i cannot see
so far as you, with your eyes closed
but I can see deeper.
for all the puddles in a puff of smoke
i can divine a wisp
of change.

we keep our keepsakes unkempt.
but the joy of having nothing to declare
wanes against the majesty
of having something to love...
and woe
to the one
that has two hearts at war within them.
for they are the King's Fool
forever

that suicides
for a falsehood
of an empty
deck
of a real
despair.

lives
to be dead
mostly
'cause all is
fair.

II

we began in a park of ducks and overgreen water.
clutching the other with our sweaty palms
and clunky charms.
masters of shy novas...
we were swept away into the furnace of our
distant proximities.
burning next to the other, like burning things
burning things
for all reasons.

we were lovely at that.

III

i would trade a lifetime of a day
to have a night with you again.
to parade the yonder reaches
of our infantile
to comb the distant hemispheres
of our reckless.

i would die to
be breathless again
in the hollow we have perched
so many moons in,
I would have your small hands
forgive me
for all my
Poetry.

.


Ya feel
Em up !

Watch em break !

As you do so wisely walk away

From all the stupid girls


•

They lost themselves in the mirror !

They lost themselves to vanity


They say

I WAS IN LOVE WITH HIM !

//

)(

He was her walking *****

Her ******* fantasy

)(

Oh yes

Come read

The egotistical poetry

Of all the stupid girls

As they throw their stupid lives away


.

Without you by my side,
This throne crumbles to ruin.

Without you by my side,
My crown gathers rust.

Without you by my side,
I'm no longer a queen.

Without you by my side,
I'm just another peasant.

Without you by my side,
I join the countless lost souls.

Without you by my side,
I'm worthless.

I no longer
Resemble
The woman
You love.
Unless,
You're by my side.

l.v.s

The cotton of blue
The sheets of green and grey
Dazzled with fireflies of orange
The crescent plate glows in gold
Twisted with mantle of black
With gold, with silver
With gun,
Shoots the sun
Had once risen
In glittering yellow and white
Been scattered into pieces of maroon
Blood deepen in red
Upon of once ever pure sky
Until his death covered with violet
For the moon will reign.

Just had a long talk
With someone I can't really say
I always get along with
To be perfectly honest
I really didn't like what I heard
As some of my beliefs turned myth
I guess it goes both ways
As I'm sure I failed the test
As to just where arrogance really ends
So as  we rolled and punched
Dancing. around creating a show
Knowing a cut too deep is a wound that never mends

So I realized  That I am a chicken
The Cowardly Lion without a heart
as time after time I will fail
As  time and opportunity meet
A greeting card has more honor
Then the blank sheets of paper left along the trail
That I tried to fold into some amazing origami

I can picture but can't produce
Confident that I really am trying to
Become  as honest as I say I am
That was
Until the conversation I just had
I came away knowing
That  I'm a liar
The chicken-hearted
Cheater of the dear departed
Now back-stepping
As if to get back where it all started

But there's no do-overs
No wishing wishes would come true
No one to blame but the you
That you've unlisted
No one in the mirror except the you
That you've insisted
Isn't you
Saying that there are things in life you say
And there are things you never say
Those things you want to say.  
Or the things you need to say  
Then allowing ourselves to put them away
For another day
It's those things we have to say ...must say
That can take part of our humanity away.
So you see.....
..... I am a coward....
a chicken hearted
Soon to be discarded
Bag of desiccated skin and bones
Because I had time to do the right thing but instead I let it pass ... let it pass
So I wish I had never had that talk  
So I'm about to stop and move away
From this conversation
That I've been having with myself
I don't really care what I have to say
Okay I lied I do care ..
.And I was right when I said
I had things I need to share
Need to say ......and need to say....
..TODAY
Because if I wait.... if I.... hesitate
To tell those that I love
Exactly how I feel
At first the words may seem a bit unrealistic
But the pains would be just way too real way way way too real