I ʜᴀᴛᴇ ʜᴏᴡ ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴʟʏ ᴡᴀʏ I ᴄᴀɴ sᴛᴏᴘ ʟᴏᴠɪɴɢ ʏᴏᴜ is by  ᴛᴇʟʟing ᴍʏsᴇʟғ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪ ʜᴀᴛᴇ ʏᴏᴜ

You can see all sides
Of me
But the bottom
Waiting to be revealed
To be set free
Must come at the right time
Feelings all around
And deep within
Just waiting to happen
Dare I make that move
Do I put.myself on
Display
Or stay buried
Deep within
Turn me all around
Seeing who I am
I hesitate to share parts
That belong only
To me

I feel fear in my feet
And that is why
I am not grounded

once upon a time,
a beautiful woman fell in love
with a handsome man.
they did what was normal:
moved in
traveled
had a kid
had another
and then one more.

that last one was me.
dear god, i wish they had stopped after two.
they're not bad parents.
this is just a miserable world.

school
work
money
death.

i want more.
i demand more.

but when does it get better?
a year or two?
nope.
next week?
maybe.

no one knows.
maybe it never does.
it's all chance.

Loved you once,
Love you still,
Always have,
Always will