Rain claws at the window
Darkness encompasses this stonework sentinel
Crimson fog signals the moon
Graphite sky interwoven with sapphire lights
Scaling the mountains of the sky, where electric Prisms echo  
Azure and turquoise ripples above  the copper depths
Morose attendant of dawning and nightfall flare

Love is my religion

Its what I do best

Its the hunger that invades me

Its what knows me best

Grabs me by my inner soul

Holds me tight wont let me go

The strength is has astonishes me so

You cant hold it inside your hands

Or put it on a shelf to admire

Its subtle yet strong

Sometimes may be wrong

But its what I do and where I belong

Feel human in this air
I shed this skin of mine
Try maybe one more time
All those sleepless nights
When the darkness seemed so bright
I was flushed and full of pain
Burning every cell of my being one at a time
Have you seen the thin walls that cover my mind?
I may have to escape
Search for me
Search for the truth
  I will look for my youth
I want to crawl out of myself
Disappear
I shall be careful
I can’t let it be
Expose my secrets and all my woes
I shall be delicate  with sleeves to cover the veins that eats me alive and makes a  mess
The pills that threaten to take  my insides out
Destroying everything so far apart
In the blood the  torment its all mine
Nobody wants to share this burden of mine
Lucid pain
Sweetness in the tall summer grass
Making shadow puppets
Time goes so fast
I run in the rain
Taste the night on my tongue

Would you like to see my scars?
Their is no shape just lines of abuse  
Tenderness is my plague
My heart is of no use
Here I’m so lost
My bones are frayed
An awkward silence could not fill this space

The question I have is simply quite easy
Why would you love someone less ?
If they didn’t conform to your ideas
Why can’t others believe what they want ?
Who are we to say what is right and what is wrong
Is the color of your skin different than mine?
That’s alright we will be fine
I would help you in a instant
If I love the same *** will you hate me?
Looking at me with shame?
Lets all come together
Get and love what we desire

Hey  where did you come from?
Not this town you have to be wrong
I know everyone here
Yeah that’s right
I’m a know it all
This little town belongs to me
Excuse me what did you say?
Trust me I wish I could go away
This is not the home I intended it to be
I wish I was home
I don’t belong here in this small town
Away from my friends away from me
I have not seen myself in many years

I’m  on the road
Going nowhere
The jack taste so fine to me
I can see the sun is following me
It may catch up I can feel the heat rise
This country station isn’t so clear
Perhaps I should stop and admire the view
My soul is singing
I stare into the sky
Feel close to home
Dirt is flying I can feel the grime
If I just had a one way ticket
I could find what I misplaced so long ago
Find what’s mine
This lonely night that never changes
Faces that stay the same  
Another reason to drink
So I don’t belong
I’ll bury myself in the bottle that heats me up so well
For the night I’ll let it all go

Have you seen my home?

It use to be a place for me  

But now it's at the bottom of this bottle

I let it burn all the way through

Touching and  teasing my tongue with ease

My eyes seep with tears make me weak in my knees

Have you seen me?

I use to be alive

Now I am not found

If you see me remind me

I use to be new

My love is wrong

My love is mistaken

Its frightened

Its GONE

I cocoon myself into what I perceive

I am weary not WISE

Losing  it all nobody by my side

You say you know me

What I am all about?

I wonder have you really ever taken the time?

Could you live without me?

Without my abuse?

My smile could heal and soothe if I let it

I dont have any words to even say

Words are overrated I hate it that way

My eyes speak so many languages

Some that are not real

Everyday I need and try to escape this place

Where do I turn where there in nobody around?

I am lonely and have no cause

What ever happen to the ones who needed me near?

Fragile and seperate from my very own being

I have no sense of purpose

No pride

Where shall I go ?

To continue the search for myself

When in the end I will be left empty handed

Cold and tormented and no place left to GO

In your head dispose me
Break the balance  
Everytime shared was time wasted
**** exposed as you tasted my *******
Your tounge exploring and longing
For what was once yours
The very symbol of what I represented
Is not what it use to be
Photographs lay scattered about
Torn and feeble like our soul
You decay
I bloom and fly away

We pray
We beg
Only when we feel hollow

Somewhere in time

The truth is where its at

All of these moments

Perhaps were rare and that's that

When I try and discover the matter of it all

All I seem to find is nothing at all

So I ask myself so softly is this really worth it

Do I continue to struggle to prove whats meaningful

I may judge

I may be abrupt

Yet I manage to hold my soul inside my hands

Not letting it go

I would like to set my mind at ease
Close my eyes and see my dreams
Although tonight I cannot and that is nothing new
Insomnia robs me of the person that I once knew

Bow your head

Reach out and embrace me

This tragic moment that cant escape me

The lonely ones left behind

I yearn for strength and compassion and mind

Although when I turn around nobody is there

Pieces of my soul has blown everywhere

Leaving me fragile and vulnerable within

Do I have an answer to why

I  sure wish I did

I want to be the creator of my thoughts

Closing my eyes I want visions of a sunset in the distance

Not blood in the sand

What happened to the innocence?

What’s happened to the man?

Where is the ray of light?

That can make me forget

The disrepair has gone on to long

Lets forget about the fight

Come home soldiers

We will try and fix the blemishes of war

The destruction of our country

It is so poor

So bow your head

Put your hands together

Speak silently to the maker

For all of this to be gone

For all of this tragic despair to wash away

Lets hope that it can happen soon if not today