Emanuel Martinez

Emanuel Martinez Jun 2011

You make me feel vulnerable
Don’t know if I can trust myself with you
But I want to be there for you
So I will bring down my guard
Just hope you don’t break me from within

We’re both alone and we need someone
Life is not certain and I may not be for you
But I need to put myself out there for you

Feelings are not always well defined
More often their blurry and hard to find
But maybe with you they will become clear

The world is waiting for me to fight
And I need someone to help me try
Maybe you can help me through it

If life takes us different ways
It’s quite alright
But I can’t live with myself
If I don’t try this once with you

My heart is guarded by politics of the mind
My feelings struggle with rational thoughts
I should portray a certain image to everyone
So I can’t really show you how I feel
Though when around you I feel like holding you close
And not let time pass because I feel at ease

I feel you need someone
To be there to catch you
When you fall down hard
I want to be that person
A pillar that holds you
And builds you up

I feel that yearning in your soul
You think you’re self sufficient
But why don’t you rely on me
I want you to know
I want to be there for you

It’s okay to let yourself go
The world is not perfect
And some say you may fall
If you don’t prepare yourself
But there is beauty
In seeing the good of mankind

If your heart really seeks it
Then you will find someone
Whom you can rely on
It may not be me, but it could be me
My heart yearns to fill your void

I come without hidden agendas
And I want you to be complete within
I don’t know what you want
If you want me at all

I offer you a fort of solitude in my heart
And even if we stay only friends
I want to be there for you

And I cannot articulate a perfect way how to say
You inspire me and you empower me
I feel inadequate in your eyes
And I want to be so much better for you
Just being next to you I feel can bring about growth

I don’t know if our futures intertwine
But you are one special person that confounds me

October 27, 2010

Emanuel Martinez Nov 2010

Feelings' Reality

Its been years, its been years
Almost there but not nearly out
The future is left in suspense due to fears

A glass vacuum is filled with good feelings
And happiness seems to cozen time
As the mind is caught in memory's vine
The unstable balance of it threatens to falter and topple

How well will this wonder withstand
The hard hits of reality as it strike the inside over and over again
More and more cracks over time
Deepen and seep in right into the core
Threatening to bring fears in

The glass vacuum will shatter
Intoxicating good feelings with realities
And the suspension of time will be absorbed by worries
It will simply rot the stillness that remains

June 24, 2010

Emanuel Martinez Jun 2011

True Love

True love is innocent
True love is beautiful

It's a touch without malice
A caress like velvet
Illustrating only true emotions

True love is innocent
True love is full of joy and happiness
When eyes glimmer brightly
And there are no false pretenses
Hidden in their soul
But Only pure intentions

June 24, 2010

Emanuel Martinez Nov 2010

Four Years

It's been only four years
Of your life, passing on by

You came awkward and shy
What to say, which way to go
You didn't know
What everything was about

Now your on your way out
And everything seems clear

It's been only four years
Of your life, passing on by

Each year you grew
And you grew a little more
That smile no longer confound
You made friends
who were fond of you

This school was full of them
Friends for life and more

It's been only four years
Of your life, passing on by

It feels like a lifetime to some
And others are ready to run
But no one will forget
All the good times that have gone

Hilarious, sad, profound
Memories were behind every corner
Unforgettable people talking to us
Their face will be
cemented in our minds

It's been only four years
Of your life, passing on by

And great teachers were always
Pushing you beyond
putting seeds in your mind
Now your ready to harvest
The ideas that fill your mind

These have only been four years
a temporary settlement
In our life
Beautiful times flying on by

Now it's time to enter
The rest of our lifetime
Making a difference,
Surely in our mind

June 24, 2010

Emanuel Martinez Nov 2010

Reminiscing in Time

I sit in the future
Looking back at the past
Reminiscing about what is now
Tomorrow will be no longer

I'm nostalgic about
What has not yet ended
Because who knows
How good tomorrow will be

I try to rejoice in the moment
But I can't help realize
Time is flying by fast

I want to forever live
In this joy and this laughter
But what will happen tomorrow
When it all changes

I sit in the future
Looking back at the past
Reminiscing about what is now
Tomorrow will be no longer

I'm nostalgic about
The friendships and loves that I had
Because who knows
Where tomorrow they'll be

I try to rejoice in their presence
But I can't help realize
That soon we'll all be going separate ways

Now, I sit in the present
Frustrated about a future
A future which I don't know
Where it will lead

2009

Emanuel Martinez Nov 2010

The Target

My love is the stone
And your heart is the target

I aim at it fast
But you dodge it

I throw, I throw and I miss
You giggle, you laugh and you tease

The stone keeps hitting the ground
It keeps falling before you all around
Brazen arrow keeps shooting
I stop and my heart is oozing

June 1 2009

Emanuel Martinez Nov 2010

The Troubled Boy

One midnight up
The man to be, the troubled boy
woke up feeling sully, undignified

Vexed by an unwavering
Storm in his mind,
Torn, tired and tearful at last
About the facade he portrays

Good actions, he wants shown
But are being overtaken, over-showed
By chagrin from wanton tendencies

Hope he is not giving up
Maybe he'll let go of it all
Take over his life and forget it all
Become an honest man and move on

The troubled boy wants help
Distraught of mind, peace has dwindled from within him

Pulsating reminders of who he wants to be
Try to revert the lost boy back to the right path

But a transition is taking root
Forcing a recognition of accepting to
Live a life only one way, disclosed

Must facades come tumbling down
And hiding faces shown light
Or
Must hiding faces be buried up
And facades become true sights

The troubled boy will decide

December 2009