I NEED TO FORGET HOW MY NAME SOUNDS WITH YOUR VOICE WRAPPED AROUND IT
I NEED TO LEARN HOW TO FALL ASLEEP OUTSIDE OF YOUR ARMS

I know this is against the rules
But im drunk right now and so the rules don't matter
I miss you
I miss how you would look at me
When you thought i wasnt looking
And i miss your self- satisfied grin
I miss your bad habits and the way
You held a cigarette between your teeth
I miss the taste of you in my mouth
And mostly i miss how you would stretch your hand out,
An open invitation for my own small fingers
I know this is against the rules
But I'm halfway in love with you
And I cannot go forwards nor back
And I wouldn't want to if I could.

I am all sorts of dark and deadly
I light the stake at which i burn
Bend the water trying to drown me
Drink the river as it churns
Change the skin that I'm trapped in
grow it feathers, claws and beak
Black as plague and death and dying
Fissures crack with every shriek
The mold of the world is breaking
Glue it with mortar made from bone
Gods and monsters feel it quaking
Ravens laugh in gleeful tone
I fly from the smouldering ashes,
The river and its drought
Cawing madly at the masses
Expire, dead, die out

I am kindling
And you are a wildfire
I should have known this
Would end in ash

I saw it then
The pain that was woven
In the very tapestries
Of her heart
I knew that,
At the final call
As the curtains drew
The applause would be
Defeaning
And the grief
Would shatter the world.

Concept: Someone, just once, does not give up on me. I am enough as I am and someone only wants to *stay