Sad and lovely face;
Bright petals of the Daisy
The wind blows them away.

-06/02/11


*Note: This is my very first haiku and is about the character named Daisy from Fitzgerald's "The Great Gatsby".

The burning skies
Desperate cries
The edge of the unknown
Those who once were, are now gone
Things which meant something, are now lost
How to let go when it hurts so much?
Behind the curtains of uncertainty
We stand to fight animosity
And struggle to find the truth
It doesn’t matter if it’s cruel
Because as long as we live…
We wish to believe
And be strong
To keep moving along
Inside, the heart feels cold
A smile then changes it all
There’s a will to make things change
Can we go back to how we used to be?
Yes if you hold my hand
And follow me
Even to hell…

-11/01/11

If I look high up,
Will I find peace?
If I breathe in fresh air,
Will I find bliss?
At night, I gaze at the stars.
Then I close my eyes,
Suppress inner wars,
Smother painful lies,
And stop to think
This very instant.
I dream, I blink,
I treasure the moment.
As precious as it is ephemeral
It won’t last forever.
The grey sky is dismal,
The rain is no better.
When the rain drops drip down,
My whole world weeps with it.
When the heart cries so loud,
Every piece of it is lost bit by bit.
Yet the morning does come,
And the azure sky smiles at me.
A lonely day is already gone,
A new one is about to begin.
I then forget the pain of yesterday
Because in hope, I innocently believe.
Bad memories have been washed away,
Again, my world has started to live.
Don’t take this away from me
Ever,
This beautiful sky.
Never,
Will I say goodbye.

-29/06/10

Every now and then, my world spins around
Giving rise to a myriad of turnarounds
At the junction of two roads
I can't help but hesitate
Where am I to go?
In this world of nothingness
Vacuum, emptiness
I feel a part of me is so shallow
I am so hollow
Struggling to find a future ahead of me
Confused by the indecisiveness haunting me
Back there, I used to be so brave
Now here, I am but a coward
My inner self is shivering with dejection
For there's no answer to this fight
Endless as it seems, nobody knows
While I want to reach the stars
Dreaming of the wonders of a utopian life
I'm ****** into a zone of utter disgrace
Greed is not a virtue
To counter it, I have to be strong
No matter how long it takes
I know I can and I will...


-10/06/09

-If I were *****, who would I choose?

The lovely Edmund treated her kind
Indeed, kind he was in her mind
He was protective of her
His words were of comfort
She doted on him so much
That seeing him with another depressed her

The charming Henry grew fond of her
On her gentleness and modesty he dwelled
In her modest and elegant manners, he found charm
There was a sweetness to her which felt warm
And Henry was seduced by such gentleness
He found her timidity so delightful
That for her, he harboured feelings so soon

Yet in *****’s innocent eyes
Crawford’s flirtations led to his own demise
Not indifferent to what seemed to be sincere efforts
He forcing his love on her however proved just worse
She was too much convinced of his pretence
In his endeavour, she found not grace but nonsense
His unsteadiness
Her ineffable kindness
They were too much different
On such belief, she wouldn’t be bent

On the other hand
There stood Edmund, oh dear Edmund
He cared about her so deeply
But his attachment was merely brotherly
Knowing such truth saddened her immensely
Yet she’d rather be with him as a sister
Than not be with him at all
He was too virtuous to be deceived

The goodness of her heart dictated to choose none
Poor Edmund was blinded by Mary’s doings
As calculated as they were, they promised sufferings
Edmund could think of no woman but Mary to be his wife
His idea of her was exceedingly flattering; what a plight
A hurt ***** could not change his mind
Her unwavering support never left his side

And the proud Henry Crawford
What to say of his ardent courtship?
At some point, vulnerable ***** could fall for him
But she never did, not even once
He changed for her in manners and words
But to defy one’s true nature would be to lie to oneself
Temptations so strong
In the presence of an interested Mrs Rushworth
Needless to say; his true colours showed, infidelity ensued

In the end, who to choose?
If I were in *****’s shoes
It certainly wouldn’t be Henry
Such a **** doesn’t deserve a pure soul like *****
Though I don’t doubt that he truly fell for her
He ruined all chances of being with her
His incessant words of love were received with pain
He tried to win her affection in vain
But to try to gain a girl’s heart with flowery talks
This is an unwise move, it is too much

Thank God, Edmund realised his error in the end
But can he redeem himself when he showed so poor a judgement?
I doubt so; and I dare question his change of heart
His infatuation for Mary faded, and his love for ***** grew so fast
Does it even make sense to have one’s eyes opened that fast?
I dare answer in the negative
This said, none of them deserve *****
If I were *****, I’d choose none...

-15/05/10

When everyone left
I was left bereft
When all were gone
And all was done
You stayed by my side
And were always the one to bide
You didn't have to open your arms wide
For a smile said it all in my puzzled mind
Never a word, just a stare
Never a touch for you wouldn't dare
Mysterious and cold
Yet comforting and bold
It was all written in the books
It was all inferred from your looks
Blessed in the shadow of loneliness
You never faltered despite the mess
Wandering alone in the woods
I knew you'd come all too soon
But you came as kind as a white knight
You saved me from the darkness of the night
And revived that shrivelled soul of mine
You lifted me out of boredom
And shed light on my lost Kingdom
You were quiet and composed
But when you spoke, you didn't pause
Your voice was soothing
Your words had meaning
And your presence was a blessing
Since the dawn of time, I never felt so light
Because you made life bright; you made it right
"Lost and insecure, you found me"
Since then, you never left me
And you waited after all these years
Never stopping to hope despite the tears
Never failing to believe despite the storm
Because you knew and never asked for more
For that, I'd forever be grateful...

-11/06/09

Sometimes I wonder
Too often I linger
Bright lights
Dim fights
What has my life become?
The road ahead still looks lonesome
Thoughts of gloom
A giant wall seems to loom
Thoughts of uncertainty
And the need for safety
Conflicting ideas of the future
The "I don't knows”, I am unsure
Where am I heading?
Why am I struggling?
The dark thoughts, I've tried to discard
All I am hoping for is a fresh, new start
What is left for me to believe in?
Questions. No answers to fill me in
There once used to be this something to ignite the passion
This something is now missing and with it has gone the inspiration
Those words I'd write with all my heart
I can't find them anymore
Sad as it is
Gone is the breeze
Gone is my dream...

-02/05/10