Once upon a time.
There resides a book.
As the clock ticks past.
The story unfolds.

Chapter 1
A girl in the world,
Exist in slumber,
The melancholies,
and the malicious,
Hidden in darkness,
Visible only to happiness.*

Chapter 2
A girl at age 6,
The window opened,
by a guy of 10,
whom gave her feelings,
such as love
such as hate.

Chapter 3
The girl that now knows,
fairy tales exist,
but there would be no
happy ever after,
She was crumbled,
she was broken.

Chapter 4
The girl then now thinks,
if being happy,
requires sadness,
she'd rather not feel,
cause she knows she's weak,
pathetic was she.

Chapter 5
The girl with lessons,
Only known to lies,
Liars are survivor,
Lying is surviving,
Or so she thought,
But its not The End.

*She knows.
And she will live.

Modern day fairy tale,
Where happiness belong;
When clock strikes 12,
Forever it'll be 1.

Happy ever after,
Coming from the clown;
With fake smiles two four seven
Like hell it exist.

Modern day society,
Such a wonderful place;
Performers everywhere,
Let the applause begin.

Throwing rings and walking lines,
Hilarious circus was it,
Pathetic and despiteful,
You pitiful society.

'I'm leaving the country.'

You muttered in spur,
Leaving me in stun.
Splashing cold water,
With a cold shoulder.

'Goodbye.'

Your gaze was freezing,
Never ending snow.
Dazing out of space,
Was where you left me.

'......'

Silence overtook,
No anger nor feels.
Never did I chase,
Over impossible.

'......'

Describing in words,
Was never enough.
Hollowness in depth,
Oblivion was near.

'......'

Decades was what took,
Strucking and ruining.
Squeezing me inside,
Scrunching me outside.

Motions in slow,
the tears came rolling down.

Silence.*  *And.  Rage.

The beast in the cage.
Mercy till its death.
To enact on stage,
Forever holds its breath.

Ignited.  And.  Away.

The beast in the cage,
Patience was its gift.
Straining with its edge,
Finally out with swift.

*For them to grieve
For them to heave.

There you lay, under that deep down ground;
Peace, tranquil, serene, was you not me.
You told me once, that death was beautiful,
it was life, it was everything.
You'd rather choose death over losing it,
because it, was simply death itself.
So I granted your wish, your desire,
and soon silence overtook you;
and I, in chaos.

I laugh like it's nothing,
I talk like it's normal,
I greet as if we're fine,
I smile as innocent as possible.

But the truth is,
It's hurting so much,
When all the memories,
Starts stabbing me.

...

I wish you knew,
How much you meant,
To start anew,
Like a metal bent.

But first, I have to melt away and be shaped again...

Hush hush, my lullaby, singing in that deep dark night;
Let the rave, let the rage, let the raven flee away;
In the dusk, out of dawn, where the lights break, no sun shine
In euphoria, to smile, to hide, to be.

*Bon Nuit