"We don't see things as they are. We see things as we are."

yet I feel like dying.

To be yourself
in a world where you need to be everybody else
Now that in itself is a miracle.

"----makes you feel like you want to disappear from the world, but sometimes, in reality, all you truly want is to be found."

"Girl, if you don't love yourself
you'll always be chasing people who don't love you either."

"---make me feel uncomfortable cause I feel like I fooled someone into believing I'm this special person that I'm not."

"all the words that leave my tongue, it's like they came from someone else."

" I felt tired.
    like the world had
d
  r
   a
      i
        n
           e
             d
                  me for everything that I had.

"a curse where we remember the pain far longer than the love."

I just wanted to let you know,

that I put your name on the bullet so everyone will know that you

were the last thing that went through my head.

"... a cold shower that has the power to awaken the soul."

they say that it will take time
but flowers will eventually bloom in the places I believed would remain bare
they say that my soul will find peace again
in the spring
but the problem is that you return when it is autumn
and i fall every time.

"A million people in this town, but I could scream without a sound."

"She was like a siren.
She collected the affections of those around her,
keeping them like toys,
to be used once or twice when bored."

" the depression multiplies the force of gravity until the simplest, most everyday tasks become Olympic feats."

"is the art of pretending to be normal."

D eepest thoughts
E motional breakdowns
P ain
R uining themselves
E vil devil inside
S cared of living
S tressful thoughts
I njured heart
O ffensive with words
N egative thinking kills them inside

"the root of most heartache."

'he wants the lightening in a bottle kind of love;
                                                  
                                       without the possibility of the shatter.'

a hundred smiles
a thousand faces
and a million masks

all to hide a billion lies.

I can feel myself becoming everything I never wanted to be.

"Too often I don't tell people,
                                                people I love,
                                                                       I am sad.
Because I don't think
                    that's something
                              they want to hear,
                                        because they love me."

In truth, you like the Pain.
You like it because you believe you deserve it.

I went to HELL and back for some people and they still have the audacity to say, "I never asked you to tho,"

"After months of freezing and shivering under a grey sky,
your genuine laugh warmed me at first try,
sparked something in my chest
I hadn't thought it was still in me,
made my hands tremble like a paper boat at sea."

you could slit my throat & with one last gasping breath,
I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt.

"I hate how I became your puppet, but then again, I tied the strings myself."

Most things feel out of place these days, especially me.

It's no longer "new year, new me"
Instead, it's "new year, slightly improved and better me"

"̶I̶ ̶t̶o̶o̶k̶ ̶m̶y̶ ̶p̶e̶n̶,̶ ̶I̶ ̶d̶r̶e̶w̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶ ̶o̶u̶t̶,̶
̶I̶ ̶g̶o̶t̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶ ̶w̶r̶o̶n̶g̶,̶ ̶I̶ ̶r̶u̶b̶b̶e̶d̶ ̶u̶ ̶o̶u̶t̶
̶I̶ ̶h̶o̶n̶e̶d̶ ̶m̶y̶ ̶c̶r̶a̶f̶t̶,̶ ̶I̶ ̶t̶r̶i̶e̶d̶ ̶a̶g̶a̶i̶n̶,̶
̶I̶ ̶f̶a̶i̶l̶e̶d̶ ̶w̶i̶t̶h̶ ̶m̶i̶c̶e̶ ̶a̶n̶d̶ ̶t̶h̶e̶n̶ ̶w̶i̶t̶h̶ ̶m̶e̶n̶,̶ ̶
̶a̶n̶d̶ ̶t̶h̶e̶n̶ ̶w̶i̶t̶h̶ ̶l̶a̶n̶d̶s̶c̶a̶p̶e̶s̶
̶l̶a̶c̶e̶d̶ ̶w̶i̶t̶h̶ ̶t̶r̶e̶e̶s̶,̶ ̶
̶w̶h̶e̶r̶e̶ ̶o̶t̶h̶e̶r̶s̶ ̶s̶e̶e̶m̶e̶d̶ ̶t̶o̶ ̶d̶r̶a̶w̶ ̶w̶i̶t̶h̶ ̶e̶a̶s̶e̶
̶m̶y̶ ̶l̶i̶n̶e̶s̶ ̶w̶e̶r̶e̶ ̶s̶l̶o̶p̶p̶y̶ ̶
̶c̶o̶l̶o̶u̶r̶s̶ ̶w̶e̶a̶k̶
̶y̶o̶u̶r̶ ̶e̶s̶s̶e̶n̶c̶e̶ ̶g̶r̶e̶y̶e̶d̶,̶
̶l̶e̶f̶t̶ ̶i̶n̶c̶o̶m̶p̶l̶e̶t̶e̶.̶"̶

'He didn't want love
he wanted to be loved
and that
was entirely different.'