I just wanted to let you know that how you react to my sadness says alot about how long I intend to keep you in my life.

"Ｕ　ａｒｅ　ｓｏ　ｂｅａｕｔｉｆｕｌ，
ｂｕｔ　Ｉ　ｄｏ　ｎｏｔ　ｃａｒｅ
ｂｅｃａｕｓｅ　ｉｔ＇ｓ　ｈａｒｄ　ｔｏ　ｂｅ　ｓａ­ｖｅｄ
ｂｙ　ａ　ｐｒｉｎｃｅ　ｗｈｏ＇ｓ　ｎｏｔ　ｔｈｅｒｅ．"

"You're talking a lot

but you're not saying anything."

a witness to the yells or shouts
a witness to the pattern of "oh okay" and "GET OUT!"

a witness to tears and uproars
a witness to hurtful words and slamming doors

on the outside i'm holding it strong all together
but the demons are as unpredictable as the weather

it's like being in space and trying to breathe air
when they preach about the future i don't really care

"no one knows what's worse drowning beneath the waves or
dying from the thirst."
my life is altered because of this, the cheerful 5 year old is the person that I miss

The changes were so sudden I don't blame you for not seeing, but what you don't understand is that I'm a human being

Sometimes I wish that things could get really bad, so I have a reason to **** myself.
Sometimes I wish that nobody cared for me so that I could **** myself without feeling guilty.
And sometimes I wish that I wasn't this type of person, but I am.

"I know her."

haha

'you only know what I allow you to know.'

-----so too much darkness could ****, but too much light could blind...
now, what shall i choose?

Like the anger of fire
shapes metal
like the sorrow of a writer
creates poetry
everything that is beautiful
doesn't always start beautifully

"And it's not about the petals
It's about the thorns to me
It puzzles me how something
So beautiful and rare
Can cut you so deep
And you wouldn't even care."

Can you agree that the only thing more exhausting than being

depressed is Pretending that you're not?

You hurt me so bad,
that PAIN
even lost its meaning.

Imagine being stuck in a generation where love is just a quote and

lying is the new truth.

Oh yeah, that's here.