Apparently I say the same thing too much
Apparently I don't express emotion outwardly
Apparently i spent too much time alone
Apparently I shouldn't be waking up 15 times a night
Apparently my voice should be loud enough to hear over the roar of a bus
Apparently my blind hatred for people ruins things
Apparently
Apparently
Apparently

Theres this one tree
At my house
I think it's maple
That always takes forever for all it's leaves to at least turn red
And it waits
Until the first snowfall
To drop any leaves
This is my favorite season
The tree
Is beautiful
And I used to take pictures of it
But now i don't because i don't find it worth the effort
What have i dooone
Ugh
Trees

.
                           "I pull him
                         deeper in my
                        mouth so I can
                       feel  him  at  the
                        back of my thro
                        at and  then  to
                        the front again.
                        My tongue  swi
                        rls   around the
                        end.   He's   my
                        very own Chris
                        tian   Grey- flav
                        ored     popsicle.
                        I    ****   harder
                        and   harder . . .
                         . . . Hmmm . . .
                         my   inner   god
                         dess    is   doing
             the merengue      with some salsa
        moves. " " You'r e   so    deliciously wet
         god I want you  I '  m going to *******
            now Ms. Steele      hard . . .   come
                   for       me               Ana."

The sound of a knife
Grating against the edge of another knife
Is one of the best sounds to me
It distracts me like almost nothing else can
-shhhhhnk-
The flow of red
After you fall
While messing with the knives
Is one of the best liquid colors I'll ever see in my life
-shhhhhnk-
The loss of breath
And heavy chest
And heavy arms
Wait that's just me feeling weak
Sorry
Bye

Your eyes remind me of oceans, yes
But that's too cheesy
Your eyes remind me of the night sky when theres only a few light thin clouds
That's still too cheesy
Your eyes remind me of winter sunsets
Still too cheesy
Your eyes remind me of the smell of Chinese food
Gross
Your eyes remind me of the vibrant colors of the partially white corn snakes
Weird
Your eyes remind me of why I don't give up
Ahh
Perfect