Hands clenched so tight my knuckles turn white.

Face wrenched in tears.

Escaping breath not caught.

Rocking back and forth.

There's no reason. No rhyme.

Everything is closing in.

Noise is too loud and too quiet all at once.

I scream whispers of breath I don't have.

My body tells my brain I'm not okay.

My brain tells my body to panic.

My brain left my body.

I'm left in the crossfire of pain and terror.

I can't. Breathe. I can't fight. I can't do this. Please someone help me. PLEASE JUST HELP. I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE.

i’d written line after line
about the look in your eyes
the way i felt like i could die
but what’s the point now
in all those wasted words?
when all that’s left hurts.

I see your mom more than I see you
It wasn't supposed to end like this
After all you put me through
It's 11:11 and you're still my wish


Tears fall slowly down my face
I end up wiping them on my bed
I was able to give you space
I guess these truly are the words never said

What do I do with all the words that I have left unsaid

The **** I want to say
But cant and wont

As if I was filling a bucket with teardrops

Keep telling myself
That one day Ill say it all
Its just that that day
Will not come

So

Writing is the only way I can
Let go of half of the burden
I set the words free
Even though
They never
Make it
To you

But somehow I feel
That they now
Are closer to you
And therefore
Am I

There is something
I want to keep
Forever.
It's your heart
It's your love
It's you by my side.

You make me feel
Like there is a purpose in my life,
Like I'm really someone.
Please...
Stand by my side,
Grab my hand,
Walk with me,
And just be mine.

I love you,
So please love me.
I'm for you,
So be for me.

These feelings,
This love,
It's special,
It's real.

Let's not give up on us,
We have to fight for us,
There is nothing like us...