You begin to haunt me,
I can't seem to draw you out of my thoughts.  
You're trapped there.
The question is
Do I want you out?
Every time I gazed at the stars
I craved to gaze into those eyes
That make me feel alive.
Do I want to break free from this
curse you've set upon me?
I'm not ready to let go.
I don't think I'll  be ready.

I cannot find myself to believe that something can last forever.
If things were meant to last forever
My cigarette wouldn't burn out.
Our conversations wouldn't end.
Feelings would stay the same.
You would still love me like you claimed you once did.
And maybe I would have been blinded from the truth forever.

As a wave of nostalgia crashes upon the sea of depression,
It makes staying afloat harder.
The struggle starts to intensify,
Your breaths become shorter.
You start to drown,
All you see is red
As your wrists are kissing razors.
Your tears are a storm approaching,
Your thoughts are the lightening.
You have drowned completely.
You're too deep under to swim back to safety.
You can't breathe,
This is it.  
Its taken over you.  
The sea is now above your head,
Surrounding you.
There's no way to escape it.
It has control of you.

I've never be able to compose my thoughts or feelings before my eyes, but if I could I'd assume it'd go a little like this.  

Its the kind of thing that will leave you wide awake, unable to sleep at 12am.
Your voice.
It provoked a feeling of warmth.   With that voice, my deepest doubts were silenced.
You are a work of art.
Intriguing and unique.
I am infatuated,
With this masterpiece I see.

And again i lay in bed.
It seems I cannot drift to sleep.
Its been happening more lately.
Countless thoughts racing.
With a mind like a highway.  
Its 12:02am and I'm listening to songs that remind me of you.
Every lyric shoots Into me like a bullet with your name on it.

I've always noticed the way your face creased when you smiled so perfectly.
Wondering if I was ever the cause of it.  
My cheeks flushed when you looked at me
I knew that much.

There's something about you in those moments of subtle bliss
Your body is alive,
There's a light in your eyes
Something that makes me happy.

Its a weird sensation like this,
But its pretty awesome that we can feel this way about another human being.