I see your face
and all I see is the ***** behind it.

Sometimes in life I don't know what to do
so I think of myself without you
I am independent
but sometimes I struggle
sometimes I'm dependent
but at times I need to be
I find it difficult to read
so you do it for me
and when I'm lacking focus
you tell me the answers
because that's a friends purpose
to be there for me
and me be there for you

Endless paths that never seem to finish
but when they do
you find yourself back at the beginning.

I climbed a tree
as you may have seen 
to reach the sky
how I must try
limitless possibilities
yet limited capabilities
because when I passed the sky
I couldn't breath so in the vacuum I did die

You said it didn't matter
you would accept me anyway
but when it came to the day
you forgot

I could tell you were uncomfortable
so I tried to hide
under a cover that killed me inside

My thoughts were intoxicated
I could not forget
it poisoned my mind

all I could think of
was not being accepted
and it destroyed my life

I gave up
I couldn't cope
I lost all hope

because the thought of my friends unacceptance killed me

First we left the EU
and the prime minister didn't know what to do
he left us with an empty number 10
and a handful of homophobes to fill it in.
Finally we were making progress
after hundreds of years of unacceptance.
Now the economy's a mess
and we have no defence.
We seem to be going backwards
but no one ever said 'trust a politicians every word'
Regression of the UK
lies told every day
building up hope
then the day after we hear nope
'I didn't care for politics
I'm just a overly patriotic *******'
So every thing will stay the same
and the UK will waste away
because of a bunch of lies
and hundreds of people terrified
for their future.

Lose it
to
The sound

Just keep breathing
And
Dreaming out loud

Stuck in this shell.
Like a part of hell
it torments.
But at moments
it's like a calm sea
so empty.
Until a storm comes
and I'm the only one
and it goes back to hell
and I can't escape this shell.

I thought I believed in a God,
a superior being who decides when we drop.
Then I read His book, His word
and thought it was inconsistent
because how can something so 'perfect' have mistakes.

So I stopped believing
kept my negative outlook because why be positive in the end we're not receiving
I didn't have a goal to reach
and my old views were no longer mine
I wasn't into the'one life' thing and wanted more takes.

Then I was confused
because again I changed my views.
I unsure what to believe anymore.
I wanted an afterlife and I believe in it too
but wouldn't an omnibenevolent God let me choose.

And can't decide whether He's real or made up
because I like to think there's truth in every holy book.
And I'd like to think I get a choice
but I'm mortal and unsure if it's true.
So I'll continue believe either way I win and loose.

Time is an enemy
Time is a friend
Time is eternal
What you do with time
can increase or decrease
how long you live.

No matter how much
you pray for tomorrow
it will never come.

You think I'm fine
I have nothing to hide
no cuts on my arms
'Cause I'm torn up inside

Trapped inside my body
trapped inside my mind
no one wants to listen
no one hears my cries

Yes, I don't like life at the moment,
anxiety fills me but I am numb to emotion.
I'm ridden with fear, a plague
infected by what people have said
in the past
but the effects stayed,
they seem to last.
Repeating in my mind
played over and over all the time.
They speak acrimoniously
and use words unconservatively.
Unknown to them that their words are trenchant
and highly unpleasant.
I'm usually strong
but the pain caused has carried on too long.
I usually don't care how people have come to their reason
no matter what people say, they hurt! What ever the time, day or season.
I'm tired of hiding who I am.
I want to be free, not live in fear that others wouldn't understand.

At one corner there is you
connected to another two
you don't know which one to choose
I'm glad I'm not in your shoes

I care too much to let you go
But I don't want to hold you close
I don't want my true feelings to be exposed
Because that is when I love you most

You're there to talk to
Even though no one wants to
I want to leave too
But i'll stay if you stay too
Know I'm there for you
If you need help, I'll help you

When all our other friends fade away
Don't leave me, don't go away
Know I've got your back always
I'll be there for you always
No matter what anyone says
You got a friend, and I'll stay

I* love you
with a heart
only for you
and you don't
say it back
maybe it's 'cause
you know
the true message
of this
is only seen
by yo*u

I can't wait for Tuesday
but don't want it to come
the confrontation on that day
will find out who was wrong

I personally don't care
who was telling the truth
This very rare
An occasion that has something to prove

Which one is the back-stabber
I have no reason to worry
Which is the one holding the dagger
who made up this ******* story

I did
but I trusted you
with it
what did you do

To let it slip
you had a grip
You helped me through ****
then you left me with it

you betrayed me
what happened to we
it ended
and you're befriended

Issues that don't effect you is like
The news in another country.

We don't need to get involved
To know what's going on

But want to know to stop it
Occurring again

Or to reduce the increasing amount
Of ignorance, globally.

Mentally and physically prepared, though you don't know what to expect.
Your walk though the door and your thoughts start to collect.
Nervous for what your about to do.
A weight starts to put pressure on you.
Edrenelin kicks in and then you're fine.
Your head is in the game as all fears are put aside.

Unnecessary arguments
why do they happen?
All unproportionate
to the problem like a cannon
being set off if someone threw a pebble.
In the end nothing will settle
and everyone is angry over nothing.

Skin reddening
blood heating
chest closing
heart beating

In my reflection
late last night
I had a vision
you and I
we walked at a slow pace
I never caught your name
I never saw your face
so as a vision you remain

Sometimes I feel as though I'm lost
and don't know what to do,
it is times like these where I sit and think of you.

Although I don't know who you are
I may have not even met you yet
but until we meet, I will not fret.

I'm waiting  for you to come to me,
open my eyes so I will see when you come through the door
or the day I meet you by the shore.

The trees talk
the leaves walk
mountains stand
rain commands
the wind patrols
but we are the controls

There's a weight in my chest
burdening every breath
I take

a set of words
that I don't really care about
but they pollute my body

Words I can't let go
but need to be said
I need to take the risk

for the consequences I can accept
I don't need you
if you think I'm a sin

I don't need you
you don't encourage me
you burden me

just like these words
I don't care about
but I know you do

but if I let them go
I save myself
and will have to deal with freedom from you

She/her
He/him
Ze/zir

Collectively we're all the same

They/them