I have such power
But wily Knight could take me
If he moves with skill.

You are behind me,
Where you belong. Careful now…
I can move backwards.

A pawn is in my path.
I can’t take him,
He is protected by you.

There is a way out
But I do not want to win
I want to be won.

Take me, game over,
I willingly concede, my
strong, sweet Knight, checkmate.

acid burning
stomach churning
lies left my teeth
tears fall from my
already stained
red eyes.

Seems like I'm
always a distraction;
it's a good thing?

boy I've been out of words
and you've been out of touch
and i've been wondering
if this is gonna be enough
so i whisper to myself
that we'll be okay
but we both know we're broken
and won't do nothing about it

If I could go back
I'd go to that very dreaded day
I would find that scared little boy
and I would take him away

Hand in hand we'd go for a walk
I'd tell him it's not too late
that his actions in those next few moments
dear boy they would carry weight

the weight so heavy it can crush a soul
a feeling you will not shake
and with every beat of your heart
you will feel it ache

eventually you will grow old
you may even move away
you'll  find a girl and fall in love
but the pain I promise will stay

the guilt will grow with each passing moment
you'll despise the courage you lacked
and one day you'll awake as a man
who wishes that he could go back

I would then stop and let the boy think
hoping my words made sense
that all of a sudden he would have a change of heart
and run to his friend's defense

My heart would smile when he did just that
he turned around and ran
I would drop to my knees with joy
as the tears of relief began

If I could go back
I would not do things the same
and hopefully I could change the man
that 12 year old boy became