I live in the words of other people.
I come alive as they come off the page.
I fall in love with fictional characters and
There are times when I only know how to feel in song lyrics.

I want to name my son
Fred
after a Weasley king.
I hope he inherits a penchant for trouble
and more heroism than he gets credit for.

Sometimes I feel like Sal Paradise,
and I have nothing to offer anybody except my own confusion.

I put girls on pedestals and
have too much of a tendency to
yearn for that green light of East Egg.

I fall for Capulets,
but I wasn’t built for tragedy.
I still believe in happily ever after.

With a kiss
I will bid you goodbye
I’m off to a place where I can fly
Fly
Forever and ever
Life is too short
But death lasts forever
And the life in my eyes
Is fading and dying
But this will be forever
I won’t ask you to join me
But I’ll ask you to keep me
In memory
In love
Remember forever.
Forever is mine.
So say goodbye.
It will be our last.
I’m off to fly.
With the angels and devils and skies.
With the fire and the ice.
With the mean and the nice.
With the rhymes.
The childhood rhymes.
The memories.
The ones that died.
I’m joining them today
I really am
I’m leaving and moving on
Forever
And ever
And ever
Forever

You're good, too good, it couldn't be true
You know I'm the kind of girl that would fall for you.
You're skilled in deception, highly trained in lies
So quick with hellos, and sly with goodbyes
A master of hypnosis, a thief in disguise
The warmth in your smile shows not in your eyes.
Your world is small but you've conquered it all
You stare me down, owning me, when we pass in the hall
You're obviously charming, cunning, and coy
You're a regular Slytherin - is your name Malfoy?

All I wanted was for you to love me.
Like Ophelia loved Hamlet
And Augustus loved Hazel
And Snape loved Lily
I wanted you to love me.

So I listened quietly to your heat
And mimicked all it’s fragile longings
But you did not love me.
And I wrapped up your desires
In the palms of my hands
But you did not love me.
And I cradled all your secrets
Tightly to my chest
But you did not love me.

And you pressed your worries to my throat
And dripped your fears into my hands
But you did not love me.
And you danced with me in spotlights
And laughed at all my jokes
But you did not love me.
And you kissed me in the evenings
And you ****** me in the dark
But you did not love me.

And I was everything you asked for
And everything you wanted
But you did not love me.
I was everything you needed
And everything you loved
But you
Did not
Love me.

Hermione taught me,
Never dumb down.
Prim whispered,
It's Okay to fall down.
Ginny smiled,
Don't stop loving, He'll come around.

Katniss screamed,
Seize the fire.
The doctor whispered,
Rose Tyler-

Haymitch scorned,
The people need to be raised!
Snape replied,
Always.

Okay, so we conflict.
Our thoughts fight.
But whichever fandom we follow,
As a fangirl, we unite.

Have you ever been loved
By a love
That was as strong
As the love
Severus had for Lily?

Your eyes were laced
with fatigue induced red lines
that were not unlike
the red lines that laced the world maps I used to obsess over
before I realised
that the world that existed beneath
your fatigue laced eyes
was worth travelling too.