I gaze upon this poison
Held within my slender hand
All the fates needth do
Is cut a single strand.

Tobacco and wine
Flowers and pine
Our love was bittersweet
I loved how I hated you
And you hated how you loved me
Together, a chaotic symphony

Eyes aching,
Smile faking,
When had I last slept?
Hair unkept,
Coffee drinking,
Why am I always thinking?

I try to get my mind back
But it's all falling through the cracks
It's all so scrambled
Pick up the pace, you mustn't amble
Please save me from this mess
Insanity is no gentle caress
It hurts, it burns, it stings
Peace, to me, nothing will bring
Yet I find myself unable to cry
Even if I often wish I would die
I am not brave enough, you see
I find myself unable to end me
From myself, I must be saved
To my demons, I am enslaved

With empty hands and heavy heart,
I hope to die before I'm merely art.

As my heart hardened,
I began to garden.
Filled not with flowers,
but plants of power.
With poison and bane,
I have slain.
I'm now feared.
Finally revered.