Elli - Hello Poetry

Elli Mar 2014

I fell into the pit
Of sadness and doubt
All because of this thing
Called society

I tore out myself
And shredded the things
That used to define me
All because they told me I can't
Be who I wanted to be

But society doesn't change
They judge you for who you are
And who you aren't
It's a prison
And we cannot escape it

Elli Mar 2014

leaf

she is lost
blowing through the wind
always on the move
and nowhere to call home
she dances around
on a windy day
and maybe stay on someone's lawn
but she never stay too long
even if she wanted to
because she is lost
and too light
to fend off the wind;
separated from her tree
what will she do now?

Elli Mar 2014

Untitled

I know what you are;
You laugh at my own demise
I hear it still,
so loud
and yet painful
I see you smile
as my blood meets the ground
you're mocking me
I see your mouth move
and form a word
idiot
you seemed to say
but i couldn't hear
over this piercing sound
of my tears
my skin stings
because it's covered
with fresh wounds
where did this come from?
I am crestfallen
how could you?
how?
and yet you just stare at me
with those eyes,
you seemed entertained
watching my own destruction
that's right,
I know who you are
you're *me

Elli Mar 2014

my undying foe

I yield my sword
against my undying foe
and he doesn't even flinch
unbeknownst to him
that i am capable to slay
where does his false security lie?
oh that's right,
he was immortal
his wounds heal
and when it does, he strikes
where i am most vulnerable
he doesn't need a sword
because all he ever needs
is his words
he can make my knees tremble
and his wicked grin
can make me turn away
against this undying foe
who am i to say?
he can conquer my thoughts
with a snap of his fingers
he laughs as i dance around
his petty little games
how can i end this
when my undying foe
resides in my head?

Elli Mar 2014

for you

the world is beguiling me
because someone like you is too good to be true
the feelings you give me is something i've long to feel
you are wondrous strange; one of a kind
and i hope to keep you in my arms
let the world crash and burn
as long as you're with me then it doesn't matter

you take my breath away
which is ironic because i need you like oxygen
to know your existence is assurance to me
because maybe the word isn't so bad
if you exist in it

sometimes i wonder if it's fate
but then it doesn't matter if it is or isn't
because i have given up too much
but one thing is for certain
i'm not giving up on you

still editing

Elli Mar 2014

Untitled

I take a deep breath
but I felt a pang on my chest
and I couldn't breathe
as if the world is suffocating me
the darkness is everywhere
I have nowhere to hide
I feel the hopelessness overtake my body
and all I can do is watch everything fall apart

and i cried for hours
about the pain i've kept hidden
letting it all flow out of my body
in the form of tears and soundless sobs

Elli Feb 2014

nightmare

my nightmares used to be
about monsters under my bed
and the demons in my head
but I don't check under my bed
nor look in my closet for them anymore
because my nightmares only consist
about you, and the pain
if i ever lose you