Really thought I'd found true love

Evil entered the picture

Prison was my life with you

Ugly soul as black as sin

Loving you my greatest regret

Staying away my greatest   accomplishment

I am free from you

Villain of my story

Exculpation....never

It won't be long now
It will happen soon
I'll be getting over you any day now
I can feel it

That loathsome ache will soon be gone
This feeling of suffocation will subside
I'll breathe again
I'll finally feel at peace

I won't feel that gripping
all consuming fear
The panic that has been my companion
ever since you left

No...I'll be letting all that go
Any moment now
I'll be free....
It's coming

The last bit of you
will soon be gone
No more pain....but..
I wonder....if maybe...

Will I miss you?
When I finally let it all go?
Will I miss it?
Should I just...keep it a little longer?

Perhaps I should still think of you
Only every once in a while....
Just for as bit.
For just a little longer...

I bow my head in prayer Dear Lord
and I lay at your feet
Those that suffer, those in pain,
Your children that are in need.

Your people that are preyed upon
are crying out in fear
Heed their prayers, protect them,
and all that they hold dear.

Touch the hearts of those in power
for they can end their pain.
With your guidance the sun will shine
and chase away the rain.

Help us to find our courage
to keep fighting the good fight.
May we choose the righteous path,
put aside differences and finally unite.

I have faith in you my God
I know you are the way.
Love can conquer hate this night
and make way for a brand new day.

                                       Amen.

I wait....for the moment when I see your face again
I wait....for the healing that will come with the sound of your voice
I wait....to breathe again

I long....for the feel of your hand on my face
I long....for the warmth of your embrace
I long....to feel whole again

I find a reason....to smile every day
I find a reason....not to cry myself to sleep every night
I find a reason....to believe in miracles

I hope....that I am worthy of your love when at last we meet
I hope....that I make you proud
I hope....you know how much I love you

I know....I will see you again
I hold on....to that thought

I have to......
If I don't....I will break

I can't fall apart
I am depended on.....so....I wait.

I am....ordinary....I cannot boast about any particular talent.
I can sing alright....babies fall asleep when I sing to them.
I can write a little....but if I'm being honest, there's room for improvement.
I'm a pretty good cook....still not the best in the family, but I'm willing to put in the work and learn from the best so jury still out on this one.

I'm not hilarious....my jokes are on the corny side, but I still get a few laughs.
I grew up poor....hell....still am.
Poorly educated....but still a bit articulate....I read a lot.
I'm just a girl from the "wrong side of the tracks"....but I lack the toughness to live up to that title.

I don't want to bore you, so I'll leave it here for now.
Before I take my leave, I should say that I'm okay.
I'm not hating on myself, I'm just saying...this is me.

I'm the chubby friend....okay okay fat friend....always have been.
I'm the girl most guys banish to the friend zone....not sure why I look just like Jennifer Lopez....if you squint your eyes and turn your back on me.  (I told you....corny jokes)
Any way, I digress....I was  saying....This....is....me....and....I kinda like me.

I wish the thoughts that have made a home inside my mind walk forward and go a far
I wish they didn't belong to me,
but because they do
I wish you knew them

I wish you knew them as much as
you think you know me
because if you did,
you'd know me quite well.

but I don't think I want to give
you that again
for you've abused it one too many times
and now the only thing that lies between us
is a barrier that you caused, and one I've created

i like to create art from broken things
and you are my favorite masterpiece

You decided to live without me
so live without me you will
I still cherish the happy memories

What I would give to spend just one more day with you in bed