so basically
sometimes
it kinda feels
like
maybe
you're making excuses
to not be with me

which is stupid
and (most likely) not true

but if it is,
it's okay
you don't have to want to be with me
we can still be friends
just say that you don't
want me
if you don't

this house
is so ridiculously depressing

i try to lighten it up
fill the walls with my laughter when i can
rebel against the grey
i paint my nails neon
i fill my room with art

i got the best job i could find
i spend my work days
making people happy
inspiring young minds
i built a safe space
a childish place
where little girls can be pirates and pilots and monsters
where little boys can be artists and princesses and play with dolls
where the quietest people can go wild
and the wild can relax in the garden
it's a happy place
filled with good laughter

maybe you should visit