The first draft is always awkward
So I go back and write again.
But still the words seem awful
Almost worse than how they began

I wait a few days to think
Till I go back and write again
The words a little better this time
But the form is tight and thin

No luck for the starving artist
Who goes back to write again
I guess I'll be like my poem
Thin and almost worse than how I first began

The sun sets on sand castles
While the waves crash against my feet
Wind whistles past me, catching my hair
Playfully whipping it, tossing it as it does the sea

Last gold rays set the water on fire
Light rippling on every wave crested in white
Life around me quiets as the wind dies down
The only sound in the hush of the waves in the night

Some times the slightest touch
From someone you never knew much
Makes your heart go wild
With the pitter-patter
And nothing else matters.

Dark hair with a blond streak
Brown eyes that make me weak,
Dark brown eyes full of laughter.
You've stepped in my life
And now I'm falling, outta time

Gentle, strong hand on my waist
Pull me closer don't make me wait
To feel your lips on mine
To feel your body pressed against me
Feel your heart beat

When I'm with him
Everything else goes away.
The loneliness,
The insecurity,
The never ending feeling of
Loss.

Everything goes away
The drama,
The world,
The never ending feeling of
Worthlessness

Everything goes away
The crowds,
The noise,
The never ending feeling of
Confusion.

When he's holding me
I feel safe
I feel warm
I feel like life
Is finally beautiful

He makes my dreams
Into reality
He makes my life
Full of wonder
He makes me
*Whole

Waking up the next morning
The cross burns on my chest
Reaching, stabbing to my heart.

A one night stand
A single hazy passion
Now only a life without you

And I know when you find out
Your heart will break
And I'll break too

Maybe though,
You won't find out
Maybe...

But the skeleton hangs
Stark white in my closet
Waiting for the world to see

The cross burns deeper
As my cheeks burn, embarrassed
That I thought to lie to you

Then I see you
The chain tightens
Choking me

I can't stop myself
I tell you everything
Thinking maybe you'll forgive me

But no..
You just walk away

"Hey let's take a walk."
He's hesitant..
He won't hold my hand
But I guess I will just go along

"I'm not sure how to say this,"
Oh no.. not this...
"I don't think we should be together.
"I found out about him"

How...
I swear my heart has stopped
I grow cold, as if ice had stabbed me
A lump sticks in my throat,
Making it hard to breathe
But I refuse to let the tears out
I refuse to let him see the heart ache

"Erin?"

Right, I have to respond
"Yeah.. I guess we just..
Weren't meant to be together"
But we could have been
"I'm sorry"

One last hug
One last look
Then he just walked away
Leaving me with a feeling
I've felt too often

Alone.