rufus

rufus Oct 2014

You know what you give me?

A year ago I would have said I would rather be in bed than in school.
Nine months ago I would have said I would rather be quiet than make a fight.
But yesterday was a starting point.
And all the other days before that were flames that needed to ignite.
Today there will only be you and me.
Right now, I don't know what I feel,
but I'll know when you come back here.
One, five, ten years from now, what would we be?

Surprise me.

rufus Oct 2014

A Surgery

What I want so much is for the worst to diminish
And be left with all the good ones
What I want so much is to vanish -
Everything, even myself, all at once

But all I am offered
are time and the awaited remedy
All seems blurred
but right now this is all I can be.

rufus Sep 2014

...into ashes.

i used to think that when we get old,
we'd only spend time reminiscing our youth
and so i did all these things
these scrubbed things
to fill all the spaces
that deserve color

now all i miss is not wanting to grow up
not thinking
and not doing
just being
plainly
there.

Sep 2014

Ironatmosphere

midnight blue

I want to print out my poetry and paste it on the walls
Let them scream my emotions
In swirling patterns of fading text

I want to rip off the ceiling and sleep under the stars
Watch them glow like I’ve always wanted to glow
In a sea of midnight blue

I want to lie in damp grass and watch the clouds passing by
Fleeing across the sky while it catches on fire
In the most outrageous of ways

I want the music in my ears to be drowned out and silenced
By the music radiating from my soul

#poetry #fire #stars #music #soul #glow

rufus Sep 2014

unrequited

i just want to be noticed
like how i notice
i want to be saved
like how i save
i want someone to sacrifice
the way i sacrifice
i want someone to understand
the way i understand

maybe i just need all the love i give
back to me.

because life is unfair.

rufus Sep 2014

Is this too much to ask?

I don't want a lavish celebration. I don't need new dresses, new shoes. I want you to be happy that I accomplished these kind of things. I want you to pray to Him and say thank you for everything He has given. I want you to smile and say things like you mean it. I just want you to be proud of me.

:(

rufus Sep 2014

She

is as still as enormous walls,
as good as coffee in the morning,
no one could ever be as tall,
and yet she is calm like spring

is as brave as lions and tigers combined,
as bright as the afternoon skies
she could not be easily tamed,
she has her own plans to take

is as beautiful as the lit evening stars,
as **** as the burning flames of fire
she could handle all the past scars
and she is only mine to desire

Oops. *monkey covering his mouth emoji*