I used to count the hours until the moon awakened
and the stars blanketed the blackness of the sky.
I fought through the heaviness of my eyelids,
managing to stay awake long enough to answer your call.

My nights were encompassed in your stories, thoughts…laughter.
I was tainted with infatuation.
Every night I was wasted in your love,
and not once did it cross my mind that this was dangerous.

Now I loathe every passing hour of the day.
I kiss the sun goodnight, praying that it would return soon
so that I am not alone for long.
I now pray for my eyes to grow heavy,
knowing you would no longer call.

My nights are now encompassed in the ghosts
of your stories, thoughts…laughter.
I am tainted with loneliness;
wasted by your love.
The only thing in my mind
is that I should have known you were dangerous.

If I were to mindlessly meander the streets
That you told me were all in my thalamus, I
Would find the edge of Earth, devastated
And barren. Then I would contently sit on the
Brim and toss broken asphalt into the somber
Chasm and listen for echoes that remain absent.
I would welcome the silence into my
Lonesome and say, “Thank you for
Reminding me that this is all  my imagination.”

Just smile and say
"No really, I am ok"
Underneath, you cry

Should I stop?
Stop trying to become the body that I'm so unfamiliar with.

Would you like me then?

Or should I cry?
Lie at your feet; shaking, bleeding.

Would you understand me then?

Is it too much for me to ask;
for you to break down the walls,
and see me for what I am?

Only human.

A new beginning
Unknow to the world
And unknown to myself
To truly be myself
When no one is there to see
Friends away family gone
I'm finally free again

Screaming with no words
So **** loud nobody could hear
What was said that you would hear? Only an echo from a mouth
To, and through your ear