didn't think i'd make it this far,
or actually have someone see
something in me worth asking to
partake in their system for,
but here i am,
coming home to a letter saying
that i'm not a complete failure,
that my parents are "proud" of me this year,
my mother cried and laughed,
and to be honest..
i almost did too.

I may not be able
to hold you
to touch you
to kiss you
to see you face to face
but distance
what is distance
**I love you just the same

Sometimes he let his eyes rest on hers, it needn't have been painful,
but it strangely was.
He broke a lifetime of avoiding eye contact to show her.
She was worth overcoming obstacles for.

Kissing, supporting—
then sniffing, then snorting:
Xanax, ******, Tylenol.
Alcohol will never expire
dealer, buyer—
you're getting higher and—and—and
Louder, louder—
you're drowning in prescription powder.

You're given ***, speed, salvation
It's not love, it's medication.