I have this mind

it is too heavy
to float

I sink in thought
and drown in

theories or dreams

weaving equations
or explanations

depending if I
fancy numbers

or words

sometimes my mind
is so heavy

I can’t get out
of bed for days

with every part
she plays

she pulls me in

a lightness to
her depth

I could breathe
in her darkest

matters

she never
blends in

she never
stands out

she becomes
each life

she plays

to every life
she lives

You know what, I'm stupid, because i don't live upto expectation of my beloved ones.
I'm stupid because ,I'm not even loyal to myself!!..
I'm stupid because ,I prefer excuses over work!!.
I'm stupid because ,I don't see myself as a champion in the mirror!!.
I'm stupid because, I let negativity to take a toll on me!!..
I'm stupid because, I think people care the same, as i care of them!!.
AND my biggest stupidity is that, i'm writing poetry on this rather than rectifying them!!!