
She looks at me with rotting eyes.
Sighs,
"Whichever you want it to be".

do you remember when you left my bed
for the last time that dark december night?
you were angry and i was cold
i couldn't give you exactly what you wanted--
your desire, a warm invitation into a life i didn't know i'd want
but now as i see you through tinted windows at red light intersections
and i catch our friends saying your name in hushed tones
i find myself face to face with you in my midnight thoughts
wondering what i'm missing from our past life together
slow kisses, warm embraces, soft smiles
the way you held my hand as you drove your car
the way you grabbed my neck and pulled me closer
the way you wiped away these incessant tears
all the things that kept me close to you
but i can't forget the things that pushed me away
echoing arguments, unrealistic expectations, alcohol-dependent nights
the way your irreverent temper slashed my autonomy
the way you despised sobriety but only around me
the way that I was never enough
do you miss me like i miss you,
or do you hate me like i hate you?