I want to thank you. Thank you being part of my life and letting me be a part of yours. I’d like to think I am someone special to you, that you’ll always remember me, that the ghost of a smile will curl your lips with the thought of my dumb jokes, or the “my fault” box getting checked, or my constant amazement at your sense of direction. You made me feel very special and I’ll always cherish the times that we spent, the laughter, the talks, even the tears because they were honest and you helped me to not be afraid of my emotions. I’m not sure that I ever properly expressed to you in my own clumsy way, just how much you mean to me and how thankful I am for you. I hope that in some way I was able to return the many favors, both big and small, that you did me. They meant the world to me, to have someone actually there who cared, who was in my corner when it felt as if the whole world was turned upside down and everything/everyone was against me. I’m sorry for any hurt that I caused you, that was never my intent and I apologize. I wish things had gone differently these last few months, that you hadn’t felt the need to stay away. It hurt me, and I think you felt the pain of it as well. I don’t know if I’ll ever see or hear from you again and that’s why I’m writing this. In spite of it all I don’t regret our time, just the fact that it went by so quickly. Thank you, I’ll miss you and always harbor a place for you in my heart, hoping that you are happy and living the life that you so richly deserve, one with laughter, and travel, and joy, and happiness, and adventure, and romance. I hope that you find what I couldn’t give you and that you make the very most of every moment.
I'm leaving this place, and this area soon, and it's a goodbye letter that I'll never send, because she no longer wants to think of what we had, and have no longer. And I can't carry this anguish around with me anymore, I need to learn to let go. You don't need to leave comments, just need to get this out. thank you.